World of Pig

Planning

2011-04-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

Gonna start planning for Taiwan trip with Daniel, Bee and her bf, Alson.. Hmm.. There's a lot of places we wanna go in TW.. The trip will be 7 days 6 nights or Maybe 8 days 7 nights.. LoL!!

We had set on the hotel rooms.. Now is which flight company we going fly with.. LoL!! Looking at prices and everything.. Heez..

We like so Enthu can.. LOL!! I not will there be more ppl joining us in this trip.. LoL!! Well.. I had listed out some places to Bee.. We will be going Keelung as nothing much there.. But KaoShiung is Confirm as she wanna go see DaLang's wall.. Hmm.. I dunno I got any place I wanna go a not.. But I wanna go visit Dan Shui again for the night scenery.. I have yet found the Lover's bridge.. Heez!!

Ok we got a lot things we feel like doing.. Going to play theme park also.. And I think I will bring my lappy there again.. LoL!! Oh ya today I went for my medical.. Hmm.. Kind of not optimistic.. But I will try to stay healthy.. Heez..

School coming to an end in 2 weeks for this term.. Exams coming.. I looking forward to LZX concert.. Hahaz.. Then also upcoming short get away next week.. Heez.. I gonna finish my project as well.. So much things to do and I feel time just ain't enough sia.. But I gonna plan my time.. Cannot always delay this and that.. LoL!!

Well.. Some of the things or situation seems to be out of place.. I will try my best to get it back in place too.. Heez.. I am kinda lucky in some ways ya.. Even when facing probs.. There's always so many ears, hands and companion to tell me tat nothing is going wrong if I could face it and change it.. Heez..

Thanks for making me stronger and richer in thinking.. I am really grateful for helps given.. Not going to disappoint anyone.. Heez.. Ok time to go bed.. Hahaz.. Tml will always be a better day even when I dun even believe in tml again.. Heez..

sLeepy

2011-04-13T21:30:00.000+08:00

Slept only a few hours.. Wootz.. Went to meet Serene as accompanying her to the place I went interview.. She is also being asked to go for 2nd interview..

After tat went to PS.. Walk around.. I got to crap to keep myself awake as I know I am dying to head for bed.. My brain isn't functioning and I making it to spin and work instead resting it..

Daniel came to look for us.. We went to have dinner.. Then after tat Serene left for home.. While Daniel and I went to take a walk.. I can't withstand my brain.. It's giving me signal tat its dying.. Juz like my phone.. All low batt sia.. Wat the...

Kinda a long day since 12pm.. I am feeling dead.. Headed home after tat.. Mum talked to me.. I totally dunno how to response.. My brain had switch off.. Even now blogging.. I forcing my brain to focus..

I may start to distance myself from people but I will slowly reattached tat broken path.. It's really a blow to get backstab especially by family members and people close.. Anyway I decided to put all this behind me.. I still need time to get close my peeps again.. I am juz afraid... Well.. I really need to slp le.. Freaking tired..

原來醋那麼好吃

2011-04-13T02:43:00.001+08:00

Juz had a conversation with my mum before sleeping.. Was talking about what Granny told her yest.. I m angry still.. But think no matter how angry I should spare a thought for my mum as she is the facing the bullets..

Well.. It's then after recollecting of the many incidents.. I then realized tat I should be laughing coz bcoz the people are stupid to be jealous over me.. I didn't know I got so much stuff to be jealous off..

I should be proud of myself sia.. Thanks to mum telling me why they wanna stab me bcoz they can't win me.. Tat's y they stab me to prove tat they are better.. Wat for fall for their trap.. LoL..

Bcoz I got attention from people without saying anything.. I got the love from all and this is much enough to make people ard me to be jealous.. What they do by hurting me was to get attention from people ard me..

After listening, I kind of feel like.. Hmm.. This ppl is stupid and I kind of dumb to fall for it.. LoL!! I know what they are jealous about and I should thank them sia.. For letting me know tat who truly dote on me and I should be return tat favor as well.. Letting them know tat they nv 白疼我.. Hahaz..

I m glad tat my mum stopped me from hot headed for a day and I never angry for more than a day b4.. It's really dun feel good being angry.. Hahaz.. Maybe I should really get my tolerance level upz.. This is not the best and I think I could do better.. Training in progress by dealing with 小人.. Hahaz..

To the 小人們: 如果你們那麼愛吃我的醋，就盡管放馬過來.. 我在也不會被你們的奸詐行為, 讓我再度的發票.. 因為你們的愚蠢會讓我更堅強.. 現在這里說聲謝謝啦.. 哈哈哈哈哈哈!!

After days of moodiness.. Should say I could pick myself up.. Hahaz.. When I look back nw, I juz have a good laugh at it.. LoL!!

There Will Be Vulgarities in This Post!!

2011-04-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

Sat went JB to bring Li Ling out.. Who knows will kanna stab again.. This is not the first.. Fxxk.. I already said.. Things dun need me to find out, it will automatically find its way to let me know..

I really hate backstabbers.. I flared my anger at my mum who asked me not create trouble for Xiao Jiu.. Fxxk man.. He sided his wife.. What for I being so nice to help him safeguard his money.. I dun wan play nice either..

Another thing also keep me moody for today.. Which I dun wish to talk about it.. I dunno ever since few weeks back.. I felt I lose trust in certain things.. Certainly I will think carefully what to say or not to.. I really afraid of kanna backstab..

I got to thanks those people who tell me stuff but I felt u also believe in what the other person say.. When u got closer with the party who backstab me.. I would withdrawn myself from u.. I really prefer to talk less nowadays.. Keeping my thoughts to myself..

Actually today wanna go on MSN de.. But after certain thoughts.. I close msn window without signing in.. I went on FB but did nth much on there.. Shopping online but I bought nothing as I today really no interest in anything..

KC msg me.. I didn't reply.. He called.. I hung his phone.. I dun wanna talk to anyone.. I force myself to sleep.. But my brain doesn't stop thinking about the matters and scenarios keep playing in my brain..

I wanna seek Dad to talk but he couldn't be found anywhere.. I am so frustrated.. I felt so lost.. I dunno what to do.. Woke up when I heard the door bell rang.. Stone on bed.. KC came my hse.. He asked me why never on my room lights.. I said I wanna stay in the dark for awhile as this is what I am feeling deep down..

Talk to him a little.. He said sometimes I ought to ask why instead of keeping quiet.. I said I can't stop ppl from telling others stuff which I dun wish to share anymore.. I dun feel the closeness anymore.. Its also why I seldom msg ppl on MSN coz I dun feel the need to let ppl know what I am thinking as it will be snub at..

After tat I went to bath while mum and KC had their dinner without me.. I do not have anymore appetite.. I drank the soup as I asked my mum to cook.. Granny called and talked to mum.. After hanging up.. Mum told me what Granny says..

It drives me up and turned it into a rage.. I wanted to go JB and confront her.. KC stopped me.. He said I being too rash.. Keep my cool.. How to... She not only once stab me.. Fxxking idiot.. I got enough of this shit.. I kanna give her a peace of my mind.. Including hammering her upside down.. I dun care.. I not going to give respect to her anymore.. My Xiao Jiu is such a weakling.. Let me as a junior teach her some lesson.. Bloody idiot bitch..

Mum got scolded by me as she said let her be.. Why I poke my nose.. What the Fxxk.. She backstab me to granny.. Now I know.. I dun go confront and let her be.. Fxxk man.. Like that she keep think I am good to be bully..

I tell my mum ok fine.. Next time whatever happens dun tell me.. I not interested.. What reunion dinner.. U all can fxxking enjoy that dinner and I not interested.. I gonna cut tat bloody ties with them.. Dun ask me go visit granny anymore.. I won't step into that dirt house anymore.. I gonna see them suffer.. Fxxking idiots trying to be troublemaker.. I shall let them see what is really call troublemaker and I make sure they live like hell!!!

KC said I shouldn't be tat mean.. I said I being nice and never wanna calculate every single thing with her.. Now she like tat.. I one shot return her.. I always say I forget.. In actual fact I remember every single damn thing.. Including the incident with KC's mum which almost turn us into enemy..

I listened to KC and did not go JB as it may affect Granny.. She's old to take any blow.. I should not be creating problem for Granny.. That bloody bitch is lucky.. Because she is staying with Granny.. If not I would by all means go and hammer her like hell.. I will make sure either she dies or I die.. I rather the kids got no mother than having a mother who do nothing in upbring her kids but push blame to others for spoiling her kids..

I also told my mum no more stuff for her kids.. They suffer also none of our biz.. Their fate turns like tat, blame it on their mum.. Her kids will eventually blame their mother for not being love by us anymore.. Whenever they call.. We will just cut short.. Dun wanna talk to them..

I just curse her to death in front of my mum.. I dun care.. Mum say Granny said my mouth very wicked.. Then I said better than a wicked heart.. Wicked heart die faster.. I dun care my mum wanna be close to them a not.. But from now onwards.. I have nothing to do with my JB relatives.. It's not they abandon me.. But I abandon them.. I also make sure they will no income coming from my side..

I also going to withdraw my shares in my uncle shop.. I dun wan to help anymore.. His business flop also none of my business.. Anyway all this gonna happens, he ought to thank his wife for every contribution.. I am really pissed and angry.. If I got to see her.. I sure kill her and I sure beat Lai to a pulp for causing harm to Li Ling.. I really dislike bullies.......

Thoughts Cleared

2011-04-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

Talked to KC on phone yest.. Mainly was to apologize for flying plane on him.. Then he was concerned about what happen.. Told him everything.. He said that sometimes don't bother about what others think as what they say basically because they never think in your shoes but in their own instead..

I kind of agree la.. Who will be so free to think in your position.. What matter most is they enjoy a not.. Lol.. I just dump everything back in my head.. Went to meet Bee for Lunchie at Membina.. We kind of take very long time to think what to eat.. Lol.. In the I had mince meat noodle and Bee had mixed rice.. LoL!!!

We shared some pointers here and there.. Kinda random Bee asked me whether Someone died already a not.. I dun wan mention name la.. Kind of not good since its publicly published.. LoL!! Then I told her I saw him once at Bugis but was being pulled away by my friend.. Coz I was practically stoning on the spot when I saw him queuing just right in front of me.. Lol..

Bee was asking wat was I feeling back then.. My reply was numb.. Lol.. Bee managed to persuade me to walk back with her and took a bus down PS.. Coz Hailey bought a puzzle for me, but sad thing is I already had tat set.. So got to change to another.. Heez.. I chose Chip & Dale as no more Pooh.. Sad case man.. Chip & Dale puzzle also last box.. What the.. LoL!!

Shop around PS and bought some stuff.. Hahaz.. It's not cheap.. I enjoying shopping while my poor mum was waiting for me at City Square.. When I remember.. I hurried down to meet her.. LoL.. Shop around City Square and I renew my Popular card.. Got some stuff at Popular.. Hahaz.. After finishing shopping.. Went home to slack..

Log back in MSN and chatted with Bee on TW trip.. She was checking the air ticket price while I was looking at the hotel rooms.. I wanna try the one at Kun Ming St.. LoL!! The reason why is because directly opposite is Stage.. Bee will be over the moon as she can peeped through the windows to see if she can catch her LZX a not.. LoL!!

While chatting on MSN, I was doing the puzzle which I had exchange for.. Did it within my usual time for 200pcs.. LoL.. Glue it & frame it.. Gonna pass it to Daniel.. Hahaz.. I started doing some other stuff.. Heez.. This is secret.. Wakakakaz.. My phone rang.. I thought who is it sia..

Throughout the day my mood finally turn for the better..... The phone call almost make me angry.. But well since I reminded myself what other did, say or comment.. I will be hecking care.. Tat somehow turns my anger away.. Wee~

Meeting Daniel for dinner at AMK.. Had Mos.. Hehez.. Receive msg from Victor tat exam results are in our letterbox.. What I am expecting really make me feel angry.. Reported to KC about my results.. He kp at me.. Ya.. Sometimes because of distraction.. Just hope he could stop pushing blame to people.. Its my fault for allowing people to disturb me during my exams and could not focus..

While he was raring at me, I continued doing my stuff.. I finally finished doing it.. Heez.. I am satisfied with my work man.. Hahaz.. Although I made a mess of my table, hands and threw lots of materials away.. But in all, its worth it.. Heez..

Tomorrow going agency to fill form.. Fri going interview.. I hope I could get the job.. Then my TW trip is secure.. I do not want to go overseas with my aunts.. After the whole country club thingy.. I swear I never want to be in the same room as them.. I practically cannot sleep.. Geez... A little noise could wake me up.. I totally woke up dunno how many times during the night.. Lucky now I am back home and could hug my bed to sleep.. This is the best then anywhere else.. Wahahaz... Alright.. I gonna head to bed after finishing my task.. Heez.. Satisfactory.. Heez.... I super long never feel so satisfied with my work or should say doing things for a guy after that someone.. LoL!! This only Bee knows.. Hahaz...

Doubts Surfacing on Human Faces

2011-04-05T22:45:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. Today I started to keep all my thoughts to myself.. Mummy was worried coz her first reaction was why she is seeing the past me surfacing again..

