Thursday, May 28, 2009
~HaNaBi~
I got a screwed up morning. Alarm dunno got sound a not as I woke up at 5am and look at my phone.. Then I put it at a location that I can't feel the vibration at all.. Haiz.. Cheng woke me up at 7am and asked me whether I going work a not de. I should be the one waking him up de but for today is the other way round. Shit I think I made him go work late tdy. 5 mins late for work for him and for me, I am on time.
Saw my AP head, Pat at the shuttle waiting area with Ruby. Not long later, May joined us.. Reached office, slack awhile.. Today Ruby's last day and Karen told me after Ruby leaving then its her turn.. Hmm.. AP changing new people because their work permit is up so they decided not to extend and they going back to Malaysia.
Hmm.. Today work till 1830. I msg Aunt Martha at 1800 telling her I will be late. Then I cabbed down from my work place to Cityhall.. I am freaking late lo.. Dun want get any nagging in my poor ears. Traffic is freaking heavy but the uncle sped. I reached at 1850.. After that we walked to Odeon Tower. Rueuon is at there le. Then she told me today was the last day for the UOB promotion. I knew about it that's why I planned today go eat ma.. LoL...
Hmm.. Ate quite a lot.. I had Curry Fried Chicken with Rice as I am freaking hungry, 6 plates of Salmon Sashimi (5 plates for 4 servings and 1 plate for 1 serving), Mix Sashimi (4 servings), Mix Tempura (4 Servings), Baby Octopus (4 Servings), 1 Chawanmushi, 1 Agedeshi Tofu, 1 Califonia Roll, 1 Fried Chicken (1 serving) and they are a few more which I forget what is it as mostly is they can't finish de. So I ate it.. There are complimentary dishes too for u to try.. We paid $29 each. Ate a lot but I am felt full bcoz I refilled about 6 to 7 times of my green tea.. Haha...
Rueuon was trying to show me how much she know about eating sashimi then when I ate it without any sauce.. She said, I ate the salmon as if I eating ice cream.. Like so nice and made her wanna try.. LoL.. I juz like to eat it raw without sauce.. Yuan Zhi Yuan Wei.. Haha...
After that we wanted to go to the rooftop bar to chill but its noisy.. So went to find where nice to chill.. She intro quite a few quiet pubs along Raffles Hotel to chill.. Then we came to this Naumi which is a hotel. It have a Naumi Pub in it. The sitting is so comfy. So we went in. She is super into wine. Damn.. I am dead meat.. My mind was trying to be alert but my body is feel lethargic.. Shit.. I suggest go home.. But kanna say for spoiling mood.. RoaR.. Hang around and I am stoning liao.. She ordered Malt and each of us 10 shots. Pure Malt with no mixing. Aunt Martha freak out. She stopped her from giving me. I didn't ask for it. I wan cranberry juice but was given that. Freak she wanna get me drunk lo.. But I know how to hold my liquor.. But I muz admit I am not that freaking good but 10 shots at most get me tipsy only and I still can walk home de lo... But I confirm make her drunk before she gets me down...
On the 5 shots, she start to say nonsense le.. I have not see heaven.. So I know I am awake.. By the 8th.. She already dead.. But she manage to finish the 10th.. While I already end mine way b4 her.. Hehe... After that.. My aunt sent her home as she is dead meat.. I walked with Mui Choo to the MRT and I head home after that.. I know I am feeling tipsy but I am still on the awake side... I still what's going on.. Hehe.. Hmmm.. Today my company also got give dumpling to us. I gave one to Aunt Martha.. The rest I took home. Maybe Sat and Sun can eat or maybe by tml the dumplings are gone without me eating any.. LoL.. Mum made Kee Chang for me.. Yeah!! I got to eat it.. Hehe.. Last year I didn't get to eat any.. Haha...
