Monday, July 13, 2009
Doc gives 2 Option
Went to hospital after a rest at home.. Doc spoke to us at around 2pm as she was making her grand rounds on monday..
She said my dad didn't really show any good signs even though his body have some muscle reflexes.. She gave us 2 option which made us really difficult to choose..
1st option is to let him breathe by himself without the machine help and it will depend on how much he wanna live and the time maybe short as his breathing having difficulty..
2nd option is to implant a tube at the throat to help him breath.. It may cause him to have complications or infections.. Then he will be in the care of nursing home and she can't promise that the care there will be better than in hospital as the qualifications and experiences are different..
After much thinking and advice, my family decided to choose option 1 coz daddy had chosen this when he is still able to talk to us.. Somehow we are more prepared for this.. Deep down in me, I am scared.. But no matter what I will be strong de..
Henry came down to visit daddy.. Thanks for buying food and drinks.. After meeting with the doc, we went to have our late lunch and then went to office to give letter to my boss.. Then went IMM to walk walk.. Tried the fish spa.. Henry thanks for taking me out to relax awhile. Thanks for accompanying me and let me know u are always there when I am falling.. Thanks for being there when I really need a ear and opinion on how to decide.. Then Ling Ai, Nick, ZQ, JJ, Hailey and Gary came down in the night to visit dad.. Thanks all for coming.. Thanks u all for the care and all.. May all of u be bless.
Reached home, head feeling heavy.. Wonder is that how dad feels before he collapsed.. Aunt Sai Gin called to talk to me.. She saw how my hands tremble that day at the hospital and afraid I did not eat again.. Mum yest saw how I cried and scare I fainted.. I am sorry to make u all worry.. I am very sorry.. I will be strong and eat regulary.. I will not fall as I know mum and bro need me.. I may have a weak body but I will not fall so easily.. I will be fine.. I have to let go if not dad also will feel uneasy.. He should leave happy and not feel sad for us.. I will be strong and move on.. For the people around me to be happy, I will stay strong.. ^^
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