Sunday, July 12, 2009
A Day I am afraid to Face
On 9 July 09 (闰五月十七), morning woke up as usual for work but I didn't go work. Woke up, saw my dad pacing up and down in the living room. His speech is unclear. I thought he sleep walking. Then I asked him what is he doing. He replied, his head feeling heavy and giddy. I was frighted. I asked me to go see doc, he said dun wan.. I repeated, he still say dun wan.. I asked him sit down, he said dun wan.. Then I went to wake my bro up, my bro hold his hand to persuade him to see doc.. He no response.. He start to shiver in cold.. I woke my mum up.. Tat time he starts to shiver throughout the whole body and unable to speak. His eyes is looking at us. I called up the ambulance. They took freaking long and they are not very gentle. Nowadays medics are really idiots. People sick and they people more sick. Kns de lo..
My mum went with the ambulance as only one person can follow. My bro and me took cab down. Not long we reached, the doc approached bro and me as mum was accompanying dad.. Then he said, he bringing my dad for brain scanning as he suspect that there might be internal bleeding in his brain. I am afraid and bro asking me to keep calm.
Not long later, the doc asked mum to come out and be with us. He brought him to do the scan and back. Not long the results are out. The doc gave a news which all of us is to be strong and accept. His main blood vessel which helps him to swallow food and breathe burst and no operation is able to help. I almost dropped but I told myself, I have to be there for my mum and bro. They need my support. For dad's sake, I not going to be afraid. I will be strong coz he had been telling me to be strong and dun need to scare for the past few days.
The neroulogist told us that my dad won't be able to wake up but I know my dad will.. I praying for miracles with my friends and relatives. My dad will get well de.. He so strong and always do what he thinks is impossible. I know he will wake up..
Daddy, do u hear me? Wake up from your deep sleep... We got a lot of family outings and overseas trips to go.. Not only the recent one but a lot......... Daddy, Please Wake Up.. I know U hear us everyday when we talk to u and hold your hands. I dun wan see slight improvement like what the doc tell me... I wanna see big improvement. Daddy, I know u can do it de.. Jia You!! I will always be there at your side to give u support with all your brothers and sisters.. They are also hoping to see u awake.. For all our sake, u must wake up and get well... Daddy, I really miss talking to u.. Please wake up and argue with me.. Like we always do.. Please Daddy......
On 10 July 09, the doc asked to see us at 2pm to review. That's where I got to know he got slight improvement but still we have to prepare for the worst. I cast that word out. My dad will be alright de.. My uncles and aunts are supportive. My dad fell ill and I saw their care for him. It touches me. My 2nd uncle told me to be strong anything dun need to worry. They will help.. I really felt something I am burden is lifted a little for me.. I need to thanks those friends who came to visit my dad and keeping him in your prayers. Even my long friends came. I really feel touched although a lot of things happen between us, u still let me know we are still the best of friends like what we are all along before things happen.. I am happy to know that I have friends who care..
Mum know all of my friends and she was so happy to see them coming.. Then she starts to say me for the first day having so many friends visiting and can fight with dad's friends.. I know mum was trying to be strong. I as her pillar will not collapse.. I know my uncles and aunts are worried for me as I am the weak one.. I fall sick easily and everything.. I gonna be strong and be there for my family.. Dun wan anyone to worry.. :)
Yest was rather quiet as sat.. Everybody have their own thing. Only we were there and dad's friends came and go.. Neighbours came.. I really felt happy that they remember the good of my dad.. Really grateful for all the food and all.. I thank them from the deepest of my heart..
Alright gonna prepare and head back to hospital to accompany my dad.. Blog again if there's something to update as my mood is really emo.. I have been crying for quite long.. My mum said my tears are like river coz its non-stop and I finally stop my tears but I know I tried to hold my tears.. I know my dad will be alright.. ^^ Today is the forth day my dad is in hospital.. I hope he wake up soon... ^^
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