Monday, August 9, 2010
Happy National Day SG
Hmm.. SG turns 45.. LoL.. I fell asleep when watching it.. I was kinda tired.. Hardly sleep.. Overly stress.. Roar..Counting down to exams but way before that I gonna get my bloody assignment done up.. Its freaking confusing and not all websites are able to be taken as reference for example wiki.. Roar.. One source down... Having xyz running through my brains while I was flipping my resource text book which I bought not long ago and looking at the webbie.. Making my eyes going round in a twirl..Had been up since morning woken up by my dad's fave song.. Went to google it.. Played it many times on youtube.. I start to miss dad.. During National Day.. We are always back in JB.. Having steamboat, talk craps and then back to SG and head down pubs near Lavender..Hmm.. A lot of questions from mum and bro regarding why I woke up so early.. Ya I am truly stress with school.. Yet they gave me tat kind of being amaze looks.. What the... Its like I am hit by stress with surprises.. Wootz...Mum cooked lunch while I was still struggling and banging my head against all odds.. Its something I got to overcome without help.. I was hoping dad was there to be my guide and tell me wat to do.. I feel so lost...........Felt the lethargic feel in my body but I pushed myself to the max.. When I told my friend about it, the answer was I used to laugh it off.. Now I felt it.. Really an idiot of life.. I had tried to console although I said things like tat.. Roar... This taught me to mind my words.. Now u know why I prefer to talk less..Hmm.. Dinner is the same as lunch.. Brain isn't working well.. Really can't think much.. Today seems like who talk to me sure kanna offend by me.. Heck la.. I really not in the mood.. Its like why this and that.. Its totally kind of feeling why muz like tat and why not like this.. All the time I always asked will there be someone who is true.. But frankly speaking.. When someone is true, u can tell.. I am not dumb to the part where I can't see.. So please dun take me as a dumb.. If u are smart than show me how smart and capable u can be..I always never feel life is meaningful.. Facing all the failures and learnt from it.. Somehow there will people trying to poke the pain u are feeling.. It is hard to believe in something and someone tries so hard to tarnish the thought of it.. If without putting in effort, I doubt there will be results.. I am not a turtle who chose to hide in my shell.. I rather face it and brave it.. If its a failure, I will still be standing on my own 2 feet.. Like wat I had said, every failure is a lesson.. U learnt it, correct it and move on.. If because u afraid things might happen again, then I would say u did not learnt the assets of Prevention is better than Cure.. When things bound to happen, we will try to prevent it from happening.. Then regret and cure it later.. Whats' the point.. If regret later and cure it, then like tat my dad won't leave this world..He regret not taking good care of himself.. He now wanna live but he wasn't given a chance anymore.. He is a soul with an empty shell roaming around.. Looking at us in a different world.. Communication was totally cut.. He can hear us but we can't hear him.. What's the point of regretting when u know u can actually prevent it.. I always asking myself why I am living.. Wat do I contribute being alive.. I dunno.. I always felt when I wanna put my whole heart into something, irregardless what, there bound to be people around me pour cold water.. Have u people thought of how I felt whenever u open your bloody mouth.. While I tried to care about your bloody feelings before I said because I know u are upset.. Aren't kindness being repaid with kindness or kindness are meant to be repaid with ungratefulness.. Maybe I should not be nice to anyone but harsh instead and people who know me well enough know whether I will a not.. **ROAR**
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