Tuesday, June 30, 2009
BacK to WorK
Today pull myself up though head is spinning like hell.. Gobble down my pill and head off to work. Its a struggle at work but somehow I managed to pull through..
Finally done my report to my boss expectation. Pop another pill down after my lunch and its rather obvious that my eyes are freaking closing. Another week to finish all my stuff for the closing date. Tomorrow gonna submit my OT claims so that my pay can be processed.
A lot of people asked for payment, my boss was kinda nasty but I got collecting the bullet. Cassandra came over to find me as yest I on MC, she is in Service Dept. She gave me a shocking news that today her last. I was blurred for a moment and asked her when she tender. She said yest, I was like what the.. Met up with her to go lunch. Exchange msn and skype so that can keep in contact. My boss then asked how come today she so shen shen mi mi. Then I told my boss that its her last day and she told me next time anything find Kit as she hand over back to Kit and in the meanwhile they looking for her replacement.
All were puzzled why she quit but somehow I know the reason la.. Lol.. But I didn't prob too much either. I was too busy today that I didn't wish her all the best but she did bid goodbye when returning lappy to IT..
Chew Hau was saying that another of our good friend is leaving Company. Lol.. She said I made some nice friends when giving petty cash but those nice ones are leaving. Nasty ones are around. But I am doing fine with the nasty ones as they didn't give any probs so far. Hehe..
Head was rather heavy and I decided to head home after work instead of meeting JJ for dinner.. Dad was home. He asked why was I so pale. Then I said head is spinning.. Dad said he help me buy dinner while I take a rest. Hmm.. Maybe I didn't take much notice on my dad recently. He changed a lot from the past few years. More homely dad and a father whom showing more concern than before. Family is closer and maybe its time I open up to my family or maybe I should enclose a little longer.. It depends ba.. Dun wanna lay down my decision so fast. Hee...
Tomorrow going back to work and somehow my blog's tag box became people's chatterbox. Lol.. But I am reading it and start to feel lazy to reply. Haha.. Kor not all OX in the family is lazy hor.. Aunty Nik is lazy hor and Lai is stupid hor. None of us have taken duck egg home only him ok.. Better than u sheep, only know how to nag.. ;p
Hmm.. Time is moving fast daily and I have been watching show through funshion intro by Chew Hau. Hehe.. In office haven't try can watch a not.. Haha.. Next time.. Hehe.. Hmm.. Maybe Kor is right about what I shared with him yest.. If my friend could think it tat way then its obvious that I draw a distance since there is lack of trust in someway. But Kor, please let me decide who I wanna be with instead of keep telling me who is better. I seek u to tell u things coz I wanna make myself clear of certain things. Neither will fall for a person who always makes me feel lack of secure. I think I rather find the one whom I think I can settle down with as I said before, I wanna be in a committed one lo.. I do regret for that choice I made. But what's done can't be undone.. So I try to move forward. But going to have a bf or not, it juz a matter of time but now may not be the time as I dun think there's one who I think I could settle down with.
Get yourself a gf la.. Dun always trying to get me off the shelf.. Haha.. Old man le.. Still busy yr life with work. Its your time to have a companion la.. Dun be like Da Jiu la.. Hee.. :P
Monday, June 29, 2009
SicK
A start of a Monday was a disaster. My little bro and I was ill.. Went to visit the doctor together with my parents. Head is still spinning like hell but the cruel doc gave one day sick leave. Haiz.. Maybe its not the right time to take a rest. Busy week ahead. Going back to work tml and read something which made me emo.
Ya kinda stupid to read things on web and that's the reason why I dislike surfing net or using com. It sometimes gives out info when its being surf and its hard to get your eyes off it. Haiz.. Hmm.. Busy for A.T too.. His office is moving in another month time. He is still getting his server back on track especially with all datas in it.. Wish him luck..
I starting to choose people to talk to recently maybe because I prefer to talk to people who is not being restrained to anything in life. Its easier to communicate and won't be a hassle to think whether will anyone be offended by it. That's also a partial reason why I message some of u lesser le.. I mean I dun like to disturb people whom have gf or bf de lo coz its not good due to u maybe spending time with yr other half.
I mean if we are friends, I dun mind sharing my thoughts with u but I think there bound to a certain things restrain to only a particular person would know about it more than others. There's a lot to share but only one will know, while the others won't know about me. But for the moment, I restrain to keep it in my thoughts as I dun really found the one I could confide in after moving on. My brothers kept telling me A.T would be the best choice and I agreed that he is always my advisor in all things but sometimes not everything I would tell him due to I juz dun feel comfortable saying it.
Ya that particular person I mean is the one whom I wanna spend my life with and I am always have my priorities in life. I mean friends are sure to be in the list but it will never be the top of the list. I think most people will just think it this way. My friends always said I neglected them most of the time and now I slowly finding the time I had lost with them but they told me something which they are well prepared was that they said if I gonna have my other half, please dun neglect them so much. All I could say was I try to to give them some of my time if I could but no promise. They really became a part of my life which made me treasure my life more due to no matter how deeply hurt am I, they will be there to wash away my sorrows. They knew there are some privacy to be kept and only the "One" could know that kind of logic..
Thanks them for their care and concern all the while when I didn't even plan a time to meet them because some reasons which is known between me and them. But I am really grateful for their lovely understanding. Hee...
Hmm.. Hopefully with the rest I had today, tomorrow will not be a disaster for me at work. My boss gave me a dozen of emails today.. But hopefully tomorrow I could get it done for her before she came in at 9am. For the weather now is like hell, hopefully no one around get too sick as virus is simply contagious.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Tired - Exhausted and SicK
Hmm.. Today slept 4 hours after being awake for 24 hours yest.. =.="
Slept at 5.30am and woke up at 9.45am, in my mind was rumbling xyz coz disturbing my sleep.. Lol.. In the end I am awake and stoning on bed.. Wonder why I can't fall back to sleep.. Then looked at com, msn but my brain is still in sleep.. Hard to focus on what I wanna do..
Then called JJ to wake him up.. Lol.. Planned to play basketball instead of jogging with GJ and JJ.. Went out around 1pm to Eunos.. Hmm.. Trying to learn to be early but time management still like shit.. Haiz..
Throat freaking dry and I trying to control my cough.. Weather is super bad, making people sick and additional to it, everyday eat heaty stuff. Won't get sick also fake one la.. Haiz.. After a few game, went to slack at coffee shop to have a drink and went to play pool..
Playing pool is always my fave but I nt tat good at it. Hehe.. Weird though.. Haha.. But playing for the fun of it.. Hee.. After the pool, went over to Singpost Centre for dinner. I really dun feel freaking right.. I dying as I know I may faint any moment.. Control and tolerate, I managed to be home safe and sound.. Phew~
Mum home not long. Wei msg me on msn to complain my bro spoilt his psp and doesn't want pay him for the damage. Haiz.. Scolded my bro then in the end, its like my fault.. :(
Trying to help Wei find cheap repair for his PSP.. He told me he went Commonwealth the person diagnose and said the IC of the PSP is spoilt. If want to repair is S$95. He was hoping to find something cheaper than this price. If can't be cheaper, he may juz go Commonwealth and get it done.
I was angry with my bro because he not only borrowed my psp to lend friend but Wei's PSP too.. Haiz.. Wei didn't demand my bro to pay the full repair fee.. Juz a S$10 will do.. Anyway I will try to solve this prob as I dun wanna see the 4 of us fighting against each other.. Alright I gonna turn in to bed. Tml first thing in the morning is MEETING. Haiz.. Juz done my report. Hopefully everything will be smooth tml. If it is screwed, my boss gonna jump at me.. Keeping my fingers crossed. Lol..
Saturday, June 27, 2009
My Poor Bicycle
Today woke up rather early cycle to meet JJ for basketball at Eunos then after that cycle to Suntec to meet Ong Rong.. KS couldn't make it..
Haiz.. When cycling back to my area, something bad happen... Haiz.... My bike is damaged.. Haiz.. But managed to ride back to my hse area to get it repaired. First time my bike is spoilt.. Sad man.. Haiz....
Home after that then I realized my right side is full of scratch marks and bruises. I dun feel the pain but the prob is how am I going to hide it. Roar.. Hmm.. Not long after went out again to meet JJ, Karen and Chew Hau.. We meet up at Bugis then went to play pool at Pool Fusion II.. The price there a bit ex. Rather go Park Lane and play lo as I forgotten to it pool is at which floor.. Long didn't patronize there.. Lol..