Keeping quiet, dun wanna talk much, give one word reply & being so much heck care.. Like treating the surroundings like air.. Well.. She keep asking me what happen that I decided to change.. I told her nothing and said this is good coz no longer people will see my temper, no longer I will care about what others did.. All I will do just laugh things off and won't even mind who offended who.. As I will tell myself that anything is none of my business and my business is none of others..

They poke their nose in.. They get nothing as I won't say.. Neither will I care about what is going on.. Even if I am unhappy with their actions.. I will also pretend never see and just do what I enjoy doing..

I no longer cares what the heck people is thinking.. Neither will I show my anger.. I will not even express anymore stuff.. I got no one to blame but blame myself for being too emotional towards everything.. I shall let my brain rule every single thing.. No longer wanna feel for it.. As I learnt enough and got enough.. I still prefer to feel and think with my brain instead..

No longer let my emotional rule my brain but the other way round instead.. If u ever wonder the reason why.. The reason is simple because it started with myself.. None others.. Actually I think like tat also good.. Everything just laugh it off and forget it.. I will rant lesser also.. Hahaz.. I just love my heck care attitude.. I should not have change back then.. It's such a regret man.. LoL!!

Slowly go figure out what's on my mind ba.. Lol.. When u really know.. In fact it's just a empty shell.. LoL!! In order to protect myself from being hurt.. This is the actions I am doing.. I am feeling happier now than before.. Hahaz.. I also starting to talk lesser le.. Hahaz.. Changing for better or worse.. No longer bothers me as I just wanna feel comfortable doing it.. Heez.. If u still have doubt what causes me to change.. Then let this doubt be in u coz u will never find the ans.. Give up ba.. Hahaz.... Nothing happens but I just feel like changing.. Hehez... This ans shall appease everyone.. If it doesn't, then let it be as it won't affect me anyway.. Wahahahahaz....

I Miss Celebrating Birthday with Daddy

2011-04-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

Well.. Had an early birthday celebration with Jacq, Alex, Winnie, Yan Fen & Daniel on last Monday.. I wanna Thanks Aunt Martha for organizing and celebrating my birthday by bringing me to Orchid Country Club.. She wanted to give me a happy and unforgetable one.. Therefore, it should be fun but some people just like to spoil mood.. I dun wanna say who.. Maybe I also spoil the mood.. Anyway, to be honest.. I making this year as my last to celebrate my birthday.. No more birthday celebration in future.. Really feeling damn tired after the whole damn bloody celebration..

I am no longer interested in celebrating.. After some careful thought about it over the days.. I think celebrating birthday is as bored as going chalet.. Maybe like what I am told.. Got the right friends to celebrate with then it will be fun.. But who are the right friends.. Hahaz.... It will be kept in thoughts..

I really wanna say I am too lucky.. Sometimes things I never knew will come to light without me having to waste any efforts to know.. The feeling although is lousy.. But also a lesson telling me how idiot I am.. I used to observe a lot.. But because I do not want to be cold to others.. I tried to talk more.. It seems this isn't doing good to me..

Well.. Before talking about tat.. Today went to USS to spend my day with Daniel.. Had lots of fun and tried the rides I didn't play the previous.. Well at least I feel happy playing and having fun..

Hmm.. Back to the topic.. I think I should stop being friendly to people.. Maybe when I dun bother.. Then I would not reveal my care.. When I dun reveal my care.. Then I would not feel pissed with what people do & make myself look like an idiot..

I should have stick to my heck care attitude all the way.. Changing to be close to humans getting me really tired.. When I heck care I got so much negative comments.. Now when I feel pissed with certain stuff because I care, also kanna negative comments.. I really prefer to be in my own world sia.. No one will know my thoughts.. No one will know when I am pissed and No one will ever know what I feeling..

I dun feel angry thinking about all this.. I just feel tat maybe keeping things to myself is better.. What for let people know.. Do they bother about how u feel? No.. They bother about what u feel about them and not how u feel when they said things to u..

Yeah there isn't fairness in this damn bloody world.. Then why am I trying to be fair.. Simple because I am an idiot who believe tat when u treat the person nice, in return they will do the same.. But in actual fact, what they return was a pile of shit.. I think I rant enough already...

Really I do not wish to celebrate my birthday anymore as I am reluctant to invite friends.. It's time to remember what I learnt this year.. I not going to forget.. I may forgive but not forget as this left a scar in my mind and soul.. Thanks!!

羅志祥 ~ 怕安靜

2011-03-02T23:40:00.003+08:00

This Song is Nice~

我又帮自己订了场电影
结果坐在广场找你背影
人来了又去我好怀念迟到有人会发脾气

手机有收讯简讯不是你
打开了更让人失望到底
你走就走吧干麻留下每天没看完的韩剧
我想我真的怕安静少了你吵我不开心
回家第一个开机掩盖所有的安静
说不定我能够撑过去
我想我真的怕安静连洗澡都要戴耳机
打电动声东击西一停我又怕想起
念我和爱我的人我没珍惜
你爱的歌手又出了专辑
一样好听可是特别痛心
歌词每一句根本办不到还硬劝我要放弃
把闹钟设不停或许我会清醒
我想等下去可惜爱不能靠毅力
要是我挽回你你一定更伤心
爱一个人不一定要永远在一起
真的怕安静不想去也硬要出去
逛闹区到KTV 点你必点的歌曲
怎麽合唱的人不是你
原来我这麽怕安静是怕再也听不到你
在厨房大声唱歌在沙发硬跟我挤
让我终於晓得我有多爱你
你已不在这里

WoW IT's LonG I updated My BloGGie

2011-02-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

Yeah.. Nothing to blog or should say I am plainly lazy to blog.. But I did update my private blog a little.. Started writing diary again so less blogging.. LoL!!

Hmm.. This year started not tat smooth too many things happen.. Lately, I had a fall.. On the verge of recovery.. Think by this weekend shall be back to normal days.. But Doc did advise it may take some time to recover but I can do my running.. Wee.. Tat's the most best thing to hear from the Doc..

I also intend to head back every Sunday to help Xiao Jiu with his work in the shop as Li Ling now every mon to sun having tuition.. Poor kid.. But no choice as she got to prepare for Secondary school entry.. M'sia primary school leaving results have to be around 240 minimum then can enter good sch and its chinese sch.. For normal entry to a malay sch, jus pass the exams will do..

So its better to study in chinese in M'sia as getting a job would be easier than a malay graduate.. LOL!! So much of a difference... Well.. I wanna go jogging.. I wanna play badminton.. I wanna go Universal.. There's so much thing I wanna do.. But I hope I could get a bloody job soon.. Apr maybe going Taiwan with my aunts.. If Apr Taiwan trip is confirm.. Means I will be travelling to Taiwan twice this year.. Woohoo.. I love there to the MAX!! LoL..

Alright.. Intended for a short update.. Well.. Kinda tired.. So update till here as today got class and its really dreading and moody to have classes on FRIDAY!!! LoL!! Now I understand why classes on Friday will be complaint as Weekends only left 2 days.. LOL!!

Merry Xmas

2010-12-25T01:45:00.000+08:00

Well.. So fast.. End of Year is coming..... This Xmas no mood de.. LoL.. Exams so near.. LoL.. But this year no longer just friends celebrating only.. Heez.. Got someone special along.. Wakaka...

Went Esplanade to eat pizza, play games then head down The Cathay to watch The Fockers.. After movie, went nearby park to eat log cake and count down.... LoL... Nothing much.. Everybody heading home early.. No festive mood...

On Xmas day itself I heading back JB.. Had dinner with Family and head back SG again.. LoL.. This year really simple pass one day.. Too many nonsense to remember.. Hope 2011 will be a better year.. :)

Lastly, Wish Everyone of u.. Merry X'mas =D

What's App

2010-12-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

Today Ping Yen sent me 2 pics on What's app.. It's the first letter I wrote after knowing him for 3 years.. LoL..

I got to know him when I was in Sec 3.. That time I got my first com from my dad as the gift for being top in class.. LoL.. Surprisingly it was also his first time having com.. We got to know each other through IRC.. LoL... Super funny de.. Haha... Alright.. I shall share the pics.. Hehez.. Memories.. It means we have known each other for 10 years.. But we seldom contact and we still have lots to crap.. Long lasting friendship!! =D

I am so surprised that he kept the letters.. Haha.. Let's forget about the gift I gave him.. Hehe..... =p

Later in the night I met him for beancurd.. He had long day and was a bad one too.. Well.. Had a nice chat with him.. Hehe.. Gonna plan next cycling trip.. Li Ling and Li Xing will be in SG next wed.. Sat bringing them to Zoo.. I asked BaoZhuJie along.. Hehez.. Gonna take lots of pics next week.. Yeah!! I am so looking forward.. Haha...

My Necklace Arrived!!

2010-12-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

Yeah today receive my necklace.. My mum was wondering what did I purchase online this time round.. Haha..

I bought the necklace which 羅志祥 is wearing most of the time.. Google it for so long.. Finally found.. Hehe.. I like the necklace not because he is wearing it.. I find it nice la.. But if ex I would not have bought it.. Hehez..

Well I let my 小可爱 wear it and he is my little model of the day.. Bought iphone ex batt and earphone from Ping Yen as well.. Went cycling today with him too.. Hehez..

Meet him at Toa Payoh.. So from my house I cycled to Toa Payoh.. As I am approaching the bridge to Toa Payoh.. Rain pours and I am lucky I wasn't caught in it as I reached the bridge before it becomes heavy..

Then I pushed my bicycle slowly since it's raining.. As the rain stopped.. I cycled to blk 25 which is where Aunt Martha stay.. Then as when I was there trying to figure out where's blk 22 coz Pinh Yen couldn't find blk 25.. The rain got heavy and it's a sudden downpour.. LoL..

Waited awhile for the rain to smaller.. Then I cycled over to blk 22 which is juz opposite.. I remembered the hawker where I had carrot cake with dad during Ah Ma's wake.. Hmm.. Its 9 years ago I went there..

Lucky thing is I wear cap and my hair wasn't wet.. I was totally drench either.. I cycle across the traffic light and I am still dry.. Weird.. The rain avoided me but my hands are wet.. Heck la.. LoL...

Had a drink and the rain finally gotten lighter... We cycled to Toa Payoh Lor 4 to have dinner.. It's like years I am there.. Last being there was giving tuition to a kid who is mum's friend son.. But memories of dad drinking with his friends at the coffeeshop also deeply in mind.. The bakery shop is still around.. LoL...

After that we cycled to Bishan and try the park connector at the back of ITE Bishan.. Yeah back to where I studied during my ITE sch time.. Dad only been to my pri & sec sch.. ITE onwards he never visit my sch.. My mum visited my ITE and MDIS with me.. Dad didn't get a chance to visit Bro's poly.. Although I know he wanted to..

Well.. The park connector connect to AMK if u turn left and turn right.. It connect to Toa Payoh then Potong Pasir before reaching Kallang.. LoL.. Now I know how the connector works.. Haha.. Well.. We cycled to Potong Pasir.. Then had a drink at 7-Eleven before proceeding to Mac to take a rest.. Chatted till around 11 plus, we headed back home and the sky started to drizzle again..

This marks the end of my cycling trip for the week.. Hehe.. Bro also booked out today and tomorrow will be spending time with my mum and bro.. Including sunday.. Most likely not much updates on sat and sun.. Hehe..

Lastly, I found my first camera from my dad.. Haha.. Non-battery operated.. The flim is small.. But I dunno whether is it still available in the market.. Told Ping Yen about it too.. LoL.. He said he will try to help me find.. Hehe... =D

Small Glove for Cute Li Shan

2010-11-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today went back JB and spent a night there.. Well.. I bought a small pair of gloves for Li Shan.. LoL.. She so happy wearing it.. I also brought in the children's bicycle which is meant for Li Ling.. Yup.. That's her real prize for getting 1st..

Not much event for today.. Gonna plan for their visit to SG in 2 weeks time.. LoL.. They probably will be coming SG on 07 Dec.. LoL.. Here's the pic of Li Shan with the glove.. Hehe.. So Kawaii~

My classmate said that she look like me.. But I dun think so.. Our looks not same leh.. Her eyes seems bigger than mine.. Hmm.....

Cycling Trip with Ping Yen

2010-11-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

Today wanna meet Ping Yen as I buying children's bicycle from him.. Then borrowed his bicycle, we went to cycle.. From Hougang, we went to Punggol Floating Platform Park.. Then I saw this uncle.. He super pro.. Look at the kites.. LoL!!

Then from Punggol, we went Jalan Kayu to eat prata.. The standard like drop le.. Sad case.. My mum told me that when I was still a kid, my dad brought me there.. But I couldn't remember..

A fruitful day of cycling.. From Jalan Kayu, we went to Toa Payoh and had Koi.. Haha.. Yes!! I like Koi and have craving for it.. LoL... Anyway this week had been cycling.. Haha... December coming soon.. Hope my property job can be smooth.. But in the meantime I will still look for other job.. I think I wanna earn more so that next year Taiwan trip I can spend more or should say enjoy more.. LoL.. I like my life and I like my surroundings more.. Although conflicts with my family members is evitable.. But after every conflict.. We are still in harmony..

