Thursday, April 16, 2009
Bad News Just Fall From NoWhere
Woke up at 11am today.. Actually was quite early but forced myself back into my dream as I wanna finished the dream.. Its nice and weird.. Lol.. For instance, I can't remember a single thing but I manage to go through the end of the dream.. Nice ya.. Lol..
Hmm.. Checked my phone and msn.. Not a single msg on phone.. Msn saw JJ and LA msg but all seems like a spam msg.. Ignored and closed the windows.. Looking at who's online.. Not much people as its usually the people who are online are there everyday and I dun talk to them apart from Debbie Tey.. But surprising.. Today I didn't talk to her at all.. Lol.. Chatted with GJ and ZQ online..
Got of bed and went out to wash up.. My parents are going out.. Mum gave me stunned look and said later she come home wanna have a good chat with me.. Puzzled with her expression.. I tend to ignore as still gloomy when I woke up.. After washed up.. Back into my room to see jobs.. Hmm.. As usual la..
2 hours later, my parents are home.. Mum came into my room and asked me, " Are you to talk for a moment?" I replied with a dull tone, "Ya, Why?"
Hmm.. I was dumbfounded.. A moment of shock just shook me.. "What!!" was shouted in my mind.. Hmm.. My mum told me.. My dad yest blood pressure went up.. He nearly got heart attack.. My dad doesn't want me to know nor my bro.. But in my mind, as if my bro would give a damn about his dad.. Whatever it is, my mum told me that my dad felt numb throughout his right side of his body.. Holy.. I was totally speechless for a moment.. Then my mum said.. Your dad wanna talk to u.. Please be calm and be the little kid you used to make yr dad happy..
I admit after a few incidents, I have not been that close to my family.. I strayed a far.. Something just ran through my mind when I told my mum to give me a time to cool down as its kinda blow.. I don't wish anything to happen to both my parents.. My mum is naive and if anything bad going to happen, I doubt she could handle.. Only my bro and I could handle the matter but I am suppose not to tell my bro.. Whatever la.. I believe I could single-handedly do what's going to be instructed ba..
The thing went through my mind was that whenever something happen, he used to be the one who could help me.. Although things coming out from his mouth is damn irritating instead of those soothing words.. For I mention about him coz apart from so many people around me, only he knows my family thingy and all. I told myself, I have to stand alone.. No point seeking him for help coz we aren't related anymore.. After sometime, I got myself back from shocking state.. Went out of my room.. Dad was breathing badly at the sofa.. I looked at both of my parents from a far.. Little did I realised that both of them are aging.. They actually have just moved on to the 3rd stage of life..
I paced slowly to my dad and he sat up.. I sat beside him.. I looked at him into his eyes.. I told myself, I not going to cry.. I going to let my dad know how strong his daughter is.. Hmm.. My dad telling me things which I dun wish to hear.. He was telling me things that what if he's gone and asked whether I remembered what he told me years ago..
My dad was worried about my mum.. She's naive and easily bullied.. My dad said the person whom he worried is not my bro nor me.. He worried about my mum.. But somehow I felt he's thinking too much.. He scared his siblings will come robbed us of his wealth.. Hmm.. I may not know my uncle or aunties that well.. But the only person whom I aware and bewaring off his my 2nd uncle.. He is cunning.. The rest of my uncles and aunties are alright.. But I do not want to say much la.. My dad said he needs me to be strong as he can't trust my bro for taking care of things.. I told my dad, I dun believe what would happen so dun talk nonsense to me.. Everything gonna be alright.. Dad told me.. If can just prepare for the worse.. I don't want to.. But somehow I agreed.. I know, I have always being the pillar of my family but I have not let them burden me.. I live life out and inside of home differently.. I seems rude to my parents in front of all my friends but in reality, my parents are the one who understands me..
After talking to my dad.. Console my mum a bit and asked to go prepare lunch and dinner if not she won't make it for work.. I strolled back into my room.. I was pondering.. I am afraid.. I am feeling lost.. Who can help.. I dunno.. Who can I turn to.. I dunno.. I lied on my bed and little did I realised, I cried myself to sleep..
I really dunno what to do if my dad really have to be gone from this world.. I dun want him to leave.. Alright.. I know I got to be strong.. I shall try.. Bad news really comes in from nowhere and makes people frighten to their wits.. :(
I try to be happy.. Later ZQ coming my house that's why I blog early.. Doubt I would have mood to do much thing.. Tomorrow is friday and weekends are coming.. Suddenly I feel dull about the days though I am looking forward to weekends.. Maybe a movie this weekend will make me feel better..
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