After that went Liang Seah St eat Zhi Cao, kinda full.. After that we went Mind's Cafe @ Boat Quay.. Latter I know on MSN, Guan Huan works at the outlet near Park Lane.. =.="
Home to bath and talk on phone. Then A.T. called and asked wanna meet up. Wah.. Its like meeting up 2am for supper.. Freak.. Got car also not like tat de ma.. Lol...... Hmm.. Told mum I going out later.. Her reply was, "Wah your Sat so many activities hor.." I looked at her and juz smile.. Haha.. Another day to relax and back to tedious work though time passes quite fast at work.. Lol.. Happy weekends...
Friday, June 26, 2009
Friday ~ WeekenDs
This week pass quite fast and busy was what I can say. Today in office was like busy and not much time for things. Meeting was never ending. Especially changing of system, yucky auditors and Iras people is in the company.
Making all of us BUSY!! But lucky not much OT for this week. Boss said by next week everything have to be keyed into system and hopefully by 13 and 14 we can finalize everything then she can proudly announced June accounts is closed.. Lol..
Its like so fast, I am working here for a month and went through a lot and learn something. Hmm.. People here are good to joke around especially with me anyhow pointing my arrows and getting their arrows but conclusion is fun then nothing ever.. Wahahaha..
Meet up with GJ and JJ for dinner and chilled.. Hee.. Then tml meeting JJ for 2 hours basketball, then gonna cycle to Suntec to meet KS and OR as they buying bike for the night cycling on 10.07.09. After that I will hang around and cycle back with them. Change and prepare to meet Karen, Chew Hau and JJ for pool and board games. Chew Hau bringing us. Hmm... Dunno GJ meeting us a not.. Lol..
My dear cousin bro is going outstation on next fri.. Planning to have dinner with him and my bros.. Lol.. We were closed like blood brothers and sister la.. Maybe bcoz we grew up together.. This is the bonding we have which was built up since we were kids. Lol.. Hmm.. Its really nice to have them to care and share a lot. Somehow I know not all cousins are like that. Hmm.. I missed Po Po.. But haven't plan my time to visit her yet. Mum said she complained her leg pain.. I am worried as Po Po already in 80s.. Mum said close to 90s.. Hmm.. Ah Gong passed away that time she was in her 70s.. Time really pass fast man.. Mum asked me to spend more time with Po Po since she dote on me a lot since I was a kid. Hmm.. Mum said the reason was simple coz I know how to speak her dialect bcoz I try to learn. Lol..
Hmm.. I planning to go take my BTT la.. Haiz.. No choice.. So many people wanted me to drive. But somehow like having a car its time for me la. Working so freaking far. Travelling is a big prob for me. Sian.. Transport fee a week cost a bomb. Plus food also another BIG issue. Haiz.. But environment is what I like so I will just stay on till this job. Hee..
Alright.. Gonna head for my lovely bed if not I can't wake up by 8am to go for my morning exercise.. Lol.. How long I yearn for an exercise.. Lol.. Although at first I thought I am going to face a boring weekend but no longer feels so.. I am alive.. Wahahahaha..
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Change of Gmail and Moving to the new one soon
Yeah my gmail give prob and can't log in. Lucky google is efficient to solve the prob for me. Hee.. Now I am back at blogging.. Yest work OT till 7 plus.. As some of the things need to clear before the closing and doing it early so that when closing I dun need to close so many things. Hee..
Today did all my work and left office at 1745.. Hmm.. Left a little late coz I reached work a little late also.. Haha.. Overslept obviously.. Yest slept at 10 but morning woke up at 6 and I off my alarm and doze off back to sleep.. Argh.. Gonna change my habit of lazing in bed.. Hee..
Moko's slipper spoilt.. I gave her my spare slip which I put in office.. The slip was actually by someone but I seldom wear so give to her le.. I gonna bring another one to put in office so that if I wear heels to work I can change to my slips. Hee...
Yest was removing some staple bullets and a few pricked my fingers.. It did bleed a little.. Sian.. Work I dunno lose how many drops of blood.. Then today while arranging documents, I kanna paper cut.. Its more painful then pricked by bullets.. Tomorrow I gonna bring moisturerizer.. Hee.. Think because of air con then my skin becomes dry that's why it get cut easily.. Hee..
Bus home and first time I didn't fall asleep but now my head is spinning.. This proves how much I can't take bus.. Haiz.. But I am lazy to go take driving though I would like to drive.. KC wanna buy KIA.. I wanna buy Toyota Echo.. He goes.. Why a small car.. =.=" Then I says coz its CUTE!!
Haha..
He said if I go learn driving, he will buy... Hmm.. Listen only coz I know he will deny later.. Haha.. Next week meeting KC and Wei to go makan.. Hee.. But Wei will decide where to go eat as he is the mafan de.. KC and me anything also can but I dun eat Pork only. Haha.. Wonder where this goon goon gonna plan to eat.. Haha.. But KC told him and me, dun suggest NTU if not he kill us.. Haha.. KC ate food at there for freaking dunno how many years due to I lost count.. So he super sick and tired of the food there liao.. Haha.. Hmm.. Tomorrow is Friday le.. Dunno shd I go back JB see Po Po.. Haiz.. Her leg pain and I am worry here lo.. But if I go back I dunno Sat can make it back before 3pm coz meeting Karen and Chew Hau.. Finally I know SH correct spelling in Chinese.. Haha.. Hmm.. July going JB with them to Sing K but dunno watching movies ma.. Have not plan as Karen now in overseas.. Hmm.. Nothing much of work and life.. Juz that its tiring only.. Lol..
Lastly, I think I prefer my life now.. Learning to be alone and other things, next time then talk about it.. Hee.. Going to eat my food.. My mum cooked my favourite CHICKEN DRUMSTICK.. Yeah.. Made me drool when I am work coz my cute mum msg me and tell me that one hour before I am knocking off from work.. See how bad she is to me feel hungry before I am home.. Love my mum lots coz she always knows what I like to eat and cook for me.. Hee... But I prefer to drink soup.. She didn't cook any.. Lol.. But drumstick is enough.. Woohoo~~
Monday, June 22, 2009
Work then Movies
Today Andy msg me. He said no matter what I am thinking, he will respect. He said he knows I am waiting for someone but he hopes I could turn my eyes to look at him.
Haiz.. I had once turn my eyes on him but that was 5 years ago.. Now everything changes. The feelings can't be find back. Ya we still argue like last time. But I no longer living in last time. I moving forward. The past is being put down and I didn't look back at all..
Memories is worth to recollect but not worth to repeat again. I wonder he understands this ma. What been lost can't be retrieve de. What's been slowly build up and with a blow its back to a flat land. Everything just need to start from scratch. That's the reason why we have always been BFF and not further more.
I really not thinking about it. He is knows what I want and need, he did his best to fulfill it for me. Nothing he does let me feel sad. I only can appreciate deeply in my heart but the feeling is really gone. Its vexing as no one actually knows how I am feeling now. Its hardly be expressed through words. Haiz.. Can I juz let things be at it is.. Haiz..
Today work was smooth.. I crapped as per normal.. No one knows what the internal me is feeling. They juz sees my laughter.. I always like to differentiate my things evenly and I carry situation around to mix it with another situation.
Went to watch Ghost of Girlfriends Past. Its really GOOD to watch. I am once a heartless freak. Who dun bothers what is going to be happen to the people around. But somehow when I start to treasure, I feel PAIN...
Anyway I think let things go by its nature.. If there's a way, there's a solution. For my family, they try to hint every now and then.. Its time I shut their mouth. But first is to have a nice talk to Po Po before the rest knows what's call please shut yr bloody mouth and dun corrupt my thinking. The more they saying, I starting to doubt and its not really good... Please stop it.. I am really getting mad..
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Happy Father's Day
Hmm.. A day hardly be in my diary after my Ah Gong passed away 14 years ago. That's the last time we celebrated Father's day. Lol.. But wished all Dads in the world: HaPPy Father's Day!! ^^
Today woke kinda late as yest slept quite late plus hard to sleep due to the freaking humid weather that I have to on my portable air con to sleep. Its freaking warm in the house. Lol..
Mum made french toast then she gave me a cheeky smile and asked got all your sweet memories a not.. Mum is freaking disturbing when I woke up.. I am really confuse as I dunno what to do.. I always treated him a close friend or more.. But I dunno I dun wanna lose this friend.. But its really vexing.. I promise to wait but I am also unsure of the situation.. Its really getting on my nerves..
Hmm.. Mum was telling me that whoever I choose they will give their blessing.. Po Po was more towards the warm of the family and I like the warm of family feeling. Hmm.. I know Po Po respect my decision as well.. They always try to accept the person I like even though I know they do not like because they respect my choice.