About life.. Hmm.. Its really going up and down.. Sometimes happy and sometimes not but I juz protray the happy self.. What's hiding behind this mask, no one will be interested to find out as people read the expression I gave so juz see the happy Renee roaming around.. Sometimes its good not to express the real emotion as it will spoil another person mood.. For instance, when I am unhappy I also won't say... I dun find the need to say as it is another way of getting attention. I do wonder does it worth the point of doing so? Conclusion is no lo.. LoL..
I think I am done for today.. Quite tired and I think while typing, I almost fell asleep.. Haha.. I should say I enjoy the food la.. Haha..
Monday, May 25, 2009
MonDay with Mix Feelings
Morning woke up at 4am with a nightmare. Force myself back to sleep and in the end, I felt sleepy when the next wake up is 6am. I snooze my alarm till 0630. Went on msn to see who is online. Ya its like a daily routine to me. LoL...
Called JJ and meet him 0715 at Bugis Ctrl but I am late. I arrived at 0735 instead. Then trained to Clementi and waited for shuttle to go work. Work was alright today and slowly I get to talk with my colleagues and everything is in slow pace. Hehe...
Time was clicking fast as I have things to do and tomorrow I doing OT as need to take over the work before my colleague went off which is this thurs as her last day. Haiz.. She's juz a year older and she's friendly de. Heee....
Hmm.. Went to took 51 home and the journey is long. I trying to see which route to go home best. But I think I will train next time. As taking the bus, my knee cap got lock after awhile. Sian... Hmm.. I dunno why, somehow I felt empty. Its like somehow when going home there bound to have someone to accompany me on phone. But everything changes since then. I will get use to it de.... Shut my eyes, played music on my psp and soon I doze off as I am tired. Its also the best way to stop the mind from wandering and causing pointless emo in me. Hehe....
It took me an hour 15mins to reach home. That's freaking long lo.. But last time bus home from MDIS is like 30 mins. But Pandan Loop to MDIS was like 15mins. Hmm.. I counted it to be 45mins de lo.. =.="
Its still train better. Today didn't meet anyone so means I came home without dinner. Planned to cook maggi but I am lazy so I skipping my dinner. Tomorrow maybe also skipping dinner ba. Since OT, nowhere to buy dinner. There so ulu and I don't think got any kind soul would packed dinner for me. Haiz... Wed also be OT-ing. Wah like that I confirm can lose another few KG. Then I think yest sushi was like help me put some weight for me to shed within this few days. So I won't feel guilty in losing my weight. LoL... If I really put on weight, I will be super happy but I doubt the day would come. LoL...
Hmm.. Phone was rather quiet lately.. 真的好不习惯... It is because last time I can walk anywhere, my phone is always sounding.. I really must get use to it sia. Not doing big business or wat but somehow I know I was being accompanied by..... Hmm.. I shall not rake it up. Erz....... Frankly lo.. I never really felt so alone before and so empty..... :(
Where's my life....... I dunno...... 好不自在.... Haiz.... I applied leave on June 2 and plan to go enjoy after my exam. Yest I wanna go Waraku on that day. I had everything planned on that day... Hehe...
Here's my plan but not finalize as I need to ask the guys... Hehe...
Morning ard 9am I going to my grandma tomb to pay respect. After that home to nap. Wake up do final read through, not going to memorize le. Hehe.. Then go for my exams. Try to do it within 2 hours and run.
That will be like 5pm. JJ should ending his class. Then can meet them have dinner @ ECP. Hehe.. Go there relax, chill and crap all my mind but hope no one will be my mood spoiler if not I think I will juz kill that person off.. **EVIL SMILE** Gonna throw all the abundances at ago before returning to work the very next day. Then I also planned my weekends, go KTV and eat. Hopefully the sales person called and said my watch is ready.. The first expensive watch that I am getting.. Hehe.. I can't wait after my exams.
Night in the Museum 2 is in the theatre... I think I will just download instead. I didn't forget the first episode and I prefer to watch it in the cinemas actually. But.. I think forget it. Dun feel like commenting. Haha.. I know it myself can le. Hee..
