Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Giddy & Moody
Hmm.. Today woke up kinda late.. Went on MSN.. Chatted with Bee & BaoZhuJie..LoL.. Planning to start exercising again as I think my foot should be able to be back on track.. After recuperating for so long.. Went online to check the booking for courts.. Its fully booked.. Wootz.. No choice.. Got to wait till Sept le.. Think better chances..Maybe can head to gym for the time being.. Hmm.. Bee sent me her econs assignments.. Helped her do researched and sent the links to her email.. Hopefully those will be of some helped.. Her assignments seems to be easier than mine.. Wootz.. Although ours are from the same Uni but different course.. LoL..Then talked to Rong on FB as she told me Stage got sell drinks.. Hmm.. I will helped her find and buy some for myself too.. Hehez.. I gonna visit Stage shop in TW also.. Hahaz.. Not forgetting the stuffs that some of my friends asked me to help them find..Well.. Planning to meet up with my Mitsui Colleagues too.. But waiting for them to plan.. LoL.. Long time didn't them le.. Hahaz.. Hmm.. Suddenly felt giddy out of a sudden.. Went to take a nap.. Woke up le and its rather moody.. Mum went out with my cousin-in-law.. Then I am alone at home.. I forgot to switch on the lights before heading off to nap.. I woke up and felt moody out of a sudden.. Hmm.. I missed Daddy.. Whenever I having a nap, he will be the one switching on the lights so that when I woke up, I won't bang into anythings.. Haha.. I got the habit of walking without opening my eyes until I see light as its too glaring.. Haha..Went to switch on all lights.. Then went to take a bath to freshen up myself.. Planned to Toa Payoh as I am craving for KOI.. Had my fave Popeye Mashed Potato too.. Hahaz.. Met Serene to there.. Chatted a little.. But my mind was thinking about Daddy.. Every weekend used to go there play Badminton and Jogging.. Before heading for our breakfast at Eldest uncle's house. Why Daddy had to leave so soon? Why he can't live to 80? Why he can't enjoy the stuff which mum is enjoying now? Why have to be so unfair? I have many whys in my mind.. But all have no answer.. Nothing can me moody easily but the thinking of my dad will just make me feel empty.. I really regretted for working OT the previous night and not having dinner with Daddy.. His last dinner was alone as I called home and told him to eat first without me as I am working OT.. Thanks to my boss.. Made me work till 9 plus by doing things which next day also can do bcoz of a stupid reason of accounts colleagues everyone staying and I wanna leave.. I felt bad easily so I stayed.. Got home around 11pm.. I am too tired and headed off to bed without having my dinner..This is the regret in my life which I can't even mend it back.. Thinking of it just made me cry.. After my dad passed on.. No matter how hurtful things may seem... How harsh the words it used to make me cry.. No longer appeals to me.. My tears will not flow and I will just go against it.. But my tears will flow only when Daddy's photos were seen, Daddy's images flowing through my mind or I dreamt about Daddy.. That's when u know my heart is crying.. I know no matter how long it takes.. Time will never mend this for me.. It will always be wounded.. :'(
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