But this time I am really confuse.. Feeling for Andy was like not strong as ever.. But I know we are still like years ago.. Arguing and crapping is the fun we always have.. Our closeness is beyond words and explanation. Even KC said if I dun keep saying we are just friends only. No one will believe that we are just friends.. The chemistry is all they see.. The understanding, compromise and language, its being known between us without further explanation.
Hmm.. Put this aside.. Today went to watch Monsters vs Aliens.. Had a good laugh and relax too.. Haha.. Went with JJ and we walked around Orchard Central.. Its a nice place to chill.. Next time can go there.. A lot of the shops is not open.. Maybe when the whole shopping mall is opened I would revisit again.. Hee.. Went PS arcade to play awhile.. Haha.. Had a relax and enjoyable weekend.. Hehe..
Hmm.. Quite a short spent outside but I feel relax and keeping my mind to stop wandering and thinking for a moment.. I think so.. Haha.. Telling JJ about yest malaysia trip.. Its hilarious at some parts of it.. Then I realised how much I actually understand my mum. Hmm.. The same as my uncles and aunt.. Haha.. We are on par.. Lol..
Hmm.. Tomorrow gonna back to work.. Planning to watch Ghost of Girlfriends Past but after this after this afternoon conversion, I realized there's no conclusion. I dunno what to say nor comment. I am getting tired to ask and ask over again. But somehow I already getting use to it. So tomorrow then ask again lo.. Haha.. Even if no one wanna go.. Then I just find others to go as I won't go movies alone.. Worst to the Worst is download but I bound to forget. Haha.. Photos haven't been uploaded so gonna push to the next or so.. PS as I am lazy to take the memory card out from my cam.. Haha.. :P
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Li Shan's 1 Year Old Birthday
Today woke up at 9am and prepared to head to Kranji to meet KC.. I am late as I couldn't wake up. So asked him to go ahead to JB without me. I will see him in Xiao Jiu's shop.
Trained to Kranji, alighted and withdraw money.. The queue is freaking long.. Zzzz.. I realize what Kor was trying to tell me when he reached Kranji.. Both of us see the queue juz dampned our mood a little.. Called him, he reached SG custom and he complaint that the queue at there was worst. Sian.. But no choice.. Board CW1 and not long I crossed SG custom. Kor is on the bus to JB custom le. I reached an hour after him as SG passport having long queue. Ya this tells me to renew my Malaysia Passport so I can cut queue. But I lazy leh.. Lol..
Reached JB at 12pm walked to Xiao Jiu's shop.. Bought tidbits for office.. Hehe.. Then went City Square for my light lunch with Ling and Xing. Ate Mac and then shop a little. I bought my facial wash, heels and 2 tees.. Lol.. After that head back to Xiao Jiu's shop to relax.. Ah Yi reached not long with KC.. Went on MSN.. Wei said he will be back around 4 plus.. Da Jiu reached around 3 plus with his friend and his friend's wife.
Kor and me was busy playing with Shan. Then we were talking about work and school.. After that Kor asked me how much CPF money I had.. Told him and he say so much.. I goes a lot meh.. I find it little leh.. Lol.. Then he told me next month he going buy car and asked me go with him to choose. Lol.. Then we also hunting for condo to buy or buy HDB flat ba.. Not sure yet.. Still discussing..
Kor will be out to sea on Jul 3 till Aug 3.. 1 month leh.. Then he said something which shocked me.. He said he had asked Andy to look after me so if anything I need juz call Andy.. I goes what the hell.. Lol.. Hmm.. Then I realised something, Andy all along got visit Po Po they all.. No one tell me lo till today.. Kns de.. Hmm.. Kor keep asking me when will I give Andy a chance as he waited 7 years for me while tat time I waited 2 and half years for him as promised.. Then I told Kor.. I dunno.. Dun feel like talking about it. So we change topics. Asked him what car he wants. Then he says see which one I prefer.. Hmm.. I keep tell him dunno.. He is like nvm we shall go look around as no hurry.. Lol..
Hmm.. Today was more like aiming arrow here and there.. Lai kanna a lot of arrow from of us coz he asked a lot of idiot question.. Lol.. Then Ah Yi bought durians and keep asking me to eat.. She scared Xing ate all and I got none.. Lol.. I tell her its ok la.. Haha.. Although I like to eat but its ok that I dun get any sometimes.. Haha.. Xing was ke lian kanna threatened by the adults as she eat finish all, her tooth will be pull out.. Lol.. She looked at me and I said dun need bother.. They won't do it de.. Then she happily continue eating.. Haha..
After that they compared when I was a baby to Shan.. Lol.. Kor then whispered to me.. His mum always like to repeat about me when I was a baby and when she was pregnant with Wei.. I told him that I knew about it coz I hear a lot of times liao.. Even when she call my mum, they are talking about it over the phone.. Lol.. Kor then tell me a lot regarding my baby times coz tat time he already 6 while I still a baby.. Lol
Hmm.. Left at 4 plus took Da Jiu's car home. His friend sent me to Khatib and I trained home.. I know I dun take his car and bus home instead.. Khatib go home so mafan.. There's a lot of thing Kor and me dun like about Da Jiu's friend wife.. But we kept quiet.. Inconsiderate lady.. Haiz.. But xi guan liao le.. Haha..
Back to SG at 7pm and went out to meet JJ, Hailey and her sis for dinner and chill at MOS.. After that asked for some advice about some issues.. Hmm.. I am confused about some stuff.. Hmm.. Till now I dunno whether should I really give it a try.. Let me think about it then decide ba.. Hehe.. Talked to my parents when I am home as they eager to know.. Showed them the photos taken.. Mum and dad so happy.. Haha.. Alright I gonna go bed.. Will upload the photos in my next post.. Hee..
Friday, June 19, 2009
Karen's Last Day
Today trained to work and saw May. We almost missed company bus.. But lucky we caught the bus on the midst of it.. Haha..
Andy msg me said he gonna work till late so I got to go back myself.. Lol.. He like apologize so many times.. Funny de.. I keep telling him its ok.. Haha.. Liang will be away next week as she going HK.. Wah wonder next week will be boring ma coz she good at crapping too.. Never mind I still got Joyce.. Haha..
Hmm.. Morning reached work was being pulled to aside to ask what should we planned for Karen's farewell.. Liang's brain moves faster than mine.. She aimed and asked me to go ask Karen what she wanna eat for lunch.. Time checked was 8.45am.. I haven't reached my seat and not even eat my breakfast.. Let alone putting down my bag.. Haha..
I told Liang I will asked.. But let me settle down first.. She says why I so mafan.. Then I point to her finished breakfast and mine still untouched... She goes, "Oh sorry ar.. You know I very nice de right.." Then I said, "You very nice leh.. So today lunch u treat hor.." She then said, "Ah Nai, you dunno how to write the word die is it.." My boss then came over and said, "Aiyo why early morning the two of u start to bicker?'' Liang said, "Renee, 不爱我了.." She power.. Make me freezed only as I dunno what to say.
Then my boss asked me the same old question, "Today lunch how u all going to have farewell dinner for Karen?" Then I said, "Need to ask Karen what she wanna eat leh.." My boss said, "Bad news, big boss wants me and Grace to bring the Internal Auditors to have lunch. So I put u in-charge of planning." Liang laughs at me coz I wanted to push the planning to Liang.. Kns de..
Then I turned and Karen.. So going UOB there eat or you want something else.. She said, "Let's eat Pizza.." The whole accounts dept became fish market.. Everyone starts to decide what to order.. Juz as we were planning to surf web to see what to order, IT personnel emailed us and said Internet down. They trying to revive it.. We were like wah piang why at this moment.. Intranet down better ma coz dun need do work.. Lol..
Lucky Liang got brochure.. So we circulate around.. In the end we ordered 1 Hawaiian Pizza, 1 Super Hawaiian Supreme, 1 Black Pepper Chicken Supreme, 1 Meat Galore, 1 loaf of garlic bread, 4 sets of chicken drums (6pcs each) and 2 bot of Pepsi.
I asked Liang will this be enough a not.. She said agar lo.. If anything goes wrong, I carry the blame lo.. The "I" means me.. I goes why me.. Thought u suggest de.. I dunno the people here eat more or less apart for May whose a big eater..
Hmm.. I called to order.. It takes freaking long before my call was answered.. Then the lady over the phone was like naggy.. But I also bad la.. Made her repeat orders 3 times coz first time she got it all wrong.. Second time my pepsi is missing.. Third time then everything correct.. Haha... Wah wan extra cheese need to pay $0.20 per packet.. Kns..