Lastly, I am planning for my overseas trip this Dec. No one going with me, I will still go as sometimes going overseas alone can be fun too. Hehe.... My friend tell me de. Haha.. But I still hope got people go with me as can enjoy together. Hehe.... Alright at least looking forward to next week, my Monday dun seem that blue liao.. Haha.. Going to sleep in another 2 .5 hours time. Stomach growling but I am still LAZY.. LoL...
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Jap FooD & ShoPPinG
Yest went out with GJ and JJ for dinner. Went Ikea @ Tampines then ate dinner at TM.. Then trained home after that..
Home to play game. After went to bed at 5am and woke at 10am. Short sleep only coz going to meet Aunt Martha at Woodlands. Its far but no choice. Prepare to leave house and walked all the way to Fu Lu Shou there to bus to Woodlands. Freaking bus was SLOW. Doze off in the bus and woke up, I am only at BP. WTF.. I am late. My ears going to be screwed coz I meeting her at 1150 and its already 1150 while I am still rotting in bus to Woodlands. Freak out. Hope her service dun end on time.
When I reached Marsling, she sms me asking why I am not there yet. Another few more stops I am at Woodlands so I told her I reaching CWP and will change bus to find her at her church there. She didn't reply. Assume she haven't not read the message.
At the bus berth, thinking should I take 900 or 901 coz both routes about same distance. 900 came so I board the bus. Just when I about to reach, she called. I freak out for a moment. But lucky she got Mui Choo to accompany her. Hengz......
Then I got off and went over to Vista Point to find her. She didn't get angry or anything but complaining about Mui Choo.. LoL... So I lend her my ears and she asked me what I wanna eat for dinner. I said anything as usual coz I dun really like to decide but follow the crowd. She also ask shuang only coz she know where they go eat, I will have something to eat. Then Mui Choo knew my favourite and suggest we eat sushi for lunch.
Aunt Martha suggest go Yio Chu Kang there eat as its quite quiet and less people so nice place to chill.. Wah.. I long time never been there.. Let me think the last time I go there was 2007, went NYP find my brother and also go there the sports hall to work out. Hmm... Its freaking long but I didn't know that there got sushi. LoL......
Bus back to interchange and train to YCK.. Then Aunt Martha led me the way to the restaurant. Had my filled man.. Ate Salmon Sashimi shared with Aunt Martha, Chawanmushi, 15 colour plates of sushi (I forgot what I took and this is what I ate alone), 1 plate of Ebi prawn (shared among the 3 of us) and 1 Agedashi Tofu. Aunt Martha and me shared the Gamma Cha which is another type of green tea. The tea is nice. Aunt Martha like it a lot and aske me how come I know that the tea won't made the throat feel dry. Hehe.. Its because got someone teach me de. Hee... Then Mui Choo had Rosebud tea and I dun really like this tea. Haha...
Hmm.. The total bill was $71.70. Hehe.. I think this is the lot I would eat if comes to food. Hmm.. I have special liking for jap food especially raw salmon. I dun like to go with any sauce but eat it plainly. If put with sauce, I think it juz defit the purpose of eating raw as the taste of the fish is not there but all you eat is the soya sauce. Ok the logic I said also taught to me by someone. But I all along like to eat raw and I dunno the reason till someone told me. LoL.. I am also being taught how to eat with wasabi and it won't make u tear and that's how a jap ate sushi. Hehe.. Got a lot of knowledge and its freaking interesting. Hee..
After we ate finish and paid, we left for Orchard. Frankly speaking they felt full because of the food but I actually drank too much of Gamma Cha till I feel full coz my aunt could not finish the pot after the waiter refilled it. =.="
So in the end I drank 1 and half pot of Gamma Tea. Train to Orchard and we went Far East Plaza. Aunt Martha walked around and she saw a nice dress. I shopped around and in the end, I bought a top. LoL... Wah.. Its been long that I actually doing shopping for clothes but I shopped for slips, shoes, heels etc.. Yup that's what I am going to buy in my shopping list after I got my pay. I need a new pair of heels badly. Dun wan wear slips to work. Hehe...
