Monday, April 4, 2011
I Miss Celebrating Birthday with Daddy
Well.. Had an early birthday celebration with Jacq, Alex, Winnie, Yan Fen & Daniel on last Monday.. I wanna Thanks Aunt Martha for organizing and celebrating my birthday by bringing me to Orchid Country Club.. She wanted to give me a happy and unforgetable one.. Therefore, it should be fun but some people just like to spoil mood.. I dun wanna say who.. Maybe I also spoil the mood.. Anyway, to be honest.. I making this year as my last to celebrate my birthday.. No more birthday celebration in future.. Really feeling damn tired after the whole damn bloody celebration..
I am no longer interested in celebrating.. After some careful thought about it over the days.. I think celebrating birthday is as bored as going chalet.. Maybe like what I am told.. Got the right friends to celebrate with then it will be fun.. But who are the right friends.. Hahaz.... It will be kept in thoughts..
I really wanna say I am too lucky.. Sometimes things I never knew will come to light without me having to waste any efforts to know.. The feeling although is lousy.. But also a lesson telling me how idiot I am.. I used to observe a lot.. But because I do not want to be cold to others.. I tried to talk more.. It seems this isn't doing good to me..
Well.. Before talking about tat.. Today went to USS to spend my day with Daniel.. Had lots of fun and tried the rides I didn't play the previous.. Well at least I feel happy playing and having fun..
Hmm.. Back to the topic.. I think I should stop being friendly to people.. Maybe when I dun bother.. Then I would not reveal my care.. When I dun reveal my care.. Then I would not feel pissed with what people do & make myself look like an idiot..
I should have stick to my heck care attitude all the way.. Changing to be close to humans getting me really tired.. When I heck care I got so much negative comments.. Now when I feel pissed with certain stuff because I care, also kanna negative comments.. I really prefer to be in my own world sia.. No one will know my thoughts.. No one will know when I am pissed and No one will ever know what I feeling..
I dun feel angry thinking about all this.. I just feel tat maybe keeping things to myself is better.. What for let people know.. Do they bother about how u feel? No.. They bother about what u feel about them and not how u feel when they said things to u..
Yeah there isn't fairness in this damn bloody world.. Then why am I trying to be fair.. Simple because I am an idiot who believe tat when u treat the person nice, in return they will do the same.. But in actual fact, what they return was a pile of shit.. I think I rant enough already...
Really I do not wish to celebrate my birthday anymore as I am reluctant to invite friends.. It's time to remember what I learnt this year.. I not going to forget.. I may forgive but not forget as this left a scar in my mind and soul.. Thanks!!
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