Like my dad once said, nothing can make a family collapse.. But the bondings of the family must be strong to withold all waves of troubles.. Haha.. My dad is a man of philosphy.. LoL...

Happy Birthday to my Bro Radiance!!

2010-11-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

Today is my bro's 22nd birthday.. Well.. Will be celebrating for him with my aunt tomorrow as today he got guard duty..

By right he could tell his officer that it's his birthday and they can get someone to replace him.. But my bro dun wanna as he said.. He rather do whatever duty he is assigned to.. But if 24hrs one he sure reject.. LoL..

Hmm.. Last year we aren't unable to celebrate his 21st birthday due to dad left us.. So this year we somehow make it back for last year..

Although without dad, we felt things are amiss coz we dunno how to make things seem lively or should say we depend too much on my dad.. He cracks jokes, disturb us and make funny things to get our attention..

Well.. A short day for today.. Wish my little bro.. Happy Birthday.. Although to dad's friends..... They always say he is my elder bro.. =.=

Hair Cut & Happy Birthday Aunt Martha

2010-11-25T23:30:00.001+08:00

Actually wanna cut my sides short & keep my behind long.. While my fringe I wanna cut 羅志祥's style.. But my hairstylist say cannot as my fringe not thick enough..

And he tell me my sides cannot cut too short.. So he suggested that I shaved off the inner sides while keep external long.. Let him decide how to cut.. Well.. Overall I am satisfied with my hair.. Hehe.. Upload pics for viewing.. :)

This Before Hair Cut

This is After Hair Cut.. Like No Difference..

My Sides Are Shaved!! See the difference.. :)

With my Cap on...

Happy With the New Hairstyle.. Best for wearing Cap!! I can wear my Stage Cap Often.. Wee~

Lastly.. I wanna wish.. Aunt Martha.. Happy Birthday!! =D

Happy Birthday Bryan & Zhong Xing

2010-11-18T23:45:00.000+08:00

Well.. Today my Kor's birthday and also my bestie birthday too.. LoL.. Tomorrow meeting my bestie for movie & dinner at Sushi Tei with Li Ling, Serene & John..

Well.. Nothing much for today as post this is to wish my Kor & Bestie.. Happy Birthday!! Hehe.. Tomorrow I gonna get a cake and a prezzie for my Bestie.. Hehe.. Thinking what to get.. LoL!! Although I am treating him to the movie of Harry Potter 7!!

Also treating Li Ling for effort of attaining 1st in class.. But overall score still haven't out beat me.. Wee~ 我還是任然的第一名.. Haha...

祝所有今天生日的人, 生日快樂!!

AES 的衣服終於及到我家!!

2010-11-12T23:00:00.002+08:00

Oh Yeah!! Today got my AES 3/4 sleeve tee.. Wee~ **Hearts**

Finally it have arrived.. Mummy said that its very nice.. Of course la.. If not nice I won't like.. Haha.. But got to thanks my brothers.. If not for them.. I don't think I wanna buy it as its freaking Ex!! One piece like cost about S$90.. Cost of Tee is S$63 + Shipment + Paypal Charges.. I rather dun wan.. But since they bought it.. I can't reject..

謝謝哥哥們的禮物.. 我真的很喜歡.. 下星期五我一定穿出門.. Hee..... Post the pics of the clothes.. Hehe.. ~Enjoy~

I really like it.. Hehe... Its really nice..

Update 06.11.10 ~ 08.11.10

2010-11-08T23:00:00.002+08:00

Went back to JB on Saturday (06.11.10)!! Hehe.. Took a photo of myself before heading back.. Hehe.. Wore my new Stage Cap.. Hee...

Bring Po Po went to eat Pizza Hut for dinner.. Bro & I shared to treat her.. Po Po is happy as she long time never go out eat le.. LoL..

After dinner went to do some grocery shopping.. M'sia now having sales.. Hehez.. I hasn't been eating A&W also.. LoL.. But not much craving for that anyway.. Haha..

Po Po cooked chicken for us to bring back SG as she knew we love her cooking and every time we go back, we sure wanna eat home cook food..

Well.. Its kinda late.. Brought Li Ling out to buy bag for her at Tesco.. Hmm.. I find this quite nice so buy for her.. Hehe..

She dun like Yellow but I told it looks nice on her.. LoL.. Buy liao faster wanna carry.. Haha.. Still tell me she dun like.. Haha..

After that Xiao Jiu sent us to take bus.. Every time we take cooked food back SG, never kanna any prob.. Then when I put my bag into the scanner.. This is the Dialogue of the officers and I..

The Indian Lady Officer (Ask me to open the box.. I open and she was polite to tell me) : Ok can go..

The Chinese Old Lady Officer (she seems to be in her 40s) but since she is so grumpy... I felt that she's old lady) Stand up from her seat and shouted at me : NO!! MUST GO OFFICE!! CHICKENS OR COOKED FOOD IS NOT ALLOWED!!!

I got frustrated... I mean if cannot, why can't she tell me politely but shout at me instead.. My mum got panicked.. I shoved my mum aside and tell my bro to ask mum dun panicked as I will handle it..

Me : (shouted back her) MY GRANDMA COOKED FOR ME EAT!! CANNOT THEN GIVE U LA!!!

The Malay Lady Officer came by and said : Aiya, so small portion.. For personal consumption can bring la.. Let them go la..

The Chinese Old Lady Officer : NO!! CAN'T THEY READ THE BOARD THAT NO CHICKENS ARE ALLOWED

I flared my anger at her and said : CANNOT THEN TAKE LA!! I DUN WAN IT LIAO!! AND I WON'T GO TO THE OFFICE WITH U!! WASTE MY TIME AND THE BUS IS WAITING!! AT MOST I TELL MY GRANDMA THE OFFICER LIKE YOUR CHICKEN SO I GIVE HER!! ( I almost throw the chicken onto her face)

The Chinese Old Lady Officer : (After much pleading from her Indian colleague) OK I LET U GO THIS TIME NO NEXT TIME!!

Without a word of thank you, I walked off... I super pissed with her attitude.. If cannot just tell me nicely, I will willingly go office with her... Idiotzz.. After being back from Taiwan so long.. I still think Taiwan people's attitude are much better than SG de.. With this kind of Aunty working, I think a lot of tourist come here will feel S'poreans are unfriendly man.. Even I am a Singaporean I dun feel the people here are friendly or helpful at all.. Nasty idiots are around only..

Well that's for my Sat!! Rotten day of the week..

On Sunday (07.11.10).. Woke at 5am kanna gastric attack.. Drank my gastric medicine and went back to sleep.. Woke up around 11 plus.. Wanna have some food before heading out.. LoL.. But nothing for a bite.. Went to prepare and took my bicycle out for a ride.. Hehez.. Took a pic before heading out.. :)

Meet Ping Yen at Telok Kurau Lor L.. Then we ride to ECP together and headed towards Changi.. My knee cap felt trembling.. Think my knee really couldn't do much exercise.. Little did I forget that I had not eat.. That's why I did not have much energy.. LoL..

Well cycle a little and took a rest and carried on till the end.. The long stretch of road doesn't seems so long at all.. Managed to Reach Changi V at 4.30pm.. Hehez.. Ate my super late lunch and when I am about to finish.. The rain started to pour.. Oh man!! I wanna cycle back home and now I couldn't do so.. Well no choice.. I got to take cab but no cab uncle wanna fetch me.. So I decided to call cab as no matter what he also must fetch me le ma since I call cab wor.. LoL..

Ping Yen helped me load my bicycle in the boot.. Hehe.. The rain got heavy.. But I managed to reach home by 7.30pm and have dinner with my bro & mum before my bro book in.. Hehez.. Well.. After that accompany my bro to the bus stop and I went NTUC to get my Campbell Soup.. Hehez... Reached home not long.. I felt aching all over my body and took my temp.. Having slight fever.. Popped 2 panadols and head off to bed.. That's all for my Sunday..

Well for Today (08.11.10), I wasn't well yet.. So didn't go sch for project discussion.. Haiz.. Fever didn't go down.. So ate another few dose and rest in between.. Finally fever went down.. I am lazy to go sch.. Received msg from Jacq that she was hospitalized.. Arranged with Winnie and went down with her.. Met Winnie and her bf.. Walked over to the hospital.. She seems to get better.. Hopefully she could be discharged by tomorrow.. Well well.. After visiting her.. I am kinda weak again.. Took cab home and have dinner with mum.. Now did my update.. Tomorrow going back JB.. Dunno I got the energy ma.. Sad...

Well upload some pics of the finished puzzle for Bro.. I used 2 days to finish.. **A Pat on my Shoulder** :)

Happy Birthday to 小舅 & 丽兴

2010-11-03T23:59:00.001+08:00

First I am so satisfied with how fast I did the puzzle for my bro.. Hehe.. Well.. 50% done.. Left 50% more.. Hope can finished up by today as yest did what I could already.. Wee~

Arranged for the pick up of my cap at SingPost at Paya Lebar.. Hehe.. I finally got my STAGE 3D LOGO CAP!!! I am freaking happy..... Msg Dee to tell him I had received it.. Hehez.. Then I got to know its NT1800 & the postage is NT300.. Therefore.. The total price Dee got the cap for me was S$95.. Wah.. Its like so so so so so so EX la... But I am super happy..

Went to school late as went to collect my cap.. I can't wait to get it.. Dun wanna wait till Sat for delivery to my premise again.. Yes yes I am eager... Haha.. Alrightz.. Now left with AES 3/4 sleeve tee to arrive, the necklace which Show wear de.. Haha.. Then I can take a photo of everything I own la.. Hehe..

After collecting it, went to school and reached at 8.10pm.. Guessed what.. The lecturer didn't do anything.. Juz as when I arrive.. He then start to teach.. So way before that all I know was he was talking to students and didn't start lesson.. Kns...

Then he gave us worksheet and taught a little.. We felt he is juz being complicated.. LoL... After lesson, waited for Xav and Sugar.. Saw Bee & Tyan while waiting.. Wanted to show Bee the Stage Cap.. But shuttle bus was there and she went on board.. Never mind... We will be meeting next Thurs for dinner and gonna make some surprises.. Hehe.. BaoZhuJie joining us too.. Haha..

Went supper with them at Upper Thomson The Prata House.. Then Xav send all of us home.. Thanks for inviting to supper & a ride home.. Hehe.. Had a nice catch up with them.. LoL.. Eat till super full de la.. Especially when the ice-cream prata came.. Its larger than what the pic shows and my plaster is smaller than wat the pic shows.. LoL!!

I am also recking my mind what to plan for Xmas as didn't book chalet.. Should book a BBQ pit instead ma.. Thinking Thinking.. I also thinking playing role acting game as everyone in the group watch HaiPaiTianXin.. Hmm.. Wanna see who got act the Dalang role.. Hoho.. I got the DaLang Specs to lend wor.. LoL..

Okok.. Enough of so many stuff.. I have a lot of plannings to do.. But well.. This is why I feel time is running freaking short.. Boo........ Photo time.. Enjoy :)

Lastly..... Wish my 小舅 & 丽兴 Happy Birthday!! Btw I called 小舅 this morning to wish him and he was shocked as he thought yest celebrate le then I won't call him.. Haha... He is so Cute.. LoL!!

今天幫小舅和丽兴過生日

2010-11-02T23:45:00.001+08:00

原本是有上課的.. 但是選擇不去.. 買了包包給丽凌終於送來了.. 我的Stage3D Logo帽卻沒送到.. 打去給SingPost.. 那個人告訴我會在傍晚6點鐘之前送到.. 我等到下午3點鐘.. 卻還沒到.. 不等了..

跟我媽說我們搭德士去JB.. 因為很晚了.. 抵達JB已經下午４點鐘了.. 原本要上MSN找Bee聊天的.. 因為太忙.. 而很難上網.. 看時間Bee已經下班了.. 明天再跟她聊吧..

有了一點時間.. 去了City Square @ JB 去買禮物送給丽兴.. Hee~ Hmm.. 買了一個熊熊送她.. 我帶丽凌和丽珊一起去.. 買了一些東西給她們.. 然後就返回店.. 不久後, Aunty Nik 和我媽要往學校去接小兴和萊萊.. 萊萊越變越壞.. 忍不住就罵他.. 越來越對父母沒大沒小.. 真的很看不過去.. 罵完他之後.. 便和丽凌說話, 但是要叫小舅時, 我卻叫他成Daddy!! 我頓了一下, 因為我好久沒把這個名詞掛在嘴邊.. 除了我過世的老爸.. 我再也沒叫過任何人Daddy了..

大家都笑了起來因為我太自然了.. Haha... 其實那句稱呼當我說出口時, 我停頓是因為我回憶我就是那樣叫我老爸的.. Haiz~ 我好幾次一想起Daddy時, 我的眼淚就想流下來.. 但是我還是把它給停下了.. 不想讓我媽看到我流淚不然她又要問長問短.. Haha...