After that went Isetan at Scotts to walk around and chill at Mac for some drinks while I ate another filiet burger. Then after that we went to OG @ Orchard to shop around then we bus down Bugis. Went BHG as I wanna look at watch. Yes...... Another 3 weeks, I am going to have a new watch. Hehe.. I looking forward to it. Wah.. If I gonna calculate how much I spend today it would juz freak me out. But its not good to spend on someone else pocket as well..
After that we went OG @ Albert, Aunt Martha wanna look for her friend Reuoen who is working at Elizabeth Arden. Some of my products are also brought there and frankly speaking I did not buy perfume for quite long coz whenever I popped by to accompany Aunt Martha to find her she just gave me another small bottle. Hee.. Money really saved. Hehe...
Then chatted with her and we love Hanabi's food. So she made a date that this thurs, we going Hanabi @ O'dean. Hehe.... I am freaking looking forward to it. Yeah!! Its been months I eat Jap food... Now at a go, I have so much to eat.. But I have not forgot my craving for WARAKU... Hehe... Feels like a glutton for a moment. Hehe.. Ok... I had a long day today. Tomorrow back to work..
Had to turn in to my comfy bed. Hee.. ^_^
(The someone who taught me about Jap food is my cousin. He is running a restaurant in Raffles Place :>)
Friday, May 22, 2009
A New BegiNNing For WorK
Started work for a week and bad news is I fell sick. :(
Body can't withhold heat. Just yest ate sweet potato and fries. Today I am down with fever and almost got sore throat. Sobz.. Doc say I should have stop myself from eating a lot of fried stuff till the weather actually change better. My gastric also not working well. Sian.. Dislike to see doc coz a lot of symptoms will just face out. Haiz.. Got so much pills to eat and I freaking dislike eating tablets.. Some of u knw why.. Needless to say.. Haiz...
Colleagues and boss at new work place is nice but I still dun really know how to communicate with them. Slowly ba. I am not that good in talking with strangers. Hmm.. Work load is still fine and I hardly see the needs of overtime. But I think I will try to work OT for next week to get all the things master. Hehe..
Though going work is freaking far for me and the distance travel brings back lots of memories BUT there isn't the point. Haha..Yup... I had always say going West is far for me. Till today I still feel the same.. Hee...
Hmm.. Few days ago, my mum asked me a question which I really dunno how to ans..... She asked that everyday after work, do I look at my phone when I walked out of the building. Hmm.. I do not want to deny nor answer. Yup... I know what she's hinting about. Hmmm... Neither do I want to say here. I do have to agree that I had never feel so alone before. But it juz a matter of time to get use to it. I get use to my surroundings and whatever happens easy. This won't cause me any harm.
Hmm.. Had been meeting JJ to take train to west in the morning except yest and today. Then after work will meet JJ or GJ to eat dinner. My mum lazy to cook and I am lazy to pack dinner back home so either I meet someone to eat dinner if not I skip my dinner. LoL
Today received Kat's msg that she found a job. Hehe.. Finally both of us ends our job hunting. Haha.. Hmm.. I promised to upload the pics of the phone and after much decision and suggestions given. I think I will buy W995. Hehe.. Simple reason is because of its headphone jet. Haha... Weekends ahead... Dunno what to do.. No plans in mind... It may not be the first but somehow, I dunno what to do during weekends. Exam is juz a week away. Preparation was like ok only.. LoL.. Done with my updating.. Enjoy the pics!! ^_^
SE W995
SE Idou
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Should I buy SE Idou or W995?
Hmm.. Browse the webbie, thoughts of changing phone. SE coming out new phones and its slim and sleek. Idou is 12MP camera but nt 3.5mm headphone jet. Both got wi-fi. But w995 is 3.5mm headphone jet with 8MP camera. Both phone got their own speciality.
