Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Back to SG for a few days
Today woke up kinda late as replenishing my sleeps lost for the last few days or week.. LoL.. Then slack around at home.. Dun feel like doing anything.. Wootz..
Jacq called me and she wanna come my house to visit as after the change in my house.. She had not visit me.. LoL.. Went City Square to meet her.. Bought lunch for bro and Jacq treat me Bubble Tea.. Thanks sis.. Hehez...
Walked to my house and we chatted along the way... Wah I wonder how long I didn't see her liaoz.. Then was asking how is her wedding arrangements going on.. Well.. 我们5个人会是永远的好姐妹..但是她们都是结跟了不然就是在准备婚礼表了.. 时间过得好快.. 从单身到结婚.. We walked through together.. Now they are consider married women while I am still alone.. LoL..
If I said I totally dun bother.. Which is faked de lo.. Hmm.. Sometimes wish that he is there to talk to me.. Hope to have a listening ear.. A little arguement here and there but its only awhile.. Well.. Really lo... Missing the times and thinking back the happy moments we had spent.. Well.. Its not the useless bum I am saying.. LoL..
Haiz.. 孤单一个人really hard to pass time man.. Hmm.. Although I am enjoying life now.. But there's bound to feel empty sometimes or even to boundary of loneliness.. :(
Well chatted with her... Then talked about driving and all.. Well I really wanna drive so I can cut down on taking bloody cabs.. Roar.. I calculated the amount I spent on cabs can actually pay for my petrol of the car.. LoL... Hmm.. Awhile later Ken called arrange to meet him for dinner at Bugis.. LoL.. Went to bath and change to head to Bugis as Jacq also meeting her friend at Bugis.. Hehez... Walked to Bugis.. Then she said she known me for so long.. Then said my character now and last time totally different... Well.. Do u know when she said that the same as Ken said it.. How much I was thinking why my friends seems to understand me better than my mum... They knw my temper.. They know how I would react.. They said I know how to control my temper.. Why my mum still not satisfied.. Why........ I really dun get it.. My friends feel that the NOW me is better.. BUT MY MUM IS NOT SATISFIED.. TELL ME WHAT CAN I DO!!!!!!!!!
I really dunno lo.. I tried my best to give in... I really am at my limits already... I couldn't take it anymore.. Life's really a BIG CHANGE WHEN Dad's NO LONGER Around To PROTECT ME or BE MY SHIELD Towards MY MUM!!!
ROAR!!!!! I really dunno man.. Why my mum cannot be understanding at all... ARRRrrrrggggHHHHhhhhhhh!!!!! FORGET IT.. I am lazy to think about it... :(
Had dinner at MOS with Ken.. Bought Adidas water bottle and went Arcade to catch Hello Kitty for BaoZhuJie but I failed.. Haiz.. This few times catch bear keep failed.. Dunno wat happen to me sia... No mood ba.. Haiz.. Sianz...
Then after that head home to get dinner for bro.. Well.. At least now I feel better le... Maybe because talking to Ken, I feel much better as I dun think about it...
Really lo.. I dunno why its so hard to communicate with my mum.. She seems to live in her own world... Talk to her, she can answer u another thing.. I tried to tolerate but there's always a limits ma.. I am human.. I could say is no is perfect.. If everyone expects everyone to be perfect is kinda forceful.. Why not just let the person be who they are.. Isn't it seeing the person they care being happy most important ma.. I really dunno understand what's wrong with my mum's thinking man.. Really lo.... She seems to understand my bro but never tries to understand mine.. Whenever I tried to tell her.. All she gives was getting angry at me.. Saying how I feel is it something wrong? I really keeping everything in my heart.. From then on.. I dun feel like telling her anything.. If she say things I dun like to listen I just reject coz this is the same way of how she neglect my feelings and I am juz returning the favor.. I asking for fairness and nothing else..
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