Friday, January 16, 2009
I hate my life
For the past 2 days and today I dun see the ppl I dislike at work. Went for my lesson at CPA House on Wed. Lecturer was funny as he joke once in awhile so that we would not fall asleep as after a day work still go lesson is quite tiring as energy is slowly draining..
After lesson went back with my neighbour who is in the same class as me.. Quite coincidence la.. I dunno I am sitting next to her.. Lol.. Until she tapped on my shoulder then I realised that.. Haha.. I was wondering how long would it take me to find a friend in this class.. Haha.. As mostly a lesson last at least 6 months. After that will be different sub and different class again.. Lol.. So chat with her on the way back.. Guess what.. We walked back home instead of train. We at first thought take train.. But in the end, the breeze of the cold wind, made us change our mind.. Lol..
Hmm.. She asked me about my family.. The word "family" makes me reluctant to speak. Dunno why.. I slowly dun like to talk about them.. When reaching my block.. I stumbled at whether I belong here or this place is where I have to pay my debts from the day I am born into this world.. I really reluctant to come home everyday. Its like I dun sense the comfort of belonging to this place. Everybody in that house is talking about nothing but "MONEY". Ya for now they dun come to me as I withdraw myself to a corner where I find silence there. So far no harm yet. But how long could it last. I really not sure. In this place there isn't a moment of privacy or a space for your own. Damn freakingly like a jail house.
Anyway I feeling bored with work, life and some other things. Its always things personal that gives problem and a mega headache. I wanna set it free from me but I just can't do so. Maybe I have too much feelings for it. Wonder when will I learn to let it go and instead set myself free all these unwanted problems.. Damn vex and at a wits end. Haiz..
Hope you folks have a great day and weekend ahead!! ^^
A Note for myself:
Jia You Renee Zhu!! Dun let them get you down. Bulk up and fight against them. U are not a weakling. Show them who u are. U are strong and capable to fight against all. Where is your strength and determination. When did you start to let problems to conquer you. Remember you always solve all yr problems and live life happily.. Why now you are defeated? Ganbatte!!
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