Shit man.. Dunno which one to choose.. Both got my attention. W995 coming out in June as listed and Idou will be later.. Hmm.. I can't really decide. Unless someone buy the other one and can exchange once in awhile to play with it.. Hehe.. But no one will do that.. Haiz... My 2 year plan is going to be up.. I really dun like LG phone.. Its super lousy..
Hmm.. Today went for revision class and it marks the final.. 1 week left to exam and the eagerness or anything juz doesn't register into my mind. Work is starting tomorrow. Tonight gonna sleep early as waking up as freaking early as 6.30am. Hmmm.. This is the usual time I sleep daily but gonna change my body clock. =.=
Prepare what to wear to office and also pack my bag for tomorrow. Hmm.. I will post up the photos of the phone I want in my next entry. Hee.. I am slowing down on my blogging as nothing much in life to talk about. Everyday seems the same to me.
Was talking to my friend on msn yesterday, she was telling that its first time her bf went to pick her up after her work and she was freaking happy. She shared her happiness with me. Then I gave her a surprised question, so what was tat kind of feeling u had when yr guy picked u up. She goes silent in a moment. Then she asked me, dun I have ever gone through tat my guy would wait for me after work or giving surprises of fetching off school or work. I replied her in a serious tone. If I have, then I would not asked. I told her, the only one I could remember was he came down the day before my bday to give me surprise and that's all.. She got freak out by my answer and I goes watever. Then I lose my interest in getting to know also.. Lol... Then we were talking about other things. Hmm.. Its a short chat before I head off to my bed. Yest wanna eat subway but its freaking packed. So I gave up hunting for subway. Went to Concorde hawker and ate the mince meat noodle. Maybe I weekdays then eat subway. Weekends can jolly well forget about going as it will always be packed.
Later meeting my aunt. Damn sian. Thought of finding someone to go with me. So that I can excuse myself and instead of stay with her for long. She gets possessive and naggy after awhile which I thinks I had to take a break from it.
For another thing which got me pissed recently is that few months ago, someone asked me buy something and expected me to hound him down evey moment to collect the things from me. WTF man!! I couldn't understand, when someone ask u to help buy thing and u bought it. After that u told the someone, u had bought it and u expect the someone to tell u when he gonna take it from u. But few weeks ago, when u message the someone, he said to u that he thought u had forget about it. WTF!! U are the one who bought it and its in yr hse and how can u forget it. Its precisely telling u that he had forgotten it. Then when u asked him when he gonna get it from u. He was saying I on night shift. WTF!!! U on what shift got my prob a not?! KNS!! Then today u message him again coz u are really pissed whenever u open yr fridge saw that 3 packs of things still lying there. Yes its because none of yr family members nor u will eat and its obvious that u buy for that someone. Hours later he replied that he going with his family to malaysia when u asked him when he gonna take the things from u. Fuck man!! Can't he just answer to the question or is he trying to tell any of us here that he failed comprehension. Coz he dunno how to answer to the question.Yup I am super pissed. When I reached home, my mum asked me the same old question. So when is yr friend collecting tat from u. ROAR!!! If I know I would have meet up and gave him. Bloody hell.. I tell my mum forget it. By next week if he doesn't take it from me, juz dump it or give to whoever u think got eat la. My mum was like unhappy as its somehow like throwing my money away and its like I bought it with what I had left in malaysia. My bank account went dry because of some reason which happen in the family. But its for the purpose of saving someone so I have no regrets. I know I should have charge him for helping him to buy instead of FOC. Damn regret now. Its like being taken for granted. Then I told her.. Forget it. Next time this person going to ask me for any help I would juz turn away or serve him bird shit. Fuck la... This got me to learn a lesson. Never be helpful or kind to people who dun deserve it. I am still pissed with it. It may take sometime for me to consider whether I wanna forgive. For so many things the someone did, Iam considering about our friendship. But frankly speaking, after so many things happen recently. I think he needs to grow up and if he chose to be what he is nw.. Then its really putting this friendship to a test. But I had to say, he jolly well hope that I will still pin hope on it. Coz I am slowly giving up.
