Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Doubts Surfacing on Human Faces
Hmm.. Today I started to keep all my thoughts to myself.. Mummy was worried coz her first reaction was why she is seeing the past me surfacing again..Keeping quiet, dun wanna talk much, give one word reply & being so much heck care.. Like treating the surroundings like air.. Well.. She keep asking me what happen that I decided to change.. I told her nothing and said this is good coz no longer people will see my temper, no longer I will care about what others did.. All I will do just laugh things off and won't even mind who offended who.. As I will tell myself that anything is none of my business and my business is none of others..They poke their nose in.. They get nothing as I won't say.. Neither will I care about what is going on.. Even if I am unhappy with their actions.. I will also pretend never see and just do what I enjoy doing..I no longer cares what the heck people is thinking.. Neither will I show my anger.. I will not even express anymore stuff.. I got no one to blame but blame myself for being too emotional towards everything.. I shall let my brain rule every single thing.. No longer wanna feel for it.. As I learnt enough and got enough.. I still prefer to feel and think with my brain instead..No longer let my emotional rule my brain but the other way round instead.. If u ever wonder the reason why.. The reason is simple because it started with myself.. None others.. Actually I think like tat also good.. Everything just laugh it off and forget it.. I will rant lesser also.. Hahaz.. I just love my heck care attitude.. I should not have change back then.. It's such a regret man.. LoL!!Slowly go figure out what's on my mind ba.. Lol.. When u really know.. In fact it's just a empty shell.. LoL!! In order to protect myself from being hurt.. This is the actions I am doing.. I am feeling happier now than before.. Hahaz.. I also starting to talk lesser le.. Hahaz.. Changing for better or worse.. No longer bothers me as I just wanna feel comfortable doing it.. Heez.. If u still have doubt what causes me to change.. Then let this doubt be in u coz u will never find the ans.. Give up ba.. Hahaz.... Nothing happens but I just feel like changing.. Hehez... This ans shall appease everyone.. If it doesn't, then let it be as it won't affect me anyway.. Wahahahahaz....
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