Wednesday, November 18, 2009
A Lot to say!!!
Well its been long that I update my blog.. Things recently was a disaster... Hmm.. Fall sick and more sick as days passes by.. Darn..
Yest went to watch My GF is an Agent.. Its freaking nice.... Thumbs up for it... After movie went play L4D... Hmm.. Got kinda addicted to the game.. But was rather pissed yest due to some reasons......
Home after the game.. Head is spinning.. Ate a lil as my mum kept food for me.. Then took medicine and off to bed.. This morning was late for work.. Zzzzz.... Nose was running like a tap... Freaking dislike having flu and sore throat.. I rather have fever......
Did my work...... Talk on msn...... Then Ms SC msn me.. Ask me some questions which made me paused for a moment... Then I realized I had nothing best to describe.. Haiz...
KC dunno when come back... I am really stress up... Dy mia-ing... Dunno who to talk to... Haiz...... Dy dun MIA liao........ I need my Jun Shi!!!! LoL.... Well.... I had said wat I had to him.. But I am sure none was remembered as to him nothing seems important than what he thinks...
I am reluctant to repeat what I say.... If every single thing have to be repeated, its really damn tiring... Head had spinning badly.. Sleep wasn't getting any better after my trip back to JB as a lot of comments were passed to my ears.. A lot of opinions, suggestions, discriminating words and etc... Some are really wat I saw and my reply was I said liao.. Give time..... Then the next question imposed was how long..... I kept silent..
Ya I know they worry for my own good.. They hope I lead a better life... But I have to say when a person steps into the work society is really different, a lot of responsibility... Then Po Po was like she want someone who can help me to share the responsibility instead of adding on.....
I have to say, Dad is no longer around... At first everything was kinda smooth.. But lately, I felt burdened and stress... Most of the time losing my appetite... Well worry about money as I am the only one working.. Yet I need to save due to I wanna study... But I hardly could save a single cent because I had no one to help me share my expenses..... Its like bearing every expenses... Even when go out with friends.. The expenses is like doubled of my friends.. Kinda like how come... Why no one help to share my woes... But share my joy..
I am getting tired of all this shit... I have my household to support... But who understands... Spending money like water.... I really dunno what to say... Trying my means to cut down on meet up so that can spend lesser or just me going out with my friends as I won't have to spend that much.. I am tied on spending.... But who understands....
See this like it and just buy... Haiz. I dun see future at all as its pitch dark.. Now can't even survive liao.. How to have future sia.. I really pessimistic about my future man... Haiz.......
Trying to tolerate and work late...... Trying to claim as much OT hours as possible... Hope to earn more so that won't feel so money tied for next month as my money like not for myself only... While see others earn and could spend on themselves after giving to their family.. Ya in the past its a YES... But NOW its a NO!! Why is there such a BIG DIFFERENCE? My dad not around but my mum dun ask me for a single cent... My bro have his own savings, he dun ask me for a single cent... After I paid my bills and save partial, I should have enough to spend till my next pay... BUT why is it not enough? Where went wrong? I am really STRESSED!!!! A lot probing in my head and who understands....
Say already its like talking to the wind or wall... Really frustrated... Where can I vent my anger? ROAR!!!! Thinking of it.. My head spins again.. Gonna take my dose of medicine and off to bed.. Haiz... I am really tired of all this shit.... No one believe that the person I am talking will change, even I also dun believe coz tat person believes in himself and no others.. Its simply living in the world of his own.. Then its seems pointless of me being around..... Really need to do some decision making.. But I giving him some time and shall see.. No changes then see how it goes.. Haiz...
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