Friday, May 15, 2009
Revision Class
Today went revision class. Almost doze off. Left half way as its getting draggy. Went to meet Freddy to take the Lao Po Bing from him which he had bought for me in HK. Thanks a lot man. I got to know him through working recently. Hehe.. Then he drove me to PP to meet GJ and JJ who are going there to rollerblade. Thought of joining them but my bag is freaking heavy. So I decided to find a place to sit and relax.
But guess what, my stomach is freaking hungry until I dun feel like talking. The more they trying to make me laugh, I got pissed. Sorry guys. Then after that we went to Giant as I wanna see the back saver light for my bike as it's spoilt. Dad doesn't want to replace a new one for me. Haiz. Maybe tomorrow I going to the bicycle shop to check the price for a china bicycle lock and also the bottle holder as I need one too. I think I going to make it a point that every sat, I gonna exercise to keep myself healthy. Seems lately I have been exercising and I am less prone to get sick. Hehe...
But I still prefer to cycle and sadly GJ and JJ dun own a bike. Have to think how to plan le. Unless meet them then go ECP together but I will still cycle my bike there. Hehe.. 18 more days left to exam. Tomorrow there's lesson and going see doc in the afternoon. Because mum was panic by seeing more bruises on my knee cap even though I didn't bang into anything. It just appear. She's worried. So tml afternoon I going see the doc.. Hate to see doc but at my mum request. I got no choice. Haiz... Was moody because of this. When will my knee cap stop appearing bruises out of no where. :(
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Finally Got a Job!!
Yeah~ I finally got a job and ends my job hunting. Starting work on Monday. I am looking forward to it. Hope everything goes well. Hmm.. First time find job without going through agency and its TEDIOUS. Enduring months of going dry on cash flow. Its frustrating and sometimes irritating.
Hmm.. Went to meet GJ and JJ for dinner. Maybe I can plan for the things on my list after a few months LATER....... Not this moment as there are a lot of things to settle. The things on my list is not that important.
Something just bothering in my mind. That's school.. I have not register for the class and the closing date is June 6. Maybe same as Sharilyn ba. Just skip this July class. While she wait for company sponsor, I try to save for next year Jan class instead. Haiz... All this prob is because of the sign "$". Haiz.....
Hmm.. Something actually running through my mind but I dunno. Quite confused. I dunno.... Maybe I just think and read too much on one's actions and interpret it the wrong way. Exams is drawing near. Revision classes starts tomorrow and spread over the weekends. Going to attend it on some agreement. I getting lazier for my books. Really need a boost. Haiz.... Dunno la. The mood of study just not there with me for the moment. I need to get that mood back. But no worries. I had a good gasp on my sub. Hee....... Lastly, its another 14 of the month. The date which stored memories. I just like the date 14 and always good things happens on this day. Hee........
I think I gonna have a good sleep tonight. Hee..... ^_^
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
2 More Weeks to Exam
Hmm.. Weeks have passed.. No News of job.. Went for the interview this morning and what was told is to wait for news. The whole idea came to me was like its better to look for another job. This job doesn't suit me that kind. Haiz..
I am losing my patience looking for job le. Damn sian... But wat to do.. Have to tolerate lo... Mum was talking to me yest. Said if can't find job then temp stop my studies. Haiz... Juz received the July time table and was thinking liao. Once I plan to take, then have to pay money. Haiz..... The amount goes by "K" and not hundreds. Damn freaking sian...
Then mum know I starting to feel moody when it comes to the word associate with "$" then she start to change topic.. She then asked me when did I started to see friends so important de. Then I reply.. When I know I losing my friends lo.. Then she asked me when I realised that.. Then I said.. Last year.. Lol.. She fainted.. Haha..