晚飯去了Jusco吃Pizza.. 小舅請客.. 滿便宜的..吃完後.. 去拿我訂的相框.. 因為我要把我做給誠誠的坪土給框起來.. Hehe.. SG賣太貴了.. JB才RM30, SG要S$60.. 差好多喔.. 拿了框框就去搭巴士回SG了.. 誠誠msg來說他要睡了.. 所以叫我媽不要打給他..

到家已經是晚上11點鐘了.. 打給小舅跟她說我們到家了.. 希望明天我的帽能收到.. 很期待啦~ 好了上轉我今天的自戀照.. 要出門前拍的.. Hehe.. 明天要上課.. 應該會很晚上來寫部落.. 因為明天是小舅和小星星的生日.. 他們就像我和我Daddy一樣.. 同一天生日.. 我們也太相識了.. Daddy和我的生日是4月3日.. 小舅和小星星的生日是11月3日.. 我們不同的只是月份如果4人都是同一個月分的話應該會很奇妙.. Hehe.. 晚安嘍個位.. Hehe~ =D

Surprises Upon Surprises!!

2010-10-27T23:30:00.000+08:00

Today woke up kinda late as came back late from JB yest.. Visit Po Po & went Pasar Malam walk walk.. Brought Shan Shan with me.. Carried her throughout and my right hand now aching.. She put on weight le.. Dunno how much longer I can carry her in my hands.. LoL..

Then saw Dee's msg.. He asked want Stage 3D cap ma.. Then I was like shocked.. I said where selling.. He said dun ask.. Juz tell him or dun wan.. I tell him if got then sure wan la since I am looking for it long ago le.. But didn't sell that cap.. Only in Taiwan..

I asked him give me details and I contact the person.. He replied saying that he paid for it.. What the.. I was super shock.. Well.. The cap not cheap.. Total cost him NT2150.. I got to find out the price after long asking and throwing tantrum.. Idiot..

Left house to Toa Payoh to get Koi.. Haha.. I am not addicted to it.. Throat recently not well.. I am lazy to make Honey Green Tea so went to buy it.. Bugis Koi is freaking long queue.. I won't go there unless I meeting my friend(s) at Bugis.. Haha...

Yest didn't go for lesson.. Borrowed notes from Victor, my classmate to copy.. He was shock at speed I copy.. Haha.. I am fast.. LoL.. Anyway while copying I roughly know what is it all about.. Exchange number with Victor.. Next time didn't go class can ask him help me sign.. Hee... Went toilet and took a long break.. Was looking at Motors.. Dee ended his class.. Say bye to him.. LoL.. Coz I am with my classmates while he is with his..

When I am in class, he said he got things wanna ask me.. Today he super mysterious sia.. Dunno what's on his mind.. Class ended.. Didn't wait for the guys and I went off first.. Thought of calling Dee to ask what is he up to de.. But John called me.. Meet him at his house downstairs to get back my Dvd.. Then he sent me home as he going to Kallang so quite on the way de..

Reached home not long.. Received Dee's msg.. He said he ordered something for me and he put my address.. I was like what did he order.. He said something from HK and it's a replacement for my lost long sleeve white tee.. I really dunno what to say.. I felt weird de.. I asked him how much.. He dun wan tell me as he scared I scold him.. Idiot de.. Make me feel pai sei lo.. I mean its like not good ma.. Suddenly buy things for me.. I think Cousin KC know about it, sure scold me de lo.. He sure think I ask Dee to buy de.. Die liao la..

I really 被 Dee 害慘了.. Although happy that he did all this.. Then he said never mind.. If kanna question he will answer to my cousin.. Then shortly, I received KC's call.. Reluctant to pick up.. But I answered.. Kor Kor didn't say me.. He said Dee called and tell him about the cap & clothes.. I dare not say much.. Then he say he scolded Dee as he shouldn't do so.. But Dee told him, he buy for 妹妹 nothing wrong.. So in the end.. They share the cost of the stuff.. I think I am super happy la..

Shall forward to a few things sending to my house sia.. The items will be 羅志祥 necklace, Stage 3D cap & lastly the 3/4 Sleeve Tee although its not long.. But 3/4 is ok for me as long as its white.. Hehe..

Wah....... So many items to be receive in the month of Nov.. Wee~ New items to be wear on Xmas & New Year!! Really thanks to my 2 Kor Kor to make my day.. Hee.. Although tired but this puts a smile on my face for today.. Hee~

羅志祥沒得獎, 楊丞琳得獎

2010-10-24T23:30:00.001+08:00

真的有點遺憾.. 海派甜心got into 5個獎項.. 導演沒拿也算了.. 戲劇沒拿也罷了.. 配角獎也沒得有點可惜..

最佳女主角海派得了.. 恭喜楊丞琳.. 呵呵.. 寶珠姐的角色得獎.. 好開心.. Hehe... 但是為甚麼最佳男主角不是羅志祥.. 很不甘心leh..

他把薛海和達浪的角色都做得那麼好.. 獎卻被一個連台灣他們都不認識.. 我上了TTV網站去閱讀.. 有些不是羅志祥的Fans都為他打抱不平耶..

像我對Bee說的.. 真的很可惜.. 他的努力卻被蓋過去了.. 希望明年羅志祥能得獎.. 我上了微薄.. 看了一下.. 但他的回應很短.. 他真的很失望.. 連續兩天也沒在微博..

好了.. 金鐘獎的訊息就講到這.. (22.10.10)

Well.. For my weekends.. Hiding at home on Sat.. Watch show & slack.. Haha... Sun went out with my bro & mum.. Went to Expo buy cordless phone as the ones in the rooms are dead in function.. Wootz.. Still got time as bro got to book in at 2130.. So went to have dinner at the foodcourt.. Geez.. The chickens are selling fast sia.. Faintz..

Lucky still got 白雞 1 plate nia while mum & bro eat 燒雞.. After dinner.. Thinking of going to find Bee de.. But as we walking back to Hall 6.. I saw her.. She off work le.. She chatted a little.. Ya our conversation is on Luo Zhi Xiang.. Kind of sad la.. Expecting him to get the award de lo.. Even Rainie also kind of upset after the award was announce..

Hmm.. After that I wanna eat Mua Chee.. So went to buy.. Then walk around see got what things to buy before accompany bro to his camp there.. Wah... I didn't know bro's camp so near interchange and got direct bus back home..

Brought mum to see where's bro camp is.. Then at the interchange we waited for bus.. Bro accompanied us.. Not long bus came le.. Gonna wait till Sat then can see my 乖弟弟.. Calculate the time taken for journey to be home.. Not long wor.. 40mins.. Hehe.. Quite fast de.. Hehe..

Well.. Home liao.. Then went to fix up the phones.. Hehe.. So that mummy can use it dun need walk all the way to living room to ans phone.. I feel so much like my dad recently.. Everything at home mostly last time all my dad do de.. Now its either me or my phone fix it.. My mum as usual will just ask for help as she dunno how to do all those things my dad used to do..

Alright upload a little of my 自戀 photos.. Haha...

巧遇

2010-10-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today no lesson.. Still waiting for Mindef reply.. LoL!! Hmm.. Thinking of going out shop.. Since no lesson so asked my mum where she wanna go.. Spare my time to accompany her..

Although I feel like going K but my mum dun like.. If its my dad.. Think I will be enjoying my K session with him..

My mum told me she wanna go Ikea walk walk.. I thought of going Queenstown there de.. But she wanna go Tampines.. She called Aunty Pat along.. I am ok de la..

Then we went to take bus to Tampines. I hardly travel to Tampines. Since my mum request, so just bring her there. I hardly go because, the last I went was with my dad.. It was last year May.. Where we had our lunch at Giant and did some marketing there.. The scene is still fresh in my mind..

Walked to queue for the shuttle bus to Giant/Ikea/Courts.. Went on board the bus.. Hmm.. I think its really coincidence ba.. Its like a very minimal chance that I go Tampines & he is no longer working there.. He had been transferred to Vivo..

Well.. I was shocked.. But somehow things aren't gonna be the same.. Well.. But we are going different places.. He going Giant & I going Ikea.. LoL..

When reached.. He alighted first and I gonna round to Ikea.. At Ikea, went to have my meatballs while mum & Aunty Pat had chicken chop rice.. The chicken is tasteless.. I love my meatballs.. LoL.. I dun really like to eat meat but somehow Ikea's meatballs are the only kind of meat I would really eat.. LoL... Went to do shopping at Ikea.. I looking at glass displaying shelf... Thinking of getting new desk.. But after much consideration.. I give it a pass as I am afraid, my cousins come my house during CNY would break my table.. They are mischievous kids... Especially the youngest.. She is super hyper.. **Faintz**

Hmm.. Not to forget that I intended to go exercise today but because of the freaking haze that enter SG, I got to cancel this.. Hope I could really exercise and keep my body in good condition.. I dun wanna get sick.. For this haze, I have been out since like 4, it did me great harm.. My throat felt the dryness.. I keep drinking lots of water.. Super cannot tarhan........ Argh.........

Stupid haze.. Hope it will be gone soon.. Haiz.. Why the farmers need to burn their fields just to get the ashes to fertilize its fields.. Darn..... It just making people irritated easily... I may wanna revamp my room again.. Dumping some furniture that were damage by others previously.. I see my table I a bit sian.. I have not been using it for quite long.. I bought a small table and sit on the floor to use my lappy instead.. I dun like to use things that are spoilt.. I dunno why.. LoL.. Alright.. A short update for today.. I gonna hide at home for the rest of this week in order to avoid the stupid haze.. Haha..

It's Been Long That I Blogged About My Life

2010-10-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

Wah.. I am in a lazy mood to blog man.. Haha.. New term lessons kinda dry.. Most of the time thinking whether can the lesson ends faster.. Hahaz...

Oh ya.. I am back to exercising.. Yeah!! Getting sick easily.. Buck myself up to do exercise.. Really need to be discipline.. Always wait till health deteriorate then I start to take actions (coated from Dee).. LoL...

Today my mum surprised me by buying me Koi from Bugis.. Before going to School, I went to purchase Bubble Tea from a new outlet called Come Buy. That's what I bought a few times when I was in TW.. Its nice at there.. Back here is the same and I could say.. The price difference from TW is not much.. Paying S$3 for a Large cup makes it much more worthwhile than buying at Koi.. Well.. Same Honey Green Tea & I chose Come Buy instead of KOI reason is price..

Same in TW, I chose Come Buy instead of 50岗 also due to price.. But I do support it when there's no Come Buy.. Wahaha.. Alright.. I also bought new earrings and its obvious that its same as what 罗志祥 is wearing.. I dunno why.. Nowadays I am into more "Bling Bling" stuff.. LoL!!

Well.. I trying to make myself happy.. Trying out different kinds of thing.. Doing crazy stuff and abandon whatever nonsense that occurs in my life.. Haha.. Ya I trying to forget every little pain I am being hit on with.. I also start to not trusting people with their words especially when what is being said is not done.. LoL!! I think everyone needs a basic trust of people.. Telling a white is something and saying something which couldn't be fulfill than dun say as I realized no one will like an empty promise.. Words can be said easily.. But everyone sees actions more than listening..

So nowadays I basically judge a person by their actions and not what they says.. I mean everyone knows the phrase that actions speak louder than words.. I no longer listens to what people tell me as I normally take it as craps and laugh it off.. Especially towards people who dun deserve my trust.. Haha...

Anyway.. I am planning my next trip which will be in Jan.. I am going HK!! Wee~ After that my next trip will be in Oct.. I will be heading to TW again.. Hoho.. Yes Yes Yes I am super high when talking about TW!! It's my dream place... Ever since I went there last Sept.. I have been planning to head back there again.. Although been there liao but I have not finish visiting the whole island of TW!! Hehe..

Ya some were asking me why I suddenly like keep going overseas.. Hmm.. I am being longing to go out of SG since long long time ago.. Now I could fulfill every little part of my dream, I am feeling super contented with my life..

Well.. Lastly, my bro kanna post to Bedok Camp.. He seems to have dreams about what he wanna fulfill.. I feel so proud of my bro.. He's totally changed.. From a person whom always tell me dunno what he wanna.. Now I am hearing lots of his ideas and everything.. Army does change a person.. Luckily its doing good for my bro.. Hee..... Well my weekends somehow I kept it for my bro as he fore goes his friends meet up and spend time with my mum and me.. My di di really grown up le.. Hee......

Although Daddy is no longer around but I am sure he is happy to see the progression of my bro.. Daddy no matter where are you now!! All I wanna let u know is Di Di and me won't let u down as we promised we will take good care of Mummy.. Hee.. Although every year our birthday we can't celebrate together anymore but I will never let u celebrate alone in the other world.. We will still celebrate together through that thin space which is separating us.. U hear that Daddy!! LoL!!

This words are what I wanna tell my Joker Dad who always cracks joke at home.. No matter how silent we are at home.. He never fails to make us smile and laugh.. Without him.. Laughter seems to decrease at home but the spirit being together as whole never cease in us.. Hehe.. I mean I may have a lousy dad in some ways but overall my dad in me still the best.. Hehe..

