Friday, June 18, 2010
Moody Moody Moody
Actually a normal meet for a movie and dinner was to be fine and happy occasion.. But how come it turns out be.. I dun wanna talk about it anymore.. I felt like an idiot being fooled.. Chided the person but the reply was kinda heck care.. Haiz... Really no words to say..I wanna give BaoZhuJie a good birthday celebration lo.. But in the end it seems to be a disappointment.. I do not eat much yest as where got mood... Everything seems so dull and out of place.. The card and present I wanna give to her on the surprise which Dickson had on planned on Fri.. Thanks so much that all my plan was soiled...Morning woke up.. Totally felt giddy and wanna vomit.. What the hell is with me.. Yest already so shitty.. Wanna make up for the mistakes I made and give BaoZhuJie a better surprise today but I fall sick.. Really feel like banging wall.. Life is so shitty...No choice... Life screwed, Plan Screwed & Friendship Relation is Screwed.. Forget it.. Life is a piece of shit anyway.. Treasure it or dump it.. Life with friends or neither, does it makes a diff.. I dunno.. I seems so lost now...Run toilet for 5 times.. Whatever went into my body came out.. No balance.. Msg Dickson that I can't make it to help BaoZhuJie celebrate.. I dun wan to go especially when I know I gonna collapse.. I dun wan to spoil her day again.. Well.. Asked Nic to collect the surprise for BaoZhuJie..Hmm.. I wanna get the Kitty Soft Toy for her very long le.. Had been counting down the days to her big day.. Pre-ordered it.. Finally thought can give it to her personally but I am down.. Think will make it up to her some other day.. Really utterly disappointed.. Thought I could give her a good bday memories but I failed..I felt lousy at the same time.. Am I really a good friend or a lousy friend? I dunno.. Demoralized was what I could describe.. Strayed and hidden.. Fever attacked me late in the night.. Thanks huh.. I took panadol and head to bed.. Somehow.. I remembered that I did not wished BaoZhuJie Happy Bday as its past 12 midnight.. Woke up and send her a msg then I falls back to sleep..Photo of the day:
This is what I got for BaoZhuJie.. :)
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