Monday, February 1, 2010
Half Day & 海派甜心 Last Episode
Today took half day as wanna slack and look for job.. Dee msg me asked me how not online on skype.. LoL...
Then I talked to him on msg.. LoL.. Past few days was talking about him with Katty.. He called & msg me for this week.. Katty & I were like what the... We dun about him.. He like MIA.. LoL...
Today work till 8 plus.. Hmm.. Funny that I am not tired.. LoL... Talked to Katty on phone while waiting for cab.. Then she asked me a question which I really dunno how to answer.. What's my feeling for Dee? I am used to talking to Dee and the closeness which words not able to comprehend.. Hmm.. The feelings for him was stopped in 2004 and it was never been found...
Well.. Katty said the way I said seems like I am falling for him.. After hang up, I questioned myself.. Got ma... Devil & Evil will be together ma or always being close friend? I really dunno... Dee called me shortly after... He is on his way home.. Then I told him that I was waiting for cab..
He detoured to pick me up from work instead.. So waited for him at bus stop.. Saved cab fare.. I told him what Katty said.. Then I am feeling totally lost as I am always drawing the line super clear with him.. Then Dee said that he hoped that we could be more than just close friend.. Well I told him what I faced and its like not the kind of life I want...
He apologized.. LoL.. I didn't expect him to do so.. But Dee's job is on the rock too.. He is starting to look for job... LoL.. Both of us like job hunting.. LoL... Hmm.. Then we went to have dinner.. I didn't eat much as no appetite.. He also didn't eat much as he say he wanna lose weight.. LoL.. Then was back to the topic.. He asked me to give both of us a chance to be together.. Well... After much considering and everything.. I tell him to give me some time to think as I do not want to be any relationship...
Then I asked him, "Dee, u like that keep waiting not tired ma? Don't you feel like giving up whenever I keep rejecting you or can't give u a definite ans?"
Dee replied, "Zhu Tou!! If I tired or wanna give up would be many years ago... But I didn't because........ (the reason I know can liao)" Haha.....
I was touched la.. But hor.... Really doubt leh.. He is always the one I could talk to.. He know me so well and I got doubts I could just voice out.. I can speak freely in front of him and share all my secrets with him.. He is my best listening ear and advisor.. Talking to him I won't feel so shy or strange unlike talking to other guys.. I will not say too much... LoL...
Hmm.. There's a lot of "buts" and "what if" running through my mind.. Roar.... After that.. Dee felt that I was practically not focusing on what he is talking.. He shouted right through my ear.. Idiotz.... Then he say he know what I am thinking and ask me not to worry too much... No matter what happen.. We will always be what we are.... Nothing will change.... Why is he so confident and I have none? =.="
Then as time getting late.. I wanna go home watch 海派甜心.. He also watching.. LoL... Then in the end we watched on his lappy... Wa.. The ending super touching lo... I almost tear... Dee super funny.. Say he can lend me his shoulder.. Smack him on his head.. LoL... He say he dun wan be 达浪.. LoL...... I tell him... I got 宝珠姐 already... I am 达浪.. He cannot be any of us.. Haha... He give me the diaoz look.. Haha.. Super funny....
Somehow after much decision... I told him,"Dee, 给我一点时间.. 让我从恐惧走出来.. 因为我不想失去我们彼此建立的友情.." He gave me a smile and tell me this is not going to be me alone.. He wanna be part of it... LoL..
After that he sent me home and we talked on phone till he reached home.. LoL.. He kept asking me dun think about it.. LoL.. He somehow knows how much I will go think la.. Idiotz... LoL... Then after that hang up with him.. Mum asked me who am I talking to.. Then she thought Dee & I together.. But she got disappointed when I tell her no..... LoL...
Lastly, I got a shocking news.. Dee will be joining me for reunion dinner in JB.. My mum told me de.. Dee good de lo.. Totally never tell me anything.. Mum said Dee told Po Po de.. Then he will be going in JB first before us... He took leave on 12 Feb.. =.="
After I bathed and relax.. Dee called me.. Then I asked him regarding JB.. He then said he wanna give me surprise de.. But who knows my grandma spoiled his plan.. Haha.. But he then said lucky only he going JB to eat reunion dinner and nothing else.. I was puzzled and asked him what is he up to.. He said how can let me know.. He super weird de... LoL..
Talked to him awhile then hang up le as he need to do his work.. His work like never ending de.. Looking at his work load.. I got nothing to complaint le.. Sometimes his time is really tied down with work.. What to do.. Hope he finds a better job... Hehe...
Then I played FB and tomorrow I am on leave.. Wee... Going lawyer office then to PS as the service center said they sent my replacement earphone to PS for me to collect.. Shiok.. Hehe... After that will going JB.. Hehe.. I going to make a new spec.. Hehe... Eye sight really getting poor.. 老了.. 不得不承认.. LoL.. Alright.. Shall go burn DVD for Li Ling.. Hehe..
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