But in me.. I was thinking.. Have I really think friends are important ma... Then I realised ya they are part of my life but not the extend to that I will be bother much with their every affairs.
So they are partially important not very important that kind. Even if they made me upset or watever shit, I also won't bother to care that freaking much. Hmm.. Just like what my mum says, sometimes she feels that I always choose to be alone.
For me liking to be alone because I tend to feel peace but sometimes a person also needs a company... Lol.. Contradicting... But no one wants to live a life full of loneliness. Neither do I want.. Lol.. Anyway.. Have to prepare for exams liao.. Revision starts and my cousin is giving me unnecessary pressure. But who cares. Haha... Revision class is this weekend. I have no choice but to attend.. Its over the weekends.. Shit la.. But suan le.. 2 weeks to exams and I dun feel the tense up my nerves. Juz do my best. Haha..
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Body is getting WeaKer
Got home this morning.. Yest went to meet JJ played basketball then went Hougang Ave 1 find Ted as to sell him my dad's phone but then I realized my dad didn't passed me the earphones.. RoaR.. I have to make another trip.. Suan le..
Then after that went to meet GJ together went airport to study.. Hmm.. Yest was talking to Sharilyn online.. Exams is just a month away liao.. I not panic not anxious nor am I that stress yet.. Or should I say I have not experience any stress before, not even during N level times.. =.=
Hmm.. Yest look at my books my mind was a total blank.. Then I realised its somehow slowing down le.. Maybe I just recover from slight flu.. Which my parents was like shock that I recovered so fast this time.. I tend to be sick for quite long before recovery.. So its a blessing in disguise la..
Kept myself awake the whole night but I knew I am collapsing.. But somehow I managed to pull through.. Dad's condition is getting worse.. Yest went with him to check up.. Haiz.. It just pain me again.. Doc says the recovery is very low.. Preparing for the worse.. Dad kept assuring me he will be ok.. How to be ok.. When he dun take heed and do what he likes.. Haiz.. I wash my hands off le..
Anyway I have to start making plans.. Brains please work for me.. Argh.. Its been sleeping too long le.. Dad might be full paralysed but no one know when it will be.. Haiz.. I finally felt stress not because of studies.. Keeping my mind clear of what's going on.. Damn Damn Damn...
Came home slept not more than 4 hours.. Got woke up by noises in my house.. Ya my parents talking loudly.. Argh.. Forget it.. Went out and greet them.. Then mum as usual asked me what time was I home this morning.. I told her 7 plus.. Dad said he won the bet.. Bo liao.. Then mum asked me where I went then I said airport to study.. Mum said something which had never gone through my brains before.. She said, "Wah.. First time see you revise and so much things leh.. MDIS also never see you study so hard.. At most take book there read until fell asleep..."
What the heck.. My mum wins or should I say my brain is dead or I am lazy.. Whatever...... Then dad says maybe its hard so I looking through my books.. If not I may not touch my book at all.. Diaoz.. Bullet flying everywhere.. But whatever la.. Mum was telling me that Po Po went see doctor le.. She thank me for giving her money.. Haiz.. What can I do.. I can't be at both sides right.. So I did the best I could to salvage all probs.. Sian sian sian.. KC Kor only this sat will be off the vessel.. Shit la.. Mother's day then he come back.. Why go out sea so long.. Erz... Suan le.. 我扛得了.. 我不是懦罗的.. Whatever shit.. Just some boosting words for myself.. =.=
Later maybe plan to Lorong Ah Soo there study as there quite windy and nobody.. Super quiet.. Maybe meeting JJ.. But no plans yet.. But I confirmed my plan of going there le.. JJ joining me or not is way out of question coz sometimes I just wished to be alone.. Dunno I just like the times when you are alone and roaming around.. I think I am used to be alone ba.. Haha.. Ok la.. Got to head my books before I head out for my own leisure before I get back to my books.. Hee.. Ciaoz.. Hope you all enjoyed your weekends.. Tomorrow is Monday BLUE!!!! Lol...