Hmm.. I really learnt a lot and although fact is cruel but in order to grow, we must really accept it and learn from it.. Haha.. Enough of sharing.. Gonna head to bed.. Tomorrow heading back JB.. LoL!! I will upload some photos of me wearing the earrings in my upcoming post when I got all of them.. Hehez...

Happy Birthday to 大舅 & 婆婆

2010-10-10T23:50:00.000+08:00

Today is 婆婆's Birthday and 2 days ago is 大舅's birthday.. LoL.. We celebrated is today.. Hmm.. I have not been talking much recently and kinda emo also..

Since got back on Sat to JB.. I was like spending my time watching tv and sit around.. Play with Shan Shan awhile.. Bath for her and after that tug her to bed.. Kinda lifeless.. Did lots of thinking too..

Well.. What I did every day seems meaingful.. But I just feel that something is somehow missing.. I just couldn't figure it out.. Today went out to buy drinks and bring Shan to go play at playground while I sit on the swing as I love since I was a kid.. Practically today was back to when I am 4.. The time when I spent my days in JB still.. Going market early in the morning with 婆婆.. Then after that head home to rest..

Later in the noon will go playground to play on swing.. Then listen to 阿公 tell stories.. But in the end today is 婆婆 telling me stories about when I am a kid.. LoL.. Sound so fun.. Well.. When I am swinging myself on the swing.. Some thoughts just came to mind.. I realize what I had missed out in life.. I have what I wanted and I am contented.. But the part is missing is, I have my family, relatives and friends.. But I do not have a person I could share all my joy to.. For here, I dun mean sharing to friends but a soul partner instead..

I just wonder have I bypass someone actually true for me be with or there isn't any.. In actual fact till today, I dun find anyone catches my eye yet.. LoL.. Erm.. But really thoughts of stablize is in me.. But who is the question which makes me feel that alright, I am still alone standing all by myself.. I think I shall stop talking about all this.. Its kinda dry here..

Have been trying to stay home almost everyday apart from going to school.. I really do not have much mood recently.. That's why I blog less le.. Nothing much to talk about actually.. Its because today is a remarkable as is 10 October 2010 (10.10.10).. Its a good date & day for our family.. KC is back but he did not turn up at 婆婆's house.. Even if he came, I would avoid too.. Dee was there.. But I didn't talk to him and gave him cold shoulder.. He knows why.. I starting to dislike people who say this and yet do the other.. I mean if wanna do the other then say the other.. Why can't be true about it.. I won't stop neither will I say.. I will just respect the decision made..

Recently, I also seldom contact some friends whom I always contact.. I just feel that somehow I couldn't trust some of them.. Well basically is by judging what they did.. I won't cut contact but less contact as I dunno why somehow I do not have anything to talk.. There's a draw back somehow or rather..

I also felt that I have been crappy lately to hide my sorrows.. Well.. I do not like to let people know what actually I am thinking and feeling lately.. By listening and hearing out others is well enough already.. Talking to people and often being shut off.. I am use to it.. Like earlier, I have the urge to share my thoughts but somehow being cut off to be a listener instead.. I am dead tired of all this.. Why can't be there a person who is willing to listen to me.. Why am I always being the listener.. I just really dun understand.. Everybody wants a listener and I can play my part to be one.. Why can't they being the same to me.. No wonder in this Fxxking world there isn't a piece of fairness shit or is it the place I am living at doesn't give a damn shit about other people's thoughts and feeling but more towards caring on self thoughts and feeling.. I think like that lots of people will be opening markets and selling fishes..

I think I had rant enough.. I have enough of this shits that sum up my life since day 1 of this year.. I really totally given up on everything.. I have no mood for anything.. Life is boring here.. I really thinking of migrating and start a new else where.. Really been tired to go through all this once again.. Its like life being back to zero and I just thinking since its back to zero.. Why not I start it off else where instead of starting it again at the same old place.. What if the same situation just got back to zero again in the next few years.. I already had enough of all this restart in my life... Its truely some kind of wasting time.. Haiz...

Lastly, wishing them a Happy Birthday.. :)

Happy Birthday Mum

2010-09-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

Well.. Didn't blog for kinda long le.. Today went back JB to celebrate my mum's birthday.. Aunty Nik bought cake for her.. I went out with Li Ling & Li Shan to buy Pizza and KFC.. I think the load is not heavy as carrying Li Shan.. This is also testing my patience with kid... I think I failed.. I can't keep her still.. In the pizza hut, she was running about.. I spank her hands a few times then she finally stop moving around and kept still..

Back to shop, had dinner and took out the surprise for mum.. After that, took some pictures and upload them onto FB.. M'sia net is super laggy.. Upload pics super slow.. I wanna faintz.. Hmm.. Its kinda late so we heading back SG.. Tired... Next day meeting the gals.. Hehez..

Lastly, I wanna wish my mum Happy Birthday & hope she enjoy the gifts, surprises and celebration that we had planned for her.. Cheers~

Happy 21st Birthday Sugar

2010-09-18T23:45:00.001+08:00

Today Xav's gf, Sugar turns 21.. Haha.. Went to her chalet.. Well.. Went kinda late as wanna be on time for the cake cutting.. Hehez..

Well.. For the whole day was actually thinking about some stuff and talked to Dee on phone as kinda a lot probz surfacing and I do not know what to do..

Family is an issue which gave me headache.. Job rejection as I totally find the job which I had recently went for interview is a total screwed one.. Really dunno what to say about it man.. Roar!! What a lousy job offer.. Kns de..

Well suan le.. No choice.. Got to hunt for a new one and temp do what I am doing too.. Its been long that I meet some of my friends and I gonna plan one day to meet them.. Hee... I didn't MIA hor.. Juz that I got too much stuff to handle till I lost track of time..

Dee said he will wait for me after class on Mon.. Dunno true or not.. Shall see.. Hee.. Although see his changes but things aren't always the same its used to be years ago.. But no doubt is our friendship is always that strong.. Hehez.. I am glad to have him as my closest friend.. A person whom I can pour all my sorrows, happiness and even angriness to.. I doubt I could find such a great listening ear.. I mean for a guy who willing to hear u rant without finding u irritating.. Haha.. Not all guys like to hear girls rant.. LoL.. But I got a nice listening ear for me and a nice opinion giver, a problem solver and I have nothing to demand about.. Hee...

Well.. After leaving Sugar's chalet.. Planned to head down town.. But in the end I cancelled it.. Headed home instead.. Talked on phone with Serene awhile and hang up shortly.. Dee msg me but I didn't reply.. In the end he called me.. So he accompanied me on my balance trip home.. Although I on the expressway about to reach home.. LoL..

Well as usual we argue throughout the whole phone call.. I have yet pass him the gift I bought in Taiwan and I felt bad as I couldn't find what he wants.. Wootz.. Well no choice la.. I not good with gundam stuff.. Somemore its his fave.. Roar!! I only know shopping malls but other places I not sure which shop to go.. But lucky his friend going Taiwan soon and I asked him to tag his friend buy la.. Hehez.. I also didn't buy my Pooh bear.. I want one badly.. Long time didn't buy pooh bear le.. The last one I got was since last year xmas.. I love Pooh.... Wonder where will sell Limited Ed de...

Lastly, I wanna wish Sugar "HAPPY 21st Birthday!!" =D

Decision

2010-09-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Today came back SG to do some of my stuff and gonna head JB as I told mum I wanna accompany Po Po.. Dee felt neglected.. LoL.. Ya he grumbled coz I tell him I not free to talk to him.. Hoho..

Went back JB alittle late and Irritator return me my lappy desk but I top-up S$3 to get a nicer one and he took the damage one home.. Haha.. Yeah.. Finally got my lappy table to use again.. Dun need to use my floor as a table lo.. Wee....

After that went to eat dinner with Xiao Jiu and Aunty Nik after picking up Ling & Xing from tuition.. Didn't eat much and felt bloated easily.. Gastric wind really makes me suffer especially when I had late dinner.. Wootz..

Spent the night playing with the kids and chatting with them till kinda late before sending all of them off to bed.. Haha... Po Po was kinda happy to see that I am back home.. Talking more about travelling overseas.. Haha.. I still planning to head out to Taiwan again.. I wanna see the places and visit every nice scenery I could see.. Ya I love Nature.. I like the blue sea & green hills.. I love them best.. I took more pics of sceneries than human beings..

Lastly, I received a shocking msg which I will only share with my mates.. LoL.. Its a secret.. Think when they knew it, they will be in shocking mode also.. LoL.. Tomorrow is Sugar's 21st birthday.. Gonna go to her chalet.. Hehez.. Looking forward!! :)

Stay Overnight At Po Po House

2010-09-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

Today went back JB to visit Po Po.. Hmm.. Its been a long time since I went back to visit Po Po le.. Hehez.. Well.. Went to celebrate Mum's birthday with Xiao Jiu & Aunty Nik..

Had a good meal.. They were comparing about how KW treated them to the meal that time.. Most of the dishes he ordered were his favorites.. A bit kns de..

Well.. After that headed to Po Po's house.. Planned to head back SG around 10pm.. But I told Dee I staying in JB.. Not going back le.. Actually planned to meet him to talk about family issue de.. But cancel it.. So chatted with Po Po.. Then she was like talking about KW's mum.. She was upset and I told mum to keep her company while I go chat with the kids as they keep pulling me upstairs.. LoL..

Whole night through was talking to them.. Lai squeezed into bed with me.. He slept in another room de.. But he wanna talk to me as well.. So joined us.. LoL.. He was asking me when will there be chance that I will be spending my nights in JB.. Then I dun wanna give empty promises.. So I tell him, I will try my best to come back and keep them company.. Well.. They consider the ones whom I look at them grow up since babies.. Carried them in my hands.. Haha.. The closeness is really beyond words..

Tugged them into bed and writing this on my iphone.. Gonna post it when I am back in SG.. Today went down to sign my Letter of Offer.. Things dun seems right.. But since they didn't say anything I just sign.. Who knows when I am on my way to JB.. They called and ask for so many documentation.. Hmm.. I at first dun mind.. Need to call so many times to ask for different documents meh.. Why can't one shot.. Kinda pissed.. But heck la.. Postpone my work to tues then start as I got no time for my pre-employment check up..

Bro will only be booking out on Sat.. So most likely I will be heading back JB tomorrow after I settle some of my stuff.. Talked to Dee about it.. He asked me to see what they trying to do next.. Happy to have a job but sianz when such things occured.. Just makes me dun wanna work..

New Semester Starts Today

2010-09-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

After a week of holiday.. School sem starts today.. Wanna buy Koi to sch and drink but its freaking long queue.. Wootz..

Oh ya monday went for job interview and I got the job.. But somehow I felt things not right.. Whatever... Whatever it comes, I will be able to handle it.. Haha..

Actually meet Dee after class de but I am slow to reply he thought I left sch.... Roar!! Went to Mac have dinner with my mates.. Irene's bf came shortly so Irene left.. After that took bus down Orchard to change bus home.. Faster this way then walking back to take 51 and the distance is far... LoL...

Reached home slightly later than usual.. Was accompanied by Dee on msg.. Well.. I noticing his changes.. Ever since I left for Taiwan.. The person who kept msging me and talking to me.. Ensuring that I dun lose my way was actually Dee.. He was like my map in hand.. Guiding me the road although I have my map in hand but instead I look at my phone for direction.. LoL.. After all his guides are more fast than me looking at the map.. Haha...

After a trip to overseas.. Somehow I see things clearly and understand what's actually going on.. Hmm.. Dee wanted to pick me up at airport but I told him its ok as much as I guessed my aunts will be there.. Juz before my day of flight they called me to ask about my flight details.. I am not dumb to not realized what they are up to.. Haha...

A trip of relaxation and calming down the thoughts actually really make a person think much better and clearer.. Hehez.. Well.. Yest headed back JB as well.. A lot things I hear from my cousins and Xiao Jiu.. Was angered by it as Xiao Jiu wants KW to purchase his graduation gown but he went to rent it.. Then say when he return he will purchase a bigger size for Xiao Jiu.. Next week Xiao Jiu need the gown so called and asked him.. He told Xiao Jiu he had return his gown but there isn't any sizes left.. What the heck.. Wanna tell lies also can't come up with a better one..

I called up and screwed him.. Really angry.. There's too many issues with their family.. Po Po also angry.. Every now and then kept calling and complain.. I tolerating their idiotic acts.. I no longer kept my cool.. I blasted out at KW.. He yet dare to talk back and said I have no respect for his mum.. Bloody idiot.. He had no respect for Xiao Jiu and what do I have to respect his mum who tries to create chaos in the family.. Jolly well go one corner suck thumb la.. Want me to respect his mum unless she knows not to throw her weight around in the family.. Saying Po Po not her mother.. On earth where got such person..