I dun take cheese but my colleagues do.. The freaking funny part is we thought not much people eat beef but it turns out only May dun eat beef and the rest all got eat.. I really laugh my stomach out at Liang coz I asked her all got take beef anot.. She say dun think so.. But when I asked that Pei Pei told me, "Got we all take beef de.." Liang faced was freaking funny.. She like dunno where to bury her face.. Then after that Liang asked me, "Renee, u laughed enough already a not? Everyday u come office, u keep laughing non-stop.. Got so many things so funny meh.." I looked at her and not even stopping my laughter and nodded to her.. She feels like killing me.. Haha..
I feel amused by reactions of some people as its really funny that I can't control and to laugh out.. Haha.. Now thinking of it.. Its really funny de lo.. Today we comparing sizes.. Liang was big size then me.. She had tried ways to stop me from laughing by calling me names.. But I think I make her feel like killing me more coz I call her names back.. The whole office buay tarhan us.. She say we can bicker till off work and continue tml de.. Lol.. This is call fun ma.. If not work very boring leh.. Lol..
Pizza arrived at 11.50am.. Liang was good de lo.. She went to collect and put it on my desk.. Then I asked her why my desk.. She pointed to everyone's desk and said, "Who ask u like to keep your desk so clean? Dun need to pack so its easier for us to eat at your seat.." Wah.. She makes me really dunno what to say sometimes.. But suan le.. I have to admit no matter how much work I have.. My desk is always neat and clean.. Lol.. Then they will say wanna know whether I got how much work to do, juz see my "in" tray.. Lol..
Everyone was to ate 2 pieces of pizza and 2 pieces of drum but I ate 4 pieces of pizza and 2 pieces of drums.. Nobody noticed that I ate 4 and May asked me, "Renee, u full ma coz I dun feel full leh.." I replied, "I still feel hungry leh.." Then Karen said, "Ya wat eat 2 piece only.. U this 2 big eat how will full?" I give a smile and pointed 4 give Karen see.. She was like what the hell.. Then Liang said, "She eat super fast and I thought she eat 3 but she ate 4.. Wah piang.. See la ask u order more, u dun wan.." I looked at Liang and said, "就是这样啦.. 把一切推给我.." Liang replied, "就是这样的吗.. 因为你order的.." She really win liao.. Its 1pm and they run as fast back to their seats to start work after helping to clear the mess on my table.. Lol..
Our job load is lessen as not much engineers out to do job.. So lesser things to do.. No OT for this week.. Hmm.. Dunno what to do after work.. Slack in office till 1745 and left office with May, SH and Karen.. Karen's husband came to pick her up.. May, SH and me went to take 285 at Delifrance factory there de bus stop. Bus is freaking packed but we managed to get seats.. Hehe.. Bus to Clementi.. SH going Holland V.. May going Orchard and I going home.. So May and me took train together.. She alighted at Raffles and I trained to Bugis.. Hmm.. Had nothing in mind so slowly walked home..
No one is at home.. So warm up my the soup mum cooked.. She cooked herbal soup today which I told her I wanna drink and my fave potato.. Hee.. Had my dinner and watched tv.. Next month I will have a tv in my room and can watch SCV in my room le.. Dun need to watch tv in living room.. Bro was unhappy as I get what I want when I requested from my dad.. Hmm.. But there's a lot of things he doesn't know.. He just see things as it is only and I also lazy to explain.. But he also won't remember such lil things de.. Haha..
Bro checked my contract.. Next month I can recontract coz 21 months le.. Wah.. I din know at all.. He asked can he use my line to buy phone.. Then I said if the phone I want not out yet.. Then I let him use to buy his phone lo.. Then I wait for Sept when his line is 21months then I buy lo.. If not I can use my mum's line to buy a phone too.. Hee.. But this is still under consideration due to my dad also wanna buy phone but he is using his line to help my bro's friend to buy phone.. The only one not getting new phone is my mum.. Lol.. She lazy to learn how to use the features of a new phone.. Haha..
Tomorrow going back JB to celebrate Li Shan's one year birthday.. Po Po will be there and I gonna be nag for being skinny.. Prepare my ears for tml nagging.. Wei said he can accompany to be nagged also.. Then I said unless he now same weight as me.. But after compared.. We are different of 3kg.. I am lighter than him.. Now its his turn to laugh at me.. But I said no matter wat he looks like a boney.. But I dun look like one.. Haha.. Meeting them in uncle shop.. Coz I dunno what time they be going back for me.. I leaving my house around 10.30am.. Hee
Alright.. Going to watch finish my show and slack.. Wait for my friends to call and see where they wanna go chill.. Hee.. Hopefully no west area although all staying West.. Haha..
Thursday, June 18, 2009
1 Day to Friday
Today to and fro work without public transport.. But its really making me feel more to have a car of my own.. Hmm.. Its like a peer pressure to see all friends are driving and only u alone going out with them have to tag along in any of their car.
I know my friends don't mind but sometimes when you are controlling the wheels is different from being a passenger.. My friends do encourage me to get my license soon.. But I am just lazy.. Lol.. Hmm.. My boss is back.. She handed me the cash to handle.. By next week I am gonna be fully in charge of the cash.. There's pros and cons of it.. But I know I am going to do it well.. Hee.. Work today was quite relax.. Finished all my stuff.. Learned some new things of generating reports.. Hee.. My boss is still sick.. But she tries to teach me.. Though I dislike it when she asked me to do OT with I have little to do.. Lol.. But overall she's a nice person..
Today went toilet, main office, GM's office or Store, I keep kanna haunt for claim.. I came back in to my accounts office, my boss was like, "Renee ah, that Kristine hor.. How much is her phone bill claim ar?" I replied, "$15 only. Why she come in and ask again ar?"
She said, "Wah piang, today morning I came into office she first thing come ask for money liao.. Now then I know she is like crazy going after a $15 nia.. Come, I give u keep the money for her tomorrow.. She hungry till no food like need this $15 badly.. Haha.."
Everyone of us in the office laughs.. Freaking funny.. Then I continued, "She since monday start haunting me for money but I say u not around so I dun have cash. Hee... She just now see me at toilet also ask lo.. I tell her tomorrow la.. People in toilet thought I borrow money from her.. Kns de.." Btw the toilet is used by other companies as well.. Not only for my office colleagues.. Lol.. The glares given is really irritating plus her voice is super sharp and loud.. My ears can tremble and grow goosebumps.. Lol..
Planning to buy my phone next month or so if its out.. My current phone is a shit. Message receive, haven't read can just disappear.. Freaking angry.. I am determined to change my phone.. Lol.. Then I will plan to buy myself a IPod.. No Music is like No Life.. Lol.. Tomorrow is Friday and Karen Last Day!! Hee.. Sat going JB and after that meeting Karen for movie.. Hee.. Hmm.. Sun planning to go exercise.. But dunno will there be people to accompany a not.. Uncle Andy is a lazy bum so all along I never ask him de.. He same as my cousin.. Both uncles always like to la kopi only.. Exercise like will kill them.. Lol.. Hmm.. Yest slept quite early.. Tonight maybe a bit late as I wanna finish watching my dvd.. Tomorrow going office try to install MSN as so far only my com can install program due to I tried to install iTunes and its allowed.. Liang was like happy to find a com to plug and play her IPod.. Lol.. Laughing at her cuteness.. She's 2 years my senior but she so like Shin-Chan.. Lol.. Moko and me called her that today kanna hit by her.. Haha.. She super funny and cute de.. Hee... I crapping a lot in office nowadays.. Then they say that first few days I so quiet.. Now I like a crapper and if I keep quiet.. They will not get use to it.. I told them I can faint lo.. Liang added she will call ambulance.. She really super coordinative la.. Lol..
Hmm.. Work can be fun when there are fun people around.. Lol.. But sometimes its really takes a person to ignite before the rest would follow.. Hee.. Alright.. I had my fun today at work.. For instance I ate too much today.. 3 pancakes with soya milk for breakfast and lunch had fish slice noodles.. Appetite not really back but I try to eat just in case kanna OT.. Its like what I always say coz Nobody plans to fail but everybody always fail to plan.. Haha..
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
TireD
Wah.. Slept less than 3 hours.. All thanks to my friend.. Hmm.. Today was tough at work due to fight the tiredness I am facing..
My boss on half day due to her son is sick so its a blessing in disguise that I do not have to do OT.. Hee.. Hmm.. Check my files and run my reports.. Hmm.. The things I doing should alright ba.. Not much confidence.. Crapping around in office to perk me up.. Then I realize I got lots of craps.. Hmm.. But sometimes I really depends on the people around.. Not all like to fei a lot.. Haha.. I rather talk craps then being serious.. Hehe..