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Dragonfly @ St James
Yest around 10plus went to Club/Pub at St James as its Sally's birthday.. But before that meet GJ and JJ for dinner.. Then trained down Harbour Front to meet Debbie and Li Hui.. Went to buy present for Sally.. Hmm.. What we got her is a secret.. Shared the prezzie with Debbie and Melissa..
Hmm.. A lot of people I dunno de.. Apart my group who is Debbie, Lihui, ZQ and JJ.. I only know Sally, Melissa and Jeremy.. Shocked was he didn't bring his wife.. Lol.. Hmm.. I noticed something I didn't said.. I found out someone behaviour is like him.. I took noticed when Melissa treated me drinks and Melissa asked me help her see whether the waiter return her the change.. Its damn obvious lo.. I noticed le.. But I kept quiet.. I thought is I am thinking way too much..
Then ZQ, JJ and me left at 0030.. We took a cab to eat prata at GJ's neighbourhood.. But the whole thing makes it super clear to me.. The "him" is so obvious by now.. I shall not elaborate about who this "him" I talking about and I also won't say who posses the "him" character and behaviour.. Hmm.. After that the guys got angried.. I really dunno what to do.. I chase after JJ who left in a harsh.. Damn I ran and gastric just attack me.. Fxxk.. Hopefully nothing gonna happen.. When I turned, ZQ is mia.. Fxxk la.. I trying to solve the prob and yet.. Argh.. Fxxk
Damn frustrated and irritated by every action and emotion involved.. It somehow where I realised that its the point where I fallen and the same thing occured again.. It just reminded me of him.. How he left me on the streets of our fave hang out place because he is angry with some reasons.. I will Never FORGET!!
I told myself no he is not him.. But how can it be so identical.. I wonders.. I ponders.. But there isn't any solution or an answer.. Haiz.. This few days, I have been thinking of should I really move back to JB or further a bit.. So start everything a fresh.. Grandma talked to me yest and wanted to know my decision.. I pushed to Mother's Day.. I got to really give my answers by then.. But I really dunno.. Somehow or rather, what happened earlier on.. I felt maybe this place doesn't suit me at all.. I also dunno.. Confused.. Frustrating.. Maybe my finalize decision is to move back ba.. Since so many unhappy things are going around here.. I have not come out with a conclusion.. But there's still a few days to think about it.. So.... I will consider deeply ba.. Tired le.. Just reach home not long.. Bathed and all.. Blog done.. Its time to sleep.. Haiz.. It saddens my heart deeper this time.. I just wonder how to be happy when the people around aren't that happy at all.. Haiz.. :(
I have to be franked.. I miss Mel Jie a lot.. Haha.. Got crazy a bit as both of us almost fell when we saw each other.. Ya hug till we lose our balance but I managed to catch her balance.. Haha.. She ain't that fat and heavy lo.. Think she will be happy to read this.. Mel Jie.. Dun say you are fat la.. If you are fat then what am I.. Bones?! Lol.. Hmm.. Catch up with her.. Happy that you are engaged and going to have your wedding soon.. I promise I will be your sister when you going to have wedding dinner in SG.. Hee.. I miss the times I had when working with her in PUA.. A jie jie who taught me a lot during work and my munching kaki.. Wah.. I remember the times when boss not around we tea break will always ask my friend or she go pack Shih Lin the Oyster Mee Sua and Scallop Mee Sua.. Haha.. I miss the good times we had.. Hehe.. We always eat like nobody business de.. Morning breakfast, lunch and tea break.. Wa piang.. Eat non stop de lo.. Haha.. But happy moments only can be remembered.. Haha.. Ok.. I wanna keep this GOOD MEMORIES TO MYSELF.. :P
Lastly, SALLY CHAN HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
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