I was darn bad also.. I told Xiao Jiu then since she's not Po Po's child means I totally dun need to respect her what.. She's not part of our famiily.. Then she is juz a bloody outsider who looks like a rubbish bin to me.. Then Xiao Jiu was puzzled at my comments.. I explained.. Rubbish bin eyes got blocked by its mouth till can't see the ground.. That's why whatever she says are purely rubbish coming out from her mouth as she always talk with an empty brain.. Same as a rubbish bin without brains and her mouth is as big as a rubbish bin which allow us to throw whatever rubbish into it and she will spit it when its full..

Everyone was laughing at how I describe her.. I can be nasty when someone stepped me.. Dun think I am stupid that she is always backstabbing everyone.. What happen last year I have not forgotten.. Like what I said, the scar that she left on my forehead can go invisible after a few days but that cut stay in my heart.. I will forgive and never forget how she treated me and everyone in the family..

Alright tomorrow gonna visit Po Po.. Long time didn't see her le.. Po Po dunno I am going back.. Hehez.. Giving her little surprises.. Hee.. Talk about all this just makes me mad.. Somemore he still got the cheek to tag here.. Really brainless freak..

Dinner & KOI @ TPY

2010-09-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

Went out to meet Serene & Bry at TPY for dinner and KOI.. I think I like KOI more than ever after my Taiwan trip but the price compared is way off difference.. Partially I think bcoz of air freight that makes it ex here.. LoL.. Nothing in SG is not by import..

Ate Popeye and relax.. Passed them the gifts I bought from Taiwan.. Most of them gotten at KeeLung.. Some were at Kaoshiung and the balance were at Danshui.. Well.. I really love Taipei more than what I saw on TV program.. Its much more nicer and life being there is totally different from here..

Its really nice to slow down the pace of life to look at things instead of living life like so stressful.. But shopping with my mum, no time to look and see.. She walks way too fast and I have to stop her every min.. Its kinda tiring.. I dunno what's the point of going overseas when she juz dunno how to enjoy herself.. I wonder how dad felt when he brought mum to Thai last Apr..

I have my limits of tolerance.. But I blow my top somehow or rather as its like what I said turns to deaf ear.. If u asked me whether I enjoyed myself, partial yes and partial no.. Some of my mood were spoilt by my mum. Either she is too panicked to get to the place or she juz doesn't give me time to enjoy and relax..

After all the walking, she blame me for making her walk so much.. Wat the heck...... Didn't my bro told her that we will be walking a lot as some places no bus or train.. I was angry but I kept quiet.. I have a lot keeping in me after Dad passed on about my mum.. Ya dad built the negative side of mum.. Which I dun see it in the past but now I do juz bcoz I am not close to my mum tat's why I dun see it.. I really dunno what to say about her sometimes..

Well.. Monday going for an interview.. Hopefully I get the job but if its too demanding in some ways, I may give it up.. Haha.. I dun like to work for the sake of money.. I rather work because I am happy with it.. Not happy, I will juz dump the job and find a new one.. Money is juz something to let us to spend and get it rolling.. Nothing much about having it as I dun see it as important as being happy everyday.. Haha...

Well.. Kinda tired from my trip.. Time to catch up with my sleep that I had lost.. Wonder why I am more energized there than back home.. Came back SG, I kept wanna sleep.. Wootz.. LoL

Last Day in Taipei ~ Back to SG

2010-09-10T23:59:00.001+08:00

Do last minute shopping at Xi Men Ding.. Helped Miao Ying and Hui Ling to get their stuff.. Looked for Stage shop around Xi Men Ding and I found it.. Got a few peeps tried to follow me as it obvious a lot of them looking for the shop as well.. Stage is well hidden in Xi Men Ding lo.. Not all people know where.. Thanks to Rong who gave me the address.. But its a bit difficult to locate it as There are a few streets in Xi Men Ding.. Most of the people there thought its in the back alley.. But nope, its facing a park.. LoL!! In the Back Alley is the shop Sexy Diamond.. Hahaz.. Dun be misleaded.. LoL..

Had my Ah Zhong Mian Xian too.. Hehez.. Bought caps for bro and myself.. Heez.. The people in Taiwan so friendly de.. Hehez.. Its time to head back Hotel to wait for Ah Fu to fetch us to airport le.. He brought his wife along.. She is so pretty and so nice talking to her.. Argh.. I forgot to ask for their address so that I can send them CNY card.. Roar....

There's a heavy traffic to airport but I manage to check in at 6.30pm for my flight.. Boarding was at 7pm.. Flight flew earlier than expected timing.. Reached SG at 11.50pm instead of 12am.. Aunty Ah Gin, Aunt Martha & Bro came to wait for our flight. Saw them at Duty Free when I was helping Moko to purchase her perfume which is damn ex.. At first thought of buying my perfume also de.. But the price, I rather go Taka to buy.. Heez.. Cheaper and more gifts.. LoL...

>Well.. I am back to SG.. Monday having Interview and Wed class starts.. I am starting to miss Taipei.. Its so much more relax than back here.. Alrightz.. Gonna settle the probs at hand.. Irritating... Arghzzz

Day 4 In Taipei

2010-09-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today went to Danshui to walk around then headed to find Settv, GTV and happen to see TVBS next to GTV.. The buildings are so nice lo.. Its even nicer than seen on TV itself.. LoL..

I saw Guo Shi Lun leaving Settv.. As if I will go up and talk to him.. But I juz ignored him.. No wonder the rest of the crew always like to bully him.. He got the muz bully face.. LoL..

After visited all this places.. Went to Miramar to have our ferris wheel ride.. The view is so spectacular.. Better than SG Flyer.. After that bus to Shilin then to XinBeiTou for our hot spring.. After a long day.. Had the hot spring is the best.. Went to the hot spring which was used to film lots of idol drama de... Its way on top of the hill.. Nice scenary also and its cheap.. Hehez..

After our hot spring.. Went to Shilin night market to eat.. Then walk around as well.. The weather not so good as its raining.. Some mood was spoilt but overall... I rather had go Taiwan alone.. Although brought my mum there to look, shop and enjoy but some words are meant to keep to myself..

Well at least I had spent my longest of all nights in Taiwan on today.. Hehez.. There will be some last minute shopping tomorrow for some of my friends before I head off to the airport for my flight at 1930 to leave Taipei for SG.. I am going home tomorrow.. Anybody miss me? LoL..

Day 3 In Taipei ~ Kaoshiung

2010-09-08T23:45:00.004+08:00

Today woke up early took HSR to Zuo Ying, a station in Kaoshiung.. Then started my explore.. Hee.. Took bus and train.. Well.. I found my Dalang wall.. For photos and everything will be on my FB and its meant for friends only..

I bought some gifts for my friends back home.. Hee.. Got time then meet them to pass to them ba.. Hmm.. Hopefully after my trip ended I could find a job soon.. Bascially tries to earn enough before heading out to focus on my biz..

I knw some idiots back home is trying to be rascal.. Talking ill behind my mum's back.. Wait till I get back and settle all those scores with them.. Handphone bills bound to be ex coz when I am having my holiday, my phone is ringing non-stop..

Hmm.. Cutting it short because its nothing much for me to do in Kaoshiung apart from finding Dalang wall and bring my mum around to see the temple around lotus lake.. LoL.. Back to Taipei already 10 plus and mum asked me to call it a day.. LoL... Haven been out since 8am and back at 11pm the latest.. Tomorrow is the last night in Taiwan.. I gonna spend my longest nite here for once.. I not gonna give in to my mum.. Wahaha...

Day 2 in Taipei ~ KeeLung

2010-09-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today woke up around 7.30am and prepare to leave for Keelung.. Took the subway line to Taipei Main Station and change to their Train (TRA ~ Taiwan Rail Administration) and headed to Keelung..

Meet Ah Fu Taxi Driver at there.. Hehez.. Then he drove us around.. Photos are available on my Facebook.. Net here is kinda slow.. So didn't upload photos through blog.. Went a lot of places.. But I like the mountain a lot as can see the sea and its really relaxing.. SG hard to have such scenery.. Today did a lot of shopping.. Buy gifts for my friends too.. Hehez..

Headed back to Taipei around 6 plus.. Then after that went out to Wu Fen Pu & Rao He Night Market.. Suddenly it rains.. LoL!! That's the spoiling part for the day.. Walked around Wu Fen Pu to see clothes as here is where the Fashion clothes are.. Some of clothes are the ones u see online blog shop selling de lo.. Buy at there got better deal as actually one piece is TWD 180 & when u buy 2 pieces, it is TWD 200.. Online buy got no such offer.. It makes me wanna go there buy instead of online.. Partly because save a lot.. LoL!!

After that headed back to Hotel.. First time take their bus.. Haha.. Very noob.. SG have to tap in and tap out.. Here is tap when exit.. Haha... Follow the crowd.. Had a nice bus ride.. Hehez.. Tomorrow heading Kaoshiung.. Dalang's graffiti I coming to search for u.. Hehez.. I think it will be easy to find since I had the map.. Haha.. I am so looking forward to tomorrow.. Wee~

Day 1 In Taipei

2010-09-06T23:59:00.001+08:00

Hmm.. Didn't sleep last night as today taking early morning flight at 7am.. So I got to be there 2 hours before my flight.. Hmm.. Watched television till around 4.15am.. Then cabbed down to airport..

The uncle drove super fast.. Reached airport at 4.30am.. Still early.. But can check in le.. Proceed to check in first.. Haha.. Lucky check in early and avoid the long queue.. Had a nice warm drink at Polar before proceeding to the departure gate.. Went in to the transit area to relax.. Around 6.15am, went to the gate for boarding.. The security is super impolite.. It really gives me an bad impression of SG if I am a foreigner..

Onboard plane.. Hehez.. Well.. Like what many says about Jetstar.. Haha.. I got no comments.. But I took a short nap after departure as nothing to see way up high in sky when u can't see anything way beyond the ground.. Woke up an hour before arriving at Taipei.. Wah........ 4 hours 3o mins flight.. My butt aches but I am freaking anxious.. Hahaz..

Reached le and called Ah Fu, the person whom I had contacted to pick me up and fetch me to my hotel.. He is very friendly.. Hehez.. Arranged with him to go Keelung on Tues & pick me up to send me to airport when I am leaving Taipei.. Hehez..

Reached Taipei already 2pm.. Walked around Ximending.. Not much time to go GTV and Settv.. Change of plans instead.. Shop around Ximending then went to Taipei Main Station to purchase tickets to Keelung and Kaoshiung on Wed.. Shop around Taipei Main Station.. Btw I am not going Taipei 101 as I find that nothing much there.. Although its a Jing Dian in Taipei but I rather go take ferris wheel instead.. Hahaz...

Took very few photos as I forgot to bring my camera... Worse is I forgot to bring my map out with me too.. Walking around without a map.. LoL.. I walked Ximending to Taipei Main Station and back to hotel without the help of map.. Hahaz.. Lucky I had planned my route before hand.. The map is nicely placed in my mind.. LoL... But its best to bring it around as its not my home country.. Hahaz..

Went to Long Shan Shi area.. Went to the Mongga area.. But this only partial filming area of Mongga only.. The temple they were at, I heard is in Keelung where its call Miao Kou.. Hehez.. Had asked Ah Fu bring me there.. Hee... Hmm.. Walked a lot today.. LoL... Looking forward to Keelung.. Hee... A day of trip plan by Ah Fu as he drives around in Keelung.. But purposely made the trip up Taipei to pick me up.. Hehez...

Meet BaoZhuJie!!!

2010-09-04T22:30:00.000+08:00

Went back JB on thurs as pass Xiao Jiu some photos to be redevelop.. Then Aunty Nik brought Li Shan out for medical check up.. I do not want to go as I am kinda sleepy but Li Shan was whining away and I ignored her whine.. Design business card for a customer.. Not long its done and sent for printing..

Talked to Li Ling and hurried her to take a bath as she's running late for tuition.. She doesn't want to go but I asked her to go.. Although school break starts next week.. But I dun think its good for her to slack since this coming Dec she having her entry exam for Secondary..

Well.. Brought her to tuition and I almost bang into a pole when heading over to fetch Lai.. Wootz.. Went to 大马 market to eat dinner while waiting for Aunty Nik to come back fetch us as she went Li Xing's sch to pick her up and head down to find us.. Lai ate a lot and I packed Laksa for all as dinner as for myself I ate kueh for dinner.. LoL.. Chatted with the uncle at the Kueh stall as well as the Laksa uncle due to they are KC's Neighbour.. They said they seldom see KC le..

Sure long time didn't see him lo.. Now my Ah Yi dun eat Hawker.. He every time muz bring his mum go eat at air con places.. LoL.. I only tell the uncles that he was busy.. LoL.. Lai said he wanna buy DVD.. LoL.. Brought him across to the shop to buy some.. Not long Aunty Nik came.. Then we headed to pick Li Ling up from tuition and went back to shop.. Kinda tired de..

Had dinner then headed back to SG.. Li Shan as usual cried when we said we going home.. LoL.. Reached home and head is spinning like hell.. Decided to sleep early as next day going interview..

Woke up around 10 to prepare for interview at SSC the next day.. After interview went to buy tix for movie at The Cathay as watching Grown Ups with BaoZhuJie.. Then headed for lunch.. Head was still spinning.. Headed home to rest awhile before meeting BaoZhuJie..

