Friday, August 14, 2009
No Choice But to OT
Today was freaking busy at work and I still can't get rid of not cabbing to work.. ROAR!! Was planning to meet JJ for movie de.. But I told him I can't make it. I put him plane kinda last minute.. Sorry JJ..
Mum said she dun wanna watch movie today.. So I got more time for myself.. Lol.. Hmm.. Had so much to do.. But I managed to clear a fair bit. Tomorrow going back to do reports for July closing and I am done with July accounts and I could get on with my August stuff.. Ya I had not been touching my August work as for the past 2 weeks I am hanging on July's work.. Managed to clear it.. Next week I gonna clear all my August work which is not that much.. So I dun have to worry much.. Although I really hope to work OT often as it minimizes my time at home. Dunno why I think having less conversation at home and know nothing its still the best.
I was really sad when my mum malign me of complaining to my Aunt. She said I called my aunt and complain to my bro.. Kns.. My phone rang and I juz picked up.. I was really devasted.. At that moment of time I really feel like killing myself man.. Since there's no trust since my dad left.. Then it defeat the purpose of me living since my mum and bro totally treat me as a stranger.. Frankly speaking I dun feel comfortable after my dad not around because my mum and bro always talk things which my dad and I dunno.. Now it seems that I am left all alone facing all this shit.. Well what to do.. I have to bear with it.. Last time have my dad to go through all this with me.. Now whatever I do and said it seems a sore to them.. I really feel damn tired of coming home.. It dun seems to be a peaceful place for me to dwell in..
For the nights since my dad left.. I did not have a good sleep at all.. I used to have nice and peaceful sleep.. But now I totally feel hard to sleep.. My mum snore and I totally can't sleep with people around me are snoring as my bro hardly snore.. So I always able to sleep.. Then 2 person sharing a fan.. I used to have a fan to myself.. Now I feeling humid to sleep in my room.. This is really getting tired each day.. The thoughts of installing air con was in mind but I was really thinking, are they worth to enjoy the life of having air con.. I really ponders when its thinking of this point..
Imagine being wake up 2 hours before your actual waking up time and my mum always like to wake people up with those shocking voice.. Which is freaking scaring people kind.. I wonder how my dad tolerate all this.. Argh.. This is so infuriating..
Lucky I am going work tomorrow so I dun face them for the whole day.. I had to say they dun understand me at all coz they didn't try to understand me and for me I dun wanna understand them as I find it freaking pointless since they dun seek harmony.. I gonna catch some sleep if I could..
Then for some reason, I think I would talk less to tat person so I really turning my back against le.. I really walking far.. Well just like I said before if I am walking far from u, I won't said a single word.. Coz it will be in silent.
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