Time pass much easier.. Hee.. Karen wanna watch movie on Sat.. I told her late evening when I came back SG then meet her go watch.. Bro not going with me to JB so I going alone.. Hmm.. This is what I meant when alone its really alone.. No PSP.. I am dying out on music.. Haiz.. Suan le.. Endure the pain in bus then.. Haiz.. Anyway.. Today really tired till I barely pull through.. Keep looking at the time and hope it pass faster..
Due to haste is back.. My cousins and bro are afraid I will fall sick like last time.. Once fever it will takes month to recover... But heck la.. Monday already fever liao.. Got so much care from people around.. I will try to stay healthy at least.. Hehe.. My idiot friend keep calling me.. No choice but to block her from calling me.. Irritating.. Earlier I unblocked her.. She called again.. Talked to her.. She's feeling better.. Hmm.. Good to know.. But I freaking tired to talk to her.. She wanna meet me.. I tell her weekends.. Weekdays dun come find me.. Let me rest.. Haha.. Nothing much today.. Hehe.. Gonna sleep to get back the sleep I lost last night.. Lol..
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
No OT for the 2nd Day
Hmm.. Today woke on time to go work but didn't manage to take company transport so took public bus and saw Karen on bus.. Lol.. We planning where to have lunch later.. Hmm.. Daily routine for our lunch as office area food is getting boring.. Everyday eat almost the same thing.. Nothing much to choose.. Haiz... Lunch went to West Coast Plaza area, the hawker to eat.. Hmm.. Saw lots of Jap Junior School kids.. They are so Kawaii~~~ Lol... Hmm.. After we finished eating.. SH wanted to buy bubble tea, I giving it a missed as I still have drinks in office which is unfinished.. Lol.. After we are done at there, we bused back to office.. Weather is freaking hot and making me freaking sleepy.. Hmm.. Went off on the dot and took 285 to Clementi to train home.. Hmm.. Company bus is always packed de.. So rather take public transport.. Trained home and I initially wanna take a short nap.. But in the end I woke up at 11pm.. Lol.. Ate my super late dinner.. Chicken rice which my mum cooked.. Surprised me though.. Lol.. Then I got a phone call and went out.. Hmm.. Anyway I don't think its good to blog about it here.. Hehe.. But I just find it is quite foolish of my friend.. Gonna go find her, hopefully won't take too much of my time as tomorrow is working day and my BOSS IS BACK!! RoaR.. Cleansed my ear to collect whatever dirt she could give.. Lol..
Monday, June 15, 2009
Blogging Office ~ LoL
Hmm.. Today came work late due to overslept till 8am.. Freak out.. Jump out of my bed and rushed to work. Manage to catch my neighbour and took her car to work.. Hehe.. Lucky de.. But I am late for 5 mins.. x_xHmm.. Received email that AP and AR boss is on MC.. We a bit slack coz not that stress in doing work.. But office is rather quiet and cold when the bosses are not around.. But the cold is nt the only quiet cold but the air con is also freaking cold due to I am sitting under it.. Everyday in office had to wear jacket if not I really will freeze..Hmm.. This I am intending to buy more long sleeve to wear to work.. Lol.. But I still unsure of it as dunno worth it ma.. Haha.. So see how first.. Hee.. Hmm.. Its like I am trying to slow down my pace of work so that I dun seem to have nothing to.. But left about 1 hour to off work liao.. I only left with 5 piece of work.. Which takes me 10mins to finish.. Its gonna finish fast.. So I decided to blog.. Haha.. Tml my boss is also on MC.. Then I have to find things to do.. This week is relax.. But next week might be a busier week.. Thurs planning to go play pool with Karen but we postpone to next Sat.. Everything not confirm.. I wanna go KTV but JJ is having exams.. Hmm.. Then planning July go JB sing K with Karen and SH.. Hee.. We decided not to go there for movies but KTV instead.. We had planned out the activities for tat day also.. Lol.. We like plan things super ahead la..
Hmm.. Another 1 and half hour more can go home.. Wah its been long that I can leave office early.. Lol.. Tml shall also go home early.. Then wed my boss back.. Its shd be back to my OT time but at least an hour ba.. Karen this week last day le.. Hmm.. Lunch was full of laughter with Joyce coz she dun wanna wear her specs then I got to lead a blind.. When tell her the direction.. She keep wanting to go the other direction.. I know I should have let her go bang wall. Lol...
Left office on the dot and bus home on 51.. Slept on the journey home.. Its freaking long till my butt hurt.. Lol.. I continued blogging when I am home.. Lol.. Last blogged was 4pm and I left office at 5.45pm and I reached home at 7.30pm.. Can imagine how long does my bus ride ya.. For your info, I board the bus at 6pm.. Lol.. Ok gonna eat dinner and rest.. Shit man I having fever.. Haiz.. Body is freaking weak and I have to blame myself for not taking good care of it.. Haiz..
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Slept All I want and Movies on My Fave Date
Hmm.. Today woke up at 1330 and I stone a bit on bed due to sleep too much.. It proves how tired I am after the few days of work and my almost a quarter of my Sat is gone.. The only part that really perks me up on Sat was my JB trip.. Lol.. Though I love to shop but I prefer to see then buy unless I really need it.. Then I will go hunt and search for the price that I think is gd and the thing I will like.. Lol.. I am very specific in buying stuff I want.. HeeHmm.. Woke up le eat french toast.. Hmm.. Kinda long never eat le.. Argh.. I start to 回味the breakfast that I used to have whenever I goes work last time.. A cup of hot milo and 2 piece of french toast.. But mum's toast is nice but not the kind I like.. Hmm.. After that I played games on Facebook..Went to eat Sakae for dinner and watched Land of the Lost.. Hehe.. The movie is funny.. I almost laugh my stomach out le.. Haha.. But I think I prefer to watch on weekdays as it will be more worth.. Weekends are mostly for blockbuster.. Hee..Hmm.. Saw Kat Kat at PS.. Lol.. She called me and I didn't hear.. She gave me missed call and I return shortly after.. She said she saw me and she called but I bo answer.. She came over Mac to find me.. Lol.. Chatted awhile.. She can MSN in office but I only can skype.. RoaR.. I prefer to msn coz all my contacts are there lo.. Sianz..Reached home.. Mum and dad home shortly.. Went to bath and chatted with them.. Its been long I talked to them but my words are still as lil as before.. Hmm.. Dunno how to get close to them.. I think because years the gaps between is way huge to close up ba.. After that on msn chatted with my cousins and GJ.. Hmm.. Some lil issue about a little kid in our family trying to over rule.. Then they said I should throw my weight and let him whose the terror. But I find it pointless.. What for fight with a kid who is freaking still growing up.. But whatever.. Lai is afraid of me.. Bcoz he know I won't hit him like what my brothers did to him.. All I do was to talk to him.. This fellow using brute force is totally juz scare him and nothing gets into his brains..Hmm.. Yest discuss half way and I left the chat dangling due to I find there's nothing to discuss upon as he's a kid.. Wonder why my brothers are kicking up a big fuss over it.. Hmm.. Then I realize that they demanded lil respect from this kid.. But I tell them.. Its hard coz all they do was scold him stupid and all. Then no encouragement.. Then he do wrong thing, they only juz hit him and never tell him what's correct.. Freak la.. I dun think that's a real way to teach a kid lo. But I am ignoring it.. So far Lai had never stepped on me yet.. So I am still cool and relax with him.. My mum yest saw what we talking.. She said that Lai had not trified the sleeping pig.. So he is still safe.. Then I was like what the hell.. Lol..Hmm.. Going to bed soon.. Work to be done.. Haiz.. Work Work Work is Never EnDinG.. LoL..
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Tiring Week & Weekend Burnt (08.06.09 ~ 13.06.09)
This week is kinda tiring.. Because its the closing week for May things and there are some errors here and there which I dun wanna say too much about it..