Had Astons for dinner... The queue was so long that made me grew freaking hungry and my stomach is yelling for FooD.. LoL.. After our food, we went to watch our movie.. After movie, BaoZhuJie asked what rating we gonna give.. 4 of us gave different rating.. I gave 4.5/5 as I find it nice and super funny till I almost laugh my stomach out.. LoL.. The rest gave 4, 3.5 & lastly BaoZhuJie gave 3.. LoL.. In the end, I said we add up and average it so its 3.5/5.. LoL.. That's the average.. Hahahaz...

Went Esplanade after that to chill and relax.. Took some photos.. Waiting for BaoZhuJie to upload.. Hahaz.. Mum called me and said bro came home le.. I was about to leave for home too.. LoL.. Kinda tired..

For my Sat, I woke up kinda late today as I wanna have a full rest... Hmm.. Packed my bags for my trip on Monday and even planned my days for my trip.. Satisfied with my planning.. Hahaz... I am really looking forward to it.. I had even arrange for the person to pick me up at the airport to my hotel.. Wee~ Everything done.. Now left for setting off.. Hahaz..

Tomorrow is final packing to see what have I forgotten to bring.. I will be bringing my lappy so that I can update on my FB and blog too.. Hehez.. Hopefully the net dun fail me there.. LoL..

BM Exam is a Disappointment

2010-09-02T03:10:00.000+08:00

Well weird that I am up at this hour.. Kinda moody.. Been thinking of some things.. Hmm.. FA exam was a sure pass as got lots of confidence.. But went to school trying to remember bits and pieces of the BM notes..

When entered the room, was told that can start the paper.. My reaction to the first question was like what the.. Thought no calculations and good one.. I didn't bring calculator.. Kinda like screwed of the day.. Not enough sleep the day before as I mugged till next morning 7 plus and catch a short glimpse of sleep before preparing for school and head to the place of doom..

This lecturer is kinda a screwed.. She screwed my assignment.. Now our exam.. Told us not to memorize calculations as it won't be out.. KNS!! I was frustrated.. Called a few to complain as I need to get it off my chest.. I really afraid that this paper may cause my overall exam marks to be pulled down.. A few of my classmates came out and talked to them while waiting for Irene, Xavier & Benson.. They were also complaining.. Stupid lecturer.. Really wanna throw her off the building or bang her head against the wall.. Idiot.. But lastly I found a better listening ear.. Thanks to that person whom said I tried to give excuses.. I already moody.. Poured cold water won't make me angry just will make me reluctant to talk further.. Dee msg me today asking me about my exam.. Ranted to him as I really felt unfair.. That time the assignment got screwed I was already moody.. Thought I could focus on exam and do it well so that at least I can have a B or C.. But now what.... I looking at a D or F.. It will be like my efforts are down into the drain and really pointless of putting so much effort today..

Hmm.. After we ended our exam, went to Orchard with my classmates.. Got to let go.. What's done can't be undone.. What to do met with a lousy lecturer.. Then today received time table for the next sem.. Lucky I dun have to see her anymore.. But Xavier & Benson will face her in their Investment class.. Irene & I was overjoy when I shared the time table with her.. Haha.. We laughed at the guys.. LoL.. Hmm.. Went to have dinner at Cine.. Then chatted a little before heading home..

Backed home.. Went to search some photos which Xiao Jiu wanted.. Then as I was browsing.. Saw Daddy's pics.. I hold back my tears as I thinking if Daddy is around at least I will have him to give me better idea of what to do.. I feeling lost and all I could do was rant then forget it.. My dad is always the one I confide in when I faced prob.. Although today after exam, I called mum to tell her.. But I still prefer to talk to dad.. Heck la.. I got to face reality.. Arghzz

Well.. Later heading back JB.. Then have dinner and head back SG.. Gonna prepare for my trip as I will be away from SG but I won't be away from my blog.. Hehez.. Planning have to be done.. Fri meeting BaoZhuJie, Dickson and JJ for dinner and movie.. Long time didn't meet them le. Gonna have lots to catch up on life and everything..

KC coming back on Mon & I flying off.. LoL.. Think we will meet for dinner sometime after my trip ba.. Need to wait for bro book out then four of us can gather.. Hahaz.. Its been long we went out dinner.. I still haven't meet Ah Wei for his Yum Cha.. Hahaz....

Although Dee asked me because he will tell my cousin how I did in my exam when my cousin return to SG.. But at least he understands how I feel and didn't reprimand me.. I really thanks for that as I was really moody before talking to him.. Hmm.. Suan le.. Sometimes not everything tell one person better.. Its best to have more than one listening ear.. Hahaz..

Well.. For what I was moody is nothing to do with my exam that kept me awake till now.. LoL.. Its kinda a nuisance to be thinking things that people do, say and reacted.. Sometimes u will just feel whether is this right or wrong.. Should u take a step further or return to your usual spot.. There's a lot to ponder.. My brain is not big to be able to think that much.. Anyway its pointless to say all this.. Well I think I better head off to bed and get some rest.. Haha.. If not I surely will be sick due to lack of sleep.. Hahaz....

Last Day Mugging for BM

2010-08-31T23:45:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Been Mugging BM the whole day.. It's basically more on reading and remembering the important points as too much to memorize..

Bought a few cans of red bull to keep me awake as words made me sleep.. How I wish it could be change to numbers.. Hahahahaz...

Hmm.. My classmate passed his M9.. Gratz.. During exam period he squeeze in his insurance exam.. Power and thumbs up de.. LoL.. Hmm.. Gonna chiong today and almost well prepared for tomorrow exam le.. Hehez..

Putting off all my wonderings to the back of my brain.. Hmm.. Got a good news was today received news from SIS then went on msn to tell BaoZhuJie that Rainie Yang finally coming SG for her concert.. Wee~

After my trip, I gonna meet her buy tix.. I have been waiting for this concert freaking long le.. Hahaz.. I am looking forward to next Monday also.. Flying out of SG.. Hehez.. Relax my mind, soul and heart.. Hahaz..

Oh ya.. I have been recently watching Xin Bin Ri Ji intro by Jun Jie.. Super funny.. Really a time to watch when tensed with exams.. Heez... Alrightz.. A short update for today.. Heez...

FA Exam ~ Done

2010-08-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

One paper down and one more to go.. Well.. Yest mug till 6am.. Thanks to Red Bull.. Hahaz.. Slept till 12 plus in the noon.. Then went to prepare.. Wanna head to Toa Payoh to buy Popeye and Koi then head to school meet Benson & Irene as Xavier will only reach near to exam timing..

See the clock it is almost 1.45pm.. I changed my mind.. Took bus 48 to Farrer Road there to change bus to school.. Benson & Irene already there.. LoL.. So I went to buy my lunch.. Sat down and eat while I revise a little.. Hahaz..

Taught Irene a little as she having doubts.. Not long Xavier arrived.. We then sat off to exam classroom.. Keeping my mind as blank as possible hoping I dun go blank later.. LoL... Wah.. The room freaking cold.. Took out my stationery and when seated then I realized I forgot my calculator.. Went to my bag again to take it and I peeped one last time at my book.. Hahaz..

Not long exam started... Wah.. Its so coincidence lo.. The first question was what Irene asked me earlier in canteen.. Think she will have no problem tackling it liaoz.. Heez... I did all my calculations.. Hmm.. I chose different questions from them as when I looked at the concepts question, I remembered the ones I memorize.. Something good bahz.. Hahaz.. I forgot my depreciation instead.. Wootz..

Finished my paper at 6.30pm.. Xavier left the room before us.. Went out and discussed the questions.. Hehez.. But since I do different questions from them then only can talk more on the main questions.. Lucky I did memorize my ratios as it is out in the main.. Lucky lecturer give unclear answer made us studied everything.. Hahaz..

After exam, we went to have our dinner then bus down Toa Payoh for KOI.. As I wanna drink before exam.. Got the crave for it.. We also planned that on Wed after exam, we gonna go enjoy a little as distress time.. Hahaz.. This exam is burning our brain cells.. Too bad to say our brain not running on 1TB hard disk.. LoL...

Reached home and decided to slack.. Gonna clear FA materials in my mind before I fully concentrate on BM.. LoL.. BM have lots of memorizing work to do.. But thanks to my friend who actually told me what I used to tell her before.. Read and understand.. Dun need memorize.. When u understand.. U will know how to tackle the questions.. Hahaz.. It somehow made me remember what I once said.. LoL..... I shall do that for my BM.. Hehez..

Totally on relax mood now.. Tomorrow my tedious mugging shall start.. I gonna say whoever msg me tomorrow will get a null reply as I will totally ignore my phone and my com will be switched off till Wed.. Hahaz...

Yest JJ intro me a show called Rookie's Diary.. I watched 2 episode liaoz.. Its super funny.. Hahaz.. I going to continue watch it.. Its available on youtube.. Hehez.. The actors really shaved their heads during the filming.. Thumbs up for their courage.. LoL..

Updates!!!!!!

2010-08-29T19:30:00.000+08:00

It's been some time that I update.. Hahaz.. This week is my study week.. Last weekend was the final for my enjoyment.. Since Monday, had started to plan my mugging schedule.. Kinda slack still although stress but well at this point of time I knew myself that no matter how I gonna memorize it, it will never gets into my brain..

Hmm.. Thanks to my classmates calling me to tell me how's my test marks.. Haha.. Glad to get in between 60 ~ 70 marks.. Gladly that I should aim around there for my final paper for my FA.. For my BM, I jolly well gonna try all my best to attack the questions as my assignment may pull my marks down.. I not sure whether will it be but some how my instinct tells me it will.. Hahaz..

Hmm.. This week kinda lose of concentration as exams is drawing near and yet did I had planned for Taiwan trip.. Most likely on Wed will start planning as that's mark the end for FA & BM exam.. Sch will resume only in mid Sept.. Hahaz...

Well.. Mon was a relax day still for me.. Looked at my books a little and slacked a little.. LoL... When I see my books, my eyes were like.. I wanna zzz.. Hahaz.. Thinking back if I am at my Da Jiu's house.. I won't be so slack le.. Hahaz..

Tues went back JB as Xiao Jiu asked me on some software thingy which apparently not important at all.. Wasted my time going back.. Roar!! But suan le.. Hahaz.. I know how much he wanted me to be back.. Sadly, my Msia PR got rejected.. Haiz.. Maybe will apply again in near future..

On Wed, so coincidence.. My friend asked me to go Kbox.. Xavier called me in noon to ask also.. Hahaz.. It's so qiao.. LoL!! Hmm.. In the end, I turned him down.. LoL.. After Kbox went IMM to shop.. Upon this a lot of u whom know that why I had been going there for a long time.. But it's already memories kept in deep valley.. Went to get some misc stuff and shared Honey Baked Ham.. Hehez.. I love to eat that more than Picnic Ham.. LoL... That's marked the end of Wed..

On Thurs, went to meet my 二姑 at the temple to pray ancestors.. Hmm.. Got burnt on my left palm and the candle wax dripped on my right thumb.. Wootz.. I felt so clumsy.. It seems that I am truly stessed out.. After that headed down to Airport to meet up with Benson.. Studied at T2.. It had a lot of changes.. No more power points.. Think Airport no longer allows people to study overnight ba.. Keep removing power points or locking it up.. Sad case.. Went JB for supper but gastric makes me uncomfortable.. Damn.. Appetite down to zero.. Any way that was happening for the past few days as well.. In no time, I gonna get sick again.. But I dun wanna be sick when going Taiwan.. LoL...

Hmm.. Fri went to Tampines Library to meet Benson again.. Thanks to him.. I had some pointers to study for BM.. Well.. I knew nothing in BM.. He helped me to highlight some points and telling what is needed to study.. Felt so much easier and relieved.. But the worse thing is that next term, I gonna face this lecturer again.. Irene, Benson, Xavier & me gonna face her.. But we are doing different subs.. Benson & Xavier will be in Investment while Irene & me in Finance.. LoL.. She teaching this 2 subs.. Die liao le..

Sat planned to study at my place.. Only Benson turned up.. Wootz.. Studied for FA.. Found a easier way to remember concept but I not sure will it works.. Gonna try.. Taught Benson on how to differentiate the accounts as what should be in trading a/c and what should under profit and loss.. Hmm.. Did practice for FIFO, LIFO and Weighted Average.. Hahaz... FA for me I gonna try to aim an A.. But BM, at least a B or C.. I will be glad as I am sure I have put in my efforts to study although I dunno what the heck it is all about.. Hahaz..

Today I planned to mug for my FA.. Tomorrow after exam.. Chionging home to mug BM.. Same as Tues.. Time really passes so fast.. Exam coming.. After that I can set my heart for my Taiwan trip.. It's time to relax before I heading back to work force..

Hmm.. Above all was a brief update of what I am doing and gonna do.. Well.. Recently talked to one of my close friend.. It's been long that we contacted.. Haha.. I hardly will contact people.. I also dunno why.. I dun take that kind of initiative.. Hmm.. But thanks to her.. I got to know things better. LoL.. Hmm.. She asked me something which sent me to think.. Well.. I may have or not that a person doesn't do what he/she says.. But some times its part of neglience or doesn't really matters to me..

