Monday, April 11, 2011
There Will Be Vulgarities in This Post!!
Sat went JB to bring Li Ling out.. Who knows will kanna stab again.. This is not the first.. Fxxk.. I already said.. Things dun need me to find out, it will automatically find its way to let me know..I really hate backstabbers.. I flared my anger at my mum who asked me not create trouble for Xiao Jiu.. Fxxk man.. He sided his wife.. What for I being so nice to help him safeguard his money.. I dun wan play nice either..Another thing also keep me moody for today.. Which I dun wish to talk about it.. I dunno ever since few weeks back.. I felt I lose trust in certain things.. Certainly I will think carefully what to say or not to.. I really afraid of kanna backstab..I got to thanks those people who tell me stuff but I felt u also believe in what the other person say.. When u got closer with the party who backstab me.. I would withdrawn myself from u.. I really prefer to talk less nowadays.. Keeping my thoughts to myself..Actually today wanna go on MSN de.. But after certain thoughts.. I close msn window without signing in.. I went on FB but did nth much on there.. Shopping online but I bought nothing as I today really no interest in anything..KC msg me.. I didn't reply.. He called.. I hung his phone.. I dun wanna talk to anyone.. I force myself to sleep.. But my brain doesn't stop thinking about the matters and scenarios keep playing in my brain..I wanna seek Dad to talk but he couldn't be found anywhere.. I am so frustrated.. I felt so lost.. I dunno what to do.. Woke up when I heard the door bell rang.. Stone on bed.. KC came my hse.. He asked me why never on my room lights.. I said I wanna stay in the dark for awhile as this is what I am feeling deep down..Talk to him a little.. He said sometimes I ought to ask why instead of keeping quiet.. I said I can't stop ppl from telling others stuff which I dun wish to share anymore.. I dun feel the closeness anymore.. Its also why I seldom msg ppl on MSN coz I dun feel the need to let ppl know what I am thinking as it will be snub at..After tat I went to bath while mum and KC had their dinner without me.. I do not have anymore appetite.. I drank the soup as I asked my mum to cook.. Granny called and talked to mum.. After hanging up.. Mum told me what Granny says..It drives me up and turned it into a rage.. I wanted to go JB and confront her.. KC stopped me.. He said I being too rash.. Keep my cool.. How to... She not only once stab me.. Fxxking idiot.. I got enough of this shit.. I kanna give her a peace of my mind.. Including hammering her upside down.. I dun care.. I not going to give respect to her anymore.. My Xiao Jiu is such a weakling.. Let me as a junior teach her some lesson.. Bloody idiot bitch..Mum got scolded by me as she said let her be.. Why I poke my nose.. What the Fxxk.. She backstab me to granny.. Now I know.. I dun go confront and let her be.. Fxxk man.. Like that she keep think I am good to be bully..I tell my mum ok fine.. Next time whatever happens dun tell me.. I not interested.. What reunion dinner.. U all can fxxking enjoy that dinner and I not interested.. I gonna cut tat bloody ties with them.. Dun ask me go visit granny anymore.. I won't step into that dirt house anymore.. I gonna see them suffer.. Fxxking idiots trying to be troublemaker.. I shall let them see what is really call troublemaker and I make sure they live like hell!!!KC said I shouldn't be tat mean.. I said I being nice and never wanna calculate every single thing with her.. Now she like tat.. I one shot return her.. I always say I forget.. In actual fact I remember every single damn thing.. Including the incident with KC's mum which almost turn us into enemy..I listened to KC and did not go JB as it may affect Granny.. She's old to take any blow.. I should not be creating problem for Granny.. That bloody bitch is lucky.. Because she is staying with Granny.. If not I would by all means go and hammer her like hell.. I will make sure either she dies or I die.. I rather the kids got no mother than having a mother who do nothing in upbring her kids but push blame to others for spoiling her kids..I also told my mum no more stuff for her kids.. They suffer also none of our biz.. Their fate turns like tat, blame it on their mum.. Her kids will eventually blame their mother for not being love by us anymore.. Whenever they call.. We will just cut short.. Dun wanna talk to them..I just curse her to death in front of my mum.. I dun care.. Mum say Granny said my mouth very wicked.. Then I said better than a wicked heart.. Wicked heart die faster.. I dun care my mum wanna be close to them a not.. But from now onwards.. I have nothing to do with my JB relatives.. It's not they abandon me.. But I abandon them.. I also make sure they will no income coming from my side..I also going to withdraw my shares in my uncle shop.. I dun wan to help anymore.. His business flop also none of my business.. Anyway all this gonna happens, he ought to thank his wife for every contribution.. I am really pissed and angry.. If I got to see her.. I sure kill her and I sure beat Lai to a pulp for causing harm to Li Ling.. I really dislike bullies.......
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