Met up with the guys on Thurs for PC show.. Bought my headphone for com use and when open then realize its a spoilt set. Haiz.. Dad helping to get it change.. Hmm.. Went to eat Yoshi on Thurs. Damn my appetite is like gone still.. Hope to regain it soon.. Tired and all I feel was wanting to sleep instead of eat.. See food also not much craving.. Even now talk about food.. I dunno why I dun have mood to eat.. Haiz.. Work load is giving hell a prob.. Hope to solve and shut it.. Get on with June work.. Everyday sleep also dreamt about work.. Its really a nightmare of having my boss jumping at me every now and then for mistakes which I dunno and not done by me.. Who can understand.. Haiz... All I could do was keep silence and nod at what she says.. Feel so puppet.. =.="
Nvm.. Fri actually wanna go Cousin Jeffrey there eat and bcoz I am late.. I spoilt the whole thing.. Damn it man... Ya I left work a bit late at 6pm but I went FEP for my hair cut.. Erm.. Shd actually say I went to trim it neater tat's all.. Lol.. Hmm.. Went to have Mac and collect my next glass.. After that walked to Esplanade.. Then we went Carl's slack.. I am starting to feel shack.. Left at 11pm.. Reached home continuing doing my work.. Done half way and I doze off onto my bed.. This is how freaking tired I am.. I didn't lie on my comfy pillow.. I croach to sleep.. Weird though.. But I din realize it until the next morning.. Hmm.. Sat woke up late.. Planned to be in office at 0930.. But I woke up like 0915.. =.="
Hmm.. Bath and prepare to go work.. Thanks to Uncle from 8th floor.. Took his cab to work for FOC.. Then bought breakfast.. Ate a slice of bread and drank a cup of milo. Hmm.. Not long SH came.. I done half way.. Planning to leave at 12pm but I am falling asleep at looking at the screen with all the yellow backgrounds.. This made me dislike yellow more.. It juz pain my eyes for looking at it too long.. Lol.. Left office at 1430.. Bus to JE and took 160 to JB.. Hmm.. Its been months that I stepped into JE.. Nothing much changed though.. But my life changed.. I fell asleep immediately after I board the bus.. Lol.. Woke up, I almost reaching SG custom.. Tat's like freaking fast.. Lol.. Not much people.. Time check its already 3.30pm.. Lol.. Passed the custom board CW1 as 160 left.. Jam a bit due to the road to the new JB custom is narrow.. Hmm.. Reached JB at 4pm.. Went to change RM.. Then walked to Xiao Jiu's shop.. Lai saw me when I approaching the shop.. He went to hid behind his friend coz he knows I saw something and afraid I scold him..
Went in greeted Xiao Jiu and Aunty Nik.. They said I looked shack.. Complaint about work and carried Li Shan.. She's heavy la.. Then Xiao Jiu said.. Wah piang.. We carry her she dun laugh one lo.. Why whenever u are here.. My little kid will smile.. I give the dunno face.. Haha.. Xiao Jiu went to buy food for me to eat as mum told them I haven't had lunch.. Made me feel so pai sei.. Aunty Nik made some chicken feet for me.. She say to tonic my legs.. Lol.. She always so nice.. ^^
Then after that Xiao Jiu got back.. I was helping one customer doing photocopy and they are asking me something in malay.. Aunty Nik came to my aid.. Lol.. Then Aunty Nik asked me, I thought u learnt Malay before.. How come they ask u, u no reply.. Then I told her.. I had returned my malay to my teacher after I left here.. Haha.. In SG no one speak malay to me.. Everyday always english.. Then now I totally dun understand a single malay word, if I wanna be frank.. Then I told her.. I only know the word enter, no and dunno for malay.. The rest I can't even remember.. Lol.. She gave me a stunned look.. Haha.. Continuing playing with Shan.. Took a few pics of her with my bro phone as my phone batt is dead.. Go home then charge..
Aunty Nik tried to persuade me to stay for a night.. I kept saying no.. Then she tried to use Po Po to psycho me.. Then I told her.. If Po Po blame u then u blame me.. Say I meet friends.. Lol.. She bo pian but to let me go.. Went City Square to shop and I bought 2 bags, 1 slips and a tee.. Haha.. I also bought egg tarts for the guys but in the end since not meeting them, I gave my family eat.. Haha.. I have to admit shopping alone is not as fun as having another person with u. As can joke and play at the same time. Hmm.. But I somehow did it alone.. Amazed!! Lol!!
Home around 8.30pm I reached home.. My sec school friends called me.. So went out with them.. Going for a spin in the cars.. But I have to apologize to Dan.. While he was driving, I fell asleep.. Haha.. But lucky I am not the only one in the car as got Jun and XL in car also.. Lol..
Hmm.. We went Ayer Rajah FC to eat.. Then I was like where my work area.. Lol.. Then we went West Coast Park to sit relax.. West Coast Park is freaking quiet and nothing much.. Lol.. But its quite windy.. Haha.. Dan send me home first then followed by the 2 fellows..
When on the way back.. I fell asleep.. So when I got home, mum was asking me that I am very tired huh.. Then I gave her a blur look and told her.. Ya.. Slept in my friend car.. Dunno where they went spinning also.. But reach destination, they wake me up nia.. My mum said that it muz be first time they felt I am quiet around them.. Then I replied her, "Ya lo.. They say they not use to it.. Lol.."
Then went to change and clean myself up alittle.. Wah I feeling sleepy.. Even people ask me questions, I also can't think properly.. Replied also like not in full.. I am freaking tired.. I reached home like 1 plus.. I think its time for me to hit my sack.. Lol..
Sunday, June 7, 2009
A Rest Day for Me, Tml Back to WorK
Hmm.. Today rested at home and I forgot to call granny.. Holy liao.. Haha.. Absent minded this few days. Lol..
Hmm.. Slept most of my time today.. Hehe.. Then watched show on my com and lend my bro to use.. Hmm.. Replenishing my energy for work. Maybe will work OT tomorrow and hopefully I won't work till freaking late and have to freaking quiet roads at my work place which I have to walk, wed and thurs coz Tues and Fri got things on.. Hmm.. Though not confirmed but will update in my later post. Hehe.. Sat confirm going JB and will be back on Sun. Will be staying over at my aunt's house, next day go up to grandma hse.. Hehe.. Dun wan go on Sat if not tio nag.. Then at aunt's hse can chat with KW and KC heard he coming back on fri. I haven call KW but will be meeting them go back on Sat evening coz KW work till 6pm. Hehe.. My colleagues said sat dun wan go.. Its a sudden change of plan.. So we push to July instead.. Lol.. But I can have my own planning.. Haha..
Hmm.. Today some of the thoughts I said out but to be frank, I didn't really finalize it. Somehow think it will be the best ba. Juz say first coz I think I need to voice it out lo. No matter what it is.. I will no longer be unhappy.. Hehe.. I will juz smile and let things go by.. Hehe.. I dun find the point of being unhappy le.. Hee..
Hmm.. Today nothing much.. If all I wanna say de, Andy all knew about it. Haha.. He is always the one to hear my rants and roar.. Lol.. But he is always so good to me.. I want to grumble, he is there.. After that he will tell me and advise me.. Hehe.. But whenever I work late, I still won't tell him.. He working at defu.. Cabbed all the way to find me and accompany me home.. I dun find it worth.. Although my work place there at night is scary but I think I will be safe ba.. Keeping my fingers cross.. Haha.. Yup.. I am scared but nothing will happen ya.. Lol.. Although hope to have someone to accompany but there is too ulu to ask people to come.. I think I can go home myself. Haha.. I have never met a freaking scary place that's so dark and quiet at night to scare me off my wits. Haha.. Although I listen to songs when I walked out of my company but its still scary not a single bus or car is travelling and not a single soul either. But over there is dark. The path to the main road also dark and its in between the factories, near a garbage collection centre.. Lol..
Hope I dun need to work till 8 plus close to 9pm.. I think if not I will choose to sleep over at office instead.. Haha.. Just kidding.. Alright.. I going prepare my stuff and head to bed.. Hehe..
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Drag Me To Hell
Hmm.. Today actually going back to work de.. But I am lazy and the things Monday do also not too late. So I decided to sleep a little longer as meeting Karen and SH to watch movie at Cine..
We went to eat at Mos for lunch. I dun eat Mos de. But anything lo. Ate Teriyaki Chicken Burger meal and then we went to shop awhile at Taka and Wisma. The gals bought some clothes but the price is ok nia lo. Taka B1 is having sports sales. Saw a few nice bags. Dunno want to buy ma. Hehe.. Then B2 is Toys sales. Didn't go to take a look as they are not interested. So at B1 I took a short glance at it. Hmm.. Maybe will go shop on weekdays after my work ba. Hee..
Then after they had done their shopping, we strolled back to Cine.. Hmm.. The weather is freaking hot and I drank 2 bottles of water.. Dehydrated.. LoL.. Hmm.. Went in a little late. Miss a little of it but I should say the whole movie is worth the money. Hee.. Feel like watching it again. Haha..
But like wat my bro say, I watch horror movie then at night I will have nightmare.. Quite true.. Haha.. But ok la.. This movie didn't scare me much. Haha.. But the bloody scene is much to make feet turn wobby. Haha..
