Monday, March 22, 2010
Back to JB (19.03.10 ~ 22.03.10)
19.03.10 went back JB around 8 plus.. Couldn't wake up as I am overly tired.. Well.. Hopefully granny can be well soon... Haiz.. She in pain.. We felt the pain too...
Bought breakfast for 小舅 and had milo too.. Hehe... After that Aunty Nik came.. Had lunch then went to buy more clothes as I didn't bring clothes.. Wahahahaz.... Lazy lahz.. Now I got more clothes to wear in JB lo.. Next time dun need bring clothes in liaoz.. Heez.. This is to prove how lazy I am to carry my clothes here and there.. LoL...
After that around 7 plus mum came.. Hehe.. Brought Shan with me to wait for mum.. Hehez.... Then walked back to shop.. Heez... Shan very far saw Mum and she called out for her.. So kawaii dehz.. LoL...
Then prepared dinner for mum.. Hehez.. Its kinda rare of me to do that ever since Daddy passed away.. Well... I missed Daddy every minute every second.. Trying to be strong.. Forcing myself dun wan to think of Daddy but whenever I am alone or keeping quiet.. My mind is full Daddy.. Coz a lot things I having doubts, I dunno who to ask apart from my dad.. Really a lot of things bothering me.. I am feeling vex and lost.. But wat can I do.. Disappointed...
Mum went back with Aunty Nik.. I stayed put to wait for 小舅 to do finish closing then we head home.. Hehez.. Oh ya.. I forgotten a few days ago.. I intro 小舅 to eat 臭豆腐.. He started to like it.. Hehe...... Well.. I forgotten when I last had it sia.. Haha...
On 20.03.10, as usual lah.... But home early.. But something happened.. 小舅 not enough sleep so a bit muddle-headed.. Locked the doors without keys.. Aunty Nik felt agitated and pissed off.. Flew her anger at 小舅.. Haiz.. 可怜的小舅。。 I also dunno how to help.. Haiz.. Stand , See & Watch.. Useless bum.. Haiz...
Not long 小舅 figured out how to go in to take key le.. But still kanna scolding from Aunty Nik.. Why can't she just stop nagging.. My ears also feels the pain man.. Sometimes I just dun like listening to her talking as a pain in the ear... Wat can I do.. I am a nobody right.. Haiz...
Then headed home to join mum for dinner.. Haiz.. Then went to walk around Pasar Malam... Bought a lot of things.. Hehe.. I got no chance to eat the 肉干面包.. Sobz.... Bought 5 all finished.. None left.. I know I should have buy more sia... Roar..... Nevermind next time buy again.. Hahaz.... Then I should eat on the spot.. So tat I dun need to face the situation of empty bags.. LoL..
21.03.10 stayed home with the kids.. I know I should have go down shop with 小舅.. Maybe will be better.. Hearing too many rumblings... Then see the idiots face.. I a bit sian and becomes moody... Talked Lai, Ling and Xing.. They said they like to talk to me more than the other 3 cousins.. LoL.. Well to them its like I can understand what they want... They can relate how they feel to me.. Maybe because I prefer to listen than to talk ba.. LoL... Stayed in the room till everyone's gone then I came down.. Wee~ 小舅 not back yet.. I am hungry but waited....
Finally 小舅 is backed.. YEAH!!!!! But Po Po wanted to go buy praying stuff.. Wootz.. Waited again.. Damn long sia.. Sianz........ Hungry.. Praying gastric dun attack me.. They are back.. Had dinner.. Aunty Nik kept rumbling again.. Coz mum wanna stay another day.. I wanna keep mum accompany.. But after the rumblings and how mum takes side.. I felt upset and angry.. How I wished Dad is there... Coz at least if Dad's around mum will not take sides... She will be more neutral.. Haiz.. Daddy I really need to YOU!!!!!!! Why Why Why................ chose this time when I haven even step out to live on my own... U left me.... Haiz.. I sometimes cannot tarhan mum's thinking.. Why she doesn't understand how I feel... Wat I want... Or wat I feel like doing.. Why muz she listens to others and ignore my feelings.. I really trying to take it in strife.. Brooding it internally... Even its been said, she also won't understand but she will get more angry instead.. Well Why do I said that.. Coz I have tried it before and in the end I quarreled with her.. Which is wat I dun wanna.. Well for the past few days my eyes got infection.. When the doc told me if it got worse, I may have brain damage and could lead to death.. Well.. I am kinda happy to hear that... I know I dun go see doc.. Which means my life will shorten.. Anyway my mum dun need me.. She cares for my bro only wat.. I am kinda invincible to her.. I cared and I asked for nothing more than a concern.. But I got none.. She listens to others.. Stand in other people's shoes and point her finger at me.. I wonder why should I care so much.. If not because of my dad.. I doubt I would give a damn anymore.. Really dunno all this things can tell who but written here.. Its been keeping my heart.. Showing laughter and being funny is wat I could do to cover up the unhappiness building in between me.. Who can understand all this shit I am going through.. Damn it..
22.03.10 went down shop with mum.. Quarreled with her in the cab.. She said she doesn't agree.. Bull shit.. If she can tell me wat was being told to her.. Means she agreed... If she didn't agree.. She will juz tell me this, "Po Po say u go shop help Aunty Nik tend the shop while 小舅, Cheng, Lai & me go pray Great Grandpa but I think u come with us.. Let Aunty Nik with Li Ling they all in shop.." This is her pattern of talking when she doesn't agree with someone point.. If she agrees.. She won't have the part,"... but I think .... "
Reached shop.. Canceled meet up with Bee.. Change to Wed instead.. Then left JB at 8.. Actually meeting BaoZhuJie with Ken de but BaoZhuJie not feeling well.. So went to meet Ken for a drink at Mac near my house.. Chatted with him on BBQ stuff for Apr 2.. Hmm.. Looking forward to it.. BaoZhuJie said she got surprise for me.. Well.. I only can guessed something to do with Pooh de lo.. Nothing else liaoz.. Then hor Ken said he giving me 3 presents.. Wahzzz... I really cannot think of what he is going to give lo.. Cracking my brains.. LoL.. Went back home and played Wii with bro.. Long time didn't play games with him le.. This proves how much we have grown.. LoL...
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