Hmm.. Home around 7pm as usual, I walked home from Orchard.. Lol.. Hmm.. Quite bored actually but I am going to enjoy the time of being alone from now onwards. Hee.. 我要摆脱有人倍半的习惯.. Hee.. 我独自一个人也能过生活的.. Hee.. Hmm.. Then just some thoughts came to my mind but I am still unsure of it. There are a few plans in my head for next week and the week after, but I am cancelling it le.. Dun feel the worthiness of it. This coming sat maybe will spend my time in JB and be back on Sun night and I think I will be doing this to all my weekends. Since weekends in SG got nothing to do. None is free so I will plan my own schedule.. Hehe..
Then I also will go out less le ba. Unless I could find the enjoyment of going out and spending the quality time I should be doing. If not damn sian.. There are a few movies out in town but sian thing is can't find people to watch together and I dun like to go movies alone. Lucky thing there is always a thing call download.. Hehe.. Shall start my "宅-ing" life le. Hehe..
Friday, June 5, 2009
OT till I almost Faint
Today I woke up late and reached work late.. Overslept le.. Haiz.. Talk to Karen and SH about movies. Tomorrow we planning to go watch movie at Cineleisure. Hehe..
Work is freaking busy today till I skipped my lunch and do my work all the way till almost 8 plus.. I really dropping dead with my little stomach growling for hunger. I told my boss that I tml around 9am will come in to work.. Tired.. I bus to Clementi and bus to Orchard to meet JJ.. Planning to watch movie de but due to not much people watching and chilling after that.. So decided to postpone. Went to eat Mac at my house area. After that I hang around at downstairs with mum and dad before heading home.
Bro went to watch movie so he's not home yet. Mum told me 阿姨 find me. So I called her. Lol.. She sleeping le but hogging on the phone instead of hang up and wanted to chat. I laughed at how funny is she.. Lol.. Then she told 婆婆 called her to complain that I have not been calling her for 2 weeks to 报平安.. Lol.. Then she said 婆婆 asked her to remind me that Li Shan's birthday is coming. They are celebrating next weekend. But asked me if can go visit Li Shan coz she dun wan me buy things for them. Lol..
阿姨 said if I going back JB must let them know so that they can cook some food for me to eat. Then I told her 20th maybe I going in with my friends. She said many or wat.. I said 2 friends nia.. But 13th I going also but not going to visit them as I will be with my colleagues. So won't bring them to 小舅's shop. But we going Tebrau there eat dinner.. I also won't go her house. 20th then go find them.. She asked me to remind her on 19th.. Lol...
Hmm.. I am freaking tired.. Sunday should be resting at home.. I am running of energy sia.. Body feel so weak.. Mum said I need to go exercise but I tell her, now is really bo time.. That time got time nobody accompany.. Now bo time also nobody accompany to go exercise.. So heck la.. Lol.. Sick then sick lo.. I not made of tissue paper.. Won't flat so fast.. My mum asked me dun be stubborn.. Lol.. Ok its really time for me to hit my sack.. If not I can't enjoy my day tml.. Lol..
No OT
Yeah... I thought I could not finish all my traveling claims input.. But I managed to finish all.. So I am done for the day. Went to chase the Co bus with SH the new colleague. I till today still dunno how to pronounce her name even though I had asked her 3 times for her name le. =.=
This shows how bad my mandarin is man. I remember her initials as S.H but the correct spelling for it.. Haha.. I forgotten le.. Haiz.. Memories failing me. LoL.. Today home early and slack. Did some thinking and realize I should take things easy. There's really a lot of things I should not be so concern about it coz the concern I am going to be means, I either make myself unhappy or angry. Its quite stupid of me lo. So I think I just choose the easy way out le.
No longer bear much feelings for some stuff coz I realize its way beyond a point to care. Then today talked to Daniel. It is so kind of him. Hehe.. He said if I working OT, he don't mind go pick me up from work as he know my area there quite ulu and quiet. LoL.. He is my sec sch senior. I always offend him in some way that in the end we become good friends. LoL.. Then I realized most of my sec sch seniors all residing in West area or North.. For I am the only one in school, staying central or towards the east. LoL.. Now then I know. But its really funny to find out after so many years. Then he was asking me why I joined the drama club. Its really recollecting the wonderful memories I had in Sec school daze.. LoL..
Hmm.. In office and reached home chatted with Andy most of my time. Was talking about some matters. He is always a listening ear for me. Chatted with him as he still in office doing OT due some server problem. I end the chat with him and went to bed.. There are certain things will just make me unhappy but thinking back I find it silly coz it just make me feel I show too much care and concern. For instance, in future whatever things going to be said or happen, I will no longer show concern or care for it. Just listen and forget about it coz somehow how a lot of things had actually proven that I should not remember coz they are just said and meant to be forgotten. Its only me holding it dear to my heart and remember. Its really silly me to believe it so much. Until the day really comes, the other things for now is just a bypass for me. No longer giving another look at it. Until it shows that I should give it much attention. In conclusion, I think I should release a litttle instead of holding on so tight ba. Hmm.. Then stomach was growling like mad. I know I am hungry but I am lazy to cook maggi or went downstairs to buy food. So I chose to skip. This is going to happen very often. Hopefully tomorrow night mum got cook. Maybe weekends then I go eat Mac. Hehe.. Alright.. I gonna go sleep.. Shall get enough of sleep and stop my mind and heart from thinking and feeling so much. Haha..
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
OT Week shall prolong till next week
Shack out le.. Fever rise back. Ate a lot of panadol today. Like as if I am killing myself.. Lol.. Work is never getting lesser.. Cleared a stack.. Another came in from another dept. I am dying of exhaustion.
Lunch no appetite.. Ate half way and threw my food away. Continued doing my work. Went meeting and listen to what boss have to say. Crapping most of my time with my colleagues as we are all bored and tired. Then celebrate Karen birthday. Tomorrow lunch planned to go eat yu pian mi fen.
I am really tired.. Chatted with a new colleague whom is here to replace Karen de. Tomorrow meeting her together take Co bus to work. She younger than me. Lol.. But can click la. Hee.. Today went a lot of toilet break with Moko.. She today disturb me coz I go toilet with liang then never jio her.. Kanna her arrow for 5 mins.. But I gave her sweet so she stopped.. Lucky.. Petty cash is really hard to calculate.. Not as easy as other companies I work at de. Tedious but enjoying coz at least I got to learn how to overcome it. Hee..
Back home at 9pm.. Hmm.. No dinner.. Tired.. Played fb and now blogging.. Awhile more I hitting my bed. Really tired and tml is another day to OT.. Think my OT can until next week except Fri can go home on the DOT!! Weekends planning to go back work but if I am lazy, I may bring work home on Fri and do.. Mon then bring back to work.. Hehe.. Short and simple for today as nothing much apart from work.. But I am starting to get use to life being alone. Hehe.. Although its bored but sometimes when there isn't a choice so must get use to it.. Haha..
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Grandma's 8th Death Anniversary & Law Exam
Didn't sleep the whole night but rest my eyes instead. At 8am, I prepared and went to TPY to meet Aunt Martha. She keep hinting me the taxi driver driving us to Jln. Bahar is someone I know de and the driver knows where I stay. Hmm.. Running through my mind, the only friend of hers know where I stay and I know one is Aunty Betty. She's my aunt pri to sec classmate.
Then I asked Aunt Martha but she kept me in suspense. Hmm.. Help her carry the stuff downstairs and wait for the cab. I feeling hungry and thirsty. Weather super hot. Fever is still there but gone down a bit le.
When the cab came, my guess is correct. Haha.. Its indeed Aunty Betty. She drove us to nearest petrol station. When we got down the car, she said to me, "Wah.. U grown so big but why u still so skinny?" Aunt Martha replied her, "No matter how much she eat always this size.." Btw Aunty Betty is also my nanny when I was a kid. She used to look after me de. So quite close to her. She first thing see me is hugged me.. LoL.. Then she added, "For so many years, I hug u and I can still feel yr bones.." I really nothing to say.. LoL...
After that we went to the graveyard.. I fell asleep in her cab while she and Aunt Martha was talking all the way. The place I woke up and is the place where fond memories appeared. Aunt Martha pointed out that place to Aunty Betty. She said its juz the process of growing up.. LoL...
Not long we reached our destination le.. I went to look at grandma's tomb and paid my respects. Feel like crying but I know grandma dun like so I hold back.. Its very xin ku.. I really miss her a lot.. Sob Sob.. We bought some flowers for her.. This is how I decorate it.. Hehe..
Then after that we went to grandpa's tomb to visit as Father's Day coming.. Hmm.. I didn't take photos of him coz he looks firece and I am scared.. After Aunty Betty sent me home and drove Aunt Martha to Novena as she meeting her friend. Then I went TPY Library to revise a little before heading Bishan to meet Sharilyn. Her bf drove us to RJC and we were in different halls.. So we planned to meet at foyer after the exam.. After the exam, I train down to Clark Quay find ZQ coz he mistook that we meet at CQ.. JJ came later a bit. We walked to Marina Square and had Waraku. Hehe.. ZQ and JJ both eat until super full.. LoL.. They keep saying its worth the money.. LoL.. After that we went off.. They trained home while I bus home. Tired le.. Tml back to work. Have to OT. Haiz.. Tdy eat le one meal.. I think I will lose even more weight. Juz nw went to weigh.. I am freak out le. What I had eaten pass few days, had been lost. I am sad to see my weight. My appetite also not that good. One meal per day nia. Yest whole day no eat. Tdy the only meal I really had my filled is dinner. The rest of this week, I probably will be skipping dinner. Tired and exhausted le. I gonna go sleep le.. Tomorrow is a long day.. Haiz.. Boring!!
Monday, June 1, 2009
Intensive Revision - 3 More Days (Sat 30/05/09 - Mon 06/01/09)
Saturday went to meet KC and KW for lunch. Went to Hoshi to eat. Its been long we went there. KC asked had I planned where to bring my mum to eat on her birthday. Then my bro said I had long planned. Bringing my mum eat her faves. Then KC said he would like to pay half of it. Then I said. When I bring her liao then got receipt, I claim from him. KW asked what my mum like. Then I said, something simple like a msg will do coz my mum dun like to receive gifts apart from my bro or I buy give her.
Then after we walked around to see anything nice. Its like only a few months I didn't come here but the Sunday is still packed with so many people. Yes it holds memories but I letting this memories dwell in me. Hmm.. KC out of no where asked me, "Shall we go visit him?" I was shocked and replied him, "Dun scare me.." I was freaked out. After that day, I had never stepped back here and this is months later. A lot of things around there, I am still familiar. The route, the ambience, the surroundings but not the feelings its still so clear in my mind. Its like everything was just refreshed in my mind.
After that decided to head home, KC is driving and I was in the back seat instead of the usual front seat. Then KC actually drove passed his house, then he asked, "take a one glance ba.." But I shooked my head and said, "Kor, I dun wan to be here. Please move on." He was then said, "This is to ask u to put down what u should have put here. Dun throw it elsewhere coz it will bring u no where."
Then when he drove off, its a short distance to my uncle house. We went there to relax and also chatted a little. Kor was wanting all of us to study higher like he does. But Wei and Cheng, objected him coz both of them thinking is different from him. Then he was saying why he got 2 lazy bros. Then I am just in the middle of them. Then Cheng was taking army as an excuse to stop his education. Wei had no excuse but debate with him why take Master while he currently taking de course is because he dunno what to study and just take because Kor want him to.
Then he came up with an agreement and he also give that big bro de order. He said, if Wei dun take Master, he shall start working after graduate next year." Which it freaks Wei out and decided to study another level higher. For Cheng, he will stop giving allowance if he dun want further his studies. Then Cheng look at me, then I said its his future. He should be the one to decide and be firm with his decision. Kor can be stunned but he will respect our decision.
Then for me, he knew that I am feeling lost and heading no where. Then he said to me that he knew I do not have the mood to study after certain things happened. Then he said please be back to yourself. The current one we are seeing is someone we dunno. Its someone who is being transform and living in another person shadow.
I was silent for a moment. Then he continued to say that if I failed my exam, then jolly well he will allow me to work coz he thinks I need to get my focus back. But I rejected it, I told him that I won't fail de. This is my future. Kor was pleased to hear that. I don't say things to please his ear. I am determine to finish my course of studies till the end. Ya I may always do things with those 三分钟的热度.. But when I am determined means I will finish it. Kor then was saying that he felt I lost my laughter, I transform into a person whom he thinks I am not. I won't deny. I am totally dun feel comfortable with the current self. Its really not me. I have never let my emotions ruled over my mind. I had never complicated things in my own life and I have never anyhow throw my temper or tantrum but now all this just happens.
Then Cheng and Wei said that I got influenced. Kor was like its something that is inevitable. Subconciously I am influence till I dunno. Haiz.. Then after that I fell asleep. Then they change topic.. Its like I have been sleeping in the car to and fro. Kor already use to it coz whenever I am in a car being a passenger, I will just sleep. Then they were asking how come I am so tired. Cheng said that there are things I am tired with in my life. Then apart of thinking of giving up but I trying to find alternative. If there isn't then I will just give up but it will not be instant. It will be in a slow process.
I was resting my eyes but to them they thought I sleeping. Haha.. I am actually listening.. Hmm.. Hardly we will have time to 闲聊.. But Kor have not much worries for me as I know what I want and I won't say out until I fulfill it. Then I thought of going home to take my books and back to uncle house to revise. Who knows Wei wanted to go back JB and I decided to stay home to revise. Dad keep asking me for attention, bro was playing game. Distraction and I am facing my com instead of books.. I planned and went to airport to study. Asked JJ wanna accompany me ma. Ya although I said I can be alone but frankly speaking, I dun really like the feeling of being alone or should I say I am not use to it ba. Coz its like my everyday life there used to be a person beside me. Haiz.. 好想念有人陪伴的时候.. 因为我从没感觉过孤单或者寂寞.. 因为无时无刻都会有人陪我聊天和欢笑着.. 这时光现在已经不存在了.. 因为我现在是一个人..
Overnight study till the next day.. After that home and relax. After that went out to meet the guys. I have to apologise to them. I threw my temper and everything. They have to bear with it. I think I next time have to get really enough sleep before I go out. If not the people around me will just suffer. My mind isn't working and had hurt them unknowingly. After the whole day out and I woke up this morning, I feel damn bad but I am not feeling well.. I dun feel like going work but I pulled myself there. Mum was saying fever at 38 dun go le. I insisted.
Then I went to bath and change. I was feeling giddy. Bro accompanied me to take train then he alighted at City Hall to change and head Yio Chu Kang. I took all the way to Clementi. I didn't miss my bus. I bought breakfast too. But in the end I didn't eat. I drank milo only. My food I gave my colleagues to eat instead. Lunch I didn't eat. Home ate medicine and I fell asleep. Fever last check was 39. Dad asked me to go see doc, I dun want. I carried on revising my studies. No appetite for dinner. Drank oat. After this morning talking to GJ, I totally realize something and the mood everything drop to zero.. I starting to feel afraid and really dunno how to say the feelings I am having.. Revision is still doing fine but there are things in my mind running and yet I dunno what to do. Should I really plan for tomorrow meet up after my exam or maybe I should not meet them for awhile to sort out my own feelings and thinking. Never had once people in my life said things so harshly to me. Its a great blow I had taken today but I gonna digest it slowly. Thinking of the things he said. Its still running in my mind. But I would say, I gonna do something about it.
For my family, I am always talking less coz they understand why as I dun wanna hurt them. For others, I always try not to hurt them but somehow or rather I hurt them in another way. I dun give things up easily although I always tend to say. Its just saying to make myself feel ease. I say out because I wanna 发泄.. Its not I really wanna give up. 我不是一个很轻易放弃的人.. If I would wanna give up, I had given up long time ago. What's the point of holding on for so long and now I said I wanna give up and just give up like that. I dun de lo. Ya I agree I sometimes talk without going through my empty brain. But the words came out, its like totally what I am going to say. I dun like to be fake. If I gonna think so much of how a person is going to feel, then it will just be I rather choose to speak less coz I can't think of a better way to phrase the words. I do not have the positive points of speaking in a way that people would like. Its either I speak my mind or I dun speak at all. But if I choose to speak my mind, then it will just hurt others. So sometimes that's the reason why I draw myself away from people or speak very little. Coz I dun want anyone get hurt by my words. But my words still kill some. This is something, I dunno how to change.
I dun mind being wronged by people, I dun mind people look down on me and I dun mind what others say me. I just dun care that much of what others said. This makes me clearer of what the me they saw. But if I know that's not the fact, I will just ignore. But if I know that's the fact, then I will do something about it. I know I have friends I can rely on but sometimes I just wish I could find someone can that be close to my heart. I have to be frank, its hard to find and although I had found but we are maybe not meant for each other. For our focus is not in place. I shall leave everything to time to decide. Just like what grandma always tells me, a lot of things just let nature takes its course. 勉强是不会有信服的.. :)
我要回去那个原本什么都能看得开的我, 而不是怎天烦恼的过日子.. 因为这不是原本的我.. 巡回被遗忘的我.. 因为那个我才是真真的快乐而感到自在的, 也不会因为小事而被击倒的.. 我会比从前更快乐.. 而面带微笑的我再也不是假, 是真的从我心里头而笑的.. :)
我会努力的找回那个快乐的我, 因为我要把快乐带给我在乎的人.. :)
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