Hmm.. But that sent me thinking as her question was what if it's your partner.. Well.. Then the situation is really different.. Hmm.. That's also why I do not wanna be in r/s.. Hahaz.. A lot to think and ponder.. Too much to be aware of.. Well.. Its hard to find people who are true and its hard to find people who will never take u for granted..

I paused and think.. I told her that people will tend to say and do differently.. But if I found out that I am being make use of, then I jolly well will end everything.. The person better be smart as dun mess around with me.. Its like nothing is fair and square in this world.. Well.. There bound to have a lot of stuff we wanna know about people.. But sometime its through their actions tell it all.. Hmm.. I will trust a person at first but if the person is lying or playing monkey behind my back.. The truth will be out shortly.. I can chose to find out myself or not to.. So I told my friend.. If I gonna have a partner who aren't gonna be true to me, then wait till I found out it will be the time I not going to give any possible chance..

Hmm.. There are a few dislikes that I dun like my partner to have.. But if it doesn't really affect me that much, I will just pretend I dunno about it.. Well I am always observing.. Sometimes I prefer to keep quiet.. My friends tend to feel that I am way to quiet when in group.. Hahaz.. I dun really know how to talk to people whom I just got to know.. I always need people to start the ball rolling.. I dunno how to initiate.. Hahaz.. Firstly, I dun like to have someone to tell me lies or throw blame to others.. What's wrong with owning up.. It will not be pain.. There is a saying when u tell a lie, u need more lies to cover up yr previous lie.. Then in the end.. Its very obvious that u are lying..

Secondly I dun like people who make use of others to gain benefit to themselves.. Thirdly, I dislike people keeping secrets from me.. Better dun let me find out.. If not the trust that was once built will be down the drain.. Lastly, I dun like to be with a person who feels bored and wants someone in life..

Well I had came across friends who are like that.. If I gonna find all this in a person whom I like.. Then jolly well go fly kite.. Haha.. I am super direct about all this.. As no one wants a person to be with u because he/she is bored and needs a companion.. That's not love at all.. LoL... Its more like trying to get a person to be there so that u are not bored.. But if the person not avail.. U still will find another person.. This isn't good to anybody..

I dun care what I said hurts anyone.. Its my point of view.. Can't accept then buzz off.. Haha!! Alright.. I should go back to mug.. Hmm.. But like what my friend said to me.. U will not understand a person any better unless together.. Friend & being in relationship is totally different.. Jiayou my friend.. Hope u will find your xin fu & I will search for mine.. **Winkz**

Had a good conversation with her after so long.. Hahaz.. Think I last saw her is last year.. LoL.. Exam really making my mates & I freaking out.. CONCEPTS!!!!! I need to get them into my brain by today.. Gonna head to sch tomorrow early too.. 3.45pm exam starts.. I wanna excel and not disappoint anyone.. Hehez.. All the best to my peeps for FA tomorrow..

Confusing Emotion

2010-08-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

Well.. I got to thank those who showed me your concern.. I really appreciate your understanding and encouraging words.. Though its not easy to overcome all this but no worries I will 加油!!

Well.. I plucked up the courage to tell mum.. She gave me a expression-less face.. I was dumb-founded.. I thought she would not be able to take it and burst in tears.. But she didn't.. She only tell me that she going to my Da Jiu's place.. I was totally shocked at how calme she is..

But we normally know when a person showed u the calm face normally their internal was struggling.. I suddenly dunno what my mum is thinking.. I worried further.. I asked her is she ok.. She said ya and tell me go prepare for my class.. Then she packed her bag and went off...

Hmm.. Today went for class.. I brought my writing notes but not my text book.. Its obvious I didn't bring my mind to school today.. Hmm.. Go to sign my attendance and went off..

Went ECP to chill.. I wanna get rid of what I am thinking.. I kept thinking about the times I had with granny.. I faced lots of people leaving this world throughout my life till now.. Firstly, when I was 3.. My closest 3rd uncle, my dad's bro, left because he got drunk and fell in toilet.. Then when I was 9, my ah gong, my mum's dad, passed away because of stomach cancer.. 3 days later, 阿姨's husband whom also KC & KW's dad, Uncle Mike, passed away.. Then when I was 14, my beloved cousin, Willy Choo, passed away because of a car accident that happened few days ago which he didn't know that it had injured him but when he went to see doc its already too late.. His internal organs are bleeding.. I pitied my nephew whom are too young at that time..

When I was 15, my dad's eldest sis passed on because of lung cancer.. When I was 16, struggling with school stress and N levels.. My Ah Ma left me, its was a pain as she looked after me most of the time when I came over to live in SG with her & my parents.. But I spent most of my time with her than my parents.. I hardly see my parents due to they came home like 12am.. When she left, my world became darkness.. Thanks to my dad, he showed me care & concern.. Pulled me out of darkness.. I became closer to him.. When I was 24, he left me.. I only really understand him was this 8 years.. Why the people who I am closed to, left me 1 by 1.. It is so pain that I tried to bear each and every one of it..

Now I am 25, my Granny told me she is leaving anytime.. Why I have yet overcome the death of my dad, she had to leave.. There's too many why.. Nobody can really tell me how to overcome it.. But face it.. I can face all this but what about my feelings.. It is not dead.. Ya I have my mum to take care.. But I am worried is my mum.. I dunno she can take it or not.. I really scared she got depression.. Losing my dad is enough for her to go through at her age.. She's not young to me.. But like me, she hasn't got over the lost of my dad.. Now she had face the going to lose feeling of her mum whom to every one of us, she's healthy to say goodbye.. I always felt Granny could live more than 90.. More than Ah Ma actually.. My Ah Ma left this bloody world at the age of 92.. I hope Granny can live this long..

Earlier I got home.. I looked at mum.. I could tell she cried.. I purposely do not want to come home early because with me around she will hide her emotions.. I put down my bag in my room, I walked back out and asked her, "Mummy, u dun seems right.. Did u call Granny?"

Mum kept silence and looked at me.. Its so solemn.. I sensed things are not right.. Her eyes were teary.. I turned my eyes away as I know any moment I am gonna get my tears rolling.. I could feel the pain that was welling up in her heart.. Every night I could not sleep, I heard her calling out to my dad.. For some of u thought I am like to sleep till way after 12pm..

I really feels that they dun even know a bloody thing that is going on.. Imagine I had been sleeping at 7am every morning.. Sleeping 5 hours a day.. It is not bloody enough for me.. I dun say doesn't mean that I slept more than enough.. I really dislike it when people shoot me right in my face saying I am hard to wake up.. When I do not have enough sleep I will wanna sleep more.. If u try to wake me up without letting me to sleep enough.. Then I could say, u got to be safe than sorry.. When I not enough sleep its better that u watch your words or u got shoot by me.. I may not have enough sleep.. As long as I am awake.. My mind is working.. I may speak nonsense.. But just dun try to be funny..

Even my mum dare not wake me up.. Coz she know the reason why.. I told her.. So no matter what she will let me sleep till I wake up.. My emotional is going up and down.. I really feeling damn vex..

This is a note to 黄光伟 (KW)..

Eh.. Ah Pek... U idiot.. Post the stupid msg for what on my blog.. U need to be kick is it? Kns de.. I didn't ans yr call bcoz I am sleeping and for instance u give miss call doesn't mean need to reply as u gave 1 miss call = not urgent.. Returned for wat.. Plus u dun call me that often.. U didn't even msg me to return call and your msg in front only state "Eh this is an info of what Granny says....." Geez...... Its an info.. Then what do u expect me to reply u? U know I won't call back when I find it not important.. Btw granny didn't tell me about that.. I know u always big mouth.. No secrets can be kept.. That's why I hardly tell u things.. I rather tell Kor Kor.. What I tell u, u will tell your mum.. Idiot.. U wanna let people know.. Now I help u publicize.. Kns..

Somemore hor.. I dun like to bluff granny.. Got means got.. Dun have means dun have.. Why muz u bluff her.. Anyway she knows I dun have.. If got I will tell her myself.. Dun need u be KPO!!!! Really an Ah Pek... So its obvious that u are bluffing her.. Lol.. Sunday u prepare to kanna scold by her lo.. I won't have to ease her.. U ease her yrself.. Wahahahaz.. **BaKa**

Why It Reminds Me...........

2010-08-19T23:59:00.001+08:00

Today went JB.. I had been trying to be happy after dad left me.. Joke around, play around with the kids.. Bring them go eat KFC and then bought food for Xiao Jiu..

Mum went out shopping with Aunty Nik.. I told them next few weeks I won't be back to JB as after my exams I will be flying...

After leaving JB went to meet John.. Went Bedok then Yishun.. I somehow felt not right.. I kept quiet and keeping my fingers crossed..

When got home.. Mum looked at me.. Telling me Granny dun sound right today.. Then said Granny looking for me.. I told mum never mind.. Tomorrow then I call Granny..

But who knows.. When I bath come out.. Talk to Serene awhile and hang up her call as helped mum to finish her food.. Then called John.. Talked less than a minute and hang up.. Thought let my phone had a good charge...

But suddenly phone rang.. JB home called.. Hmm.. Wonder why so late.. I answered.. Its Granny.. Here's the dialogue.... My Granny speaks to me in Hainan.. I translate it..

Granny: "Ling Hui.... Why u so late then reach home?"

Me: "Oh.. I go out with friend ma.. Mummy say u find me... Is it because I today didn't go home visit u?"

Granny: "Ya lo.. U naughty girl.. Granny cooked your fave.. But asked Aunty Nik bring down for u lo.. Erm.. I got a bad news to tell u.."

Me: "Oh.. I will go back see u after my exams.. I wanna do Granny proud.. Hehez.. Erm.. What bad news? Dun scare me leh....."

Granny: "Listen properly.. I may leave soon.. I not sure when but u got to promise me to take care of yourself, take care of Xiao Jiu & his family, Da Jiu, Mummy and Ah Cheng.. U are Granny's only hope... Remember u had always make me proud.. I leave them to u... Remember u are the pillar for them.."

Me: "Why u telling me this? Did anything happen? U dun scare me.. Dun leave me like how Daddy did to me.. I won't be able to take this anymore.... Please tell me u will be ok..."

Granny: "Silly girl.. U had knew about all this long ago.. U always trying to avoid this whenever I asked.. Since u tell me to tell u when I see or feel things not right.. Now I am telling.. U should be prepared.. I dunno when.. But can u promise me? If u want.. Try to be home as often as u can.. I will be happy if u are back every weekend.. If can't its ok.. But promise me to take care of them.. Dun let them being bully by u should know who....."

Me: "Granny U making me scared....... Please dun tell me this.. I promised I will take of them no matter what.. I will do as u say.. I will not disappoint u.. But dun leave me alone.... I dun wan u to leave like what Daddy did.. Please tell me the day before u leaving.. Talk to me.. Let me accompany u to your last.. I wan to have u in my memories till your last.. I want eat all Granny's cooked food.. I wanna be with u.. I dun wan u to leave me.. Daddy just left last year... Dun make me go through another blow.. Granny please tell me u won't leave me..... Please....."

Granny: "Silly de... Granny old le.. Anytime also will leave de.. U are the only girl in the family and the most obedient.. Granny can depend on u.. Dun go disturb Kor Kor.. Let him finish his course in US then tell him.. Dun think so much.. Granny will try to keep u company till my last.. I will talk to u everyday like when u were a baby till u grow up for school.. Go sleep ba.. Granny talked to u tomorrow.. But dun come back JB tomorrow.. Go to school.. Exam coming.. Go taiwan must enjoy yrself ok..."

My reply is not important here as after that we hang up.. I really dunno what to say.. I am in dazed.. I have not been crying about anything.. Only thinking of dad then I will cry.. But my tears now flow as if its running tap.. Why.......... Its so sudden......

I cannot tell mum about it... She won't be able to take it.. Last year she lost my dad.. How am I going to break the news to her that she may lose her mum too.. I am scared things would happen so soon till I can't react like my dad.. I dun wanna go through this again.. I really won't be able to take it.. Seriously I dunno what I am thinking now.. I can't imagine.. I feeling weak now in my heart.. Called Kor Kor.. He never answer... Ah Wei is asleep.. Ah Cheng out field.. Roar.......

Who can tell me what to do........ How can I put a stop to this.. Yes I knew it last year about some things may happen to Granny but I didn't expect so fast.. I wanna prevent it... Roar.......... Daddy around, he will tell me what to do. Argh!! This is really making panic.... Making me frustrated.. Making me totally dunno how to control my emotion............. My mind is totally over-ruled by my emotion.... While typing this I am still crying........ My heart feels the same pain as the moment my dad left me......... I HATE THIS PAIN!!!!!!! Could I take over her place? I would rather I am the one facing this and not my dad neither is my Granny............ :(

Giddy & Moody

2010-08-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Today woke up kinda late.. Went on MSN.. Chatted with Bee & BaoZhuJie..

LoL.. Planning to start exercising again as I think my foot should be able to be back on track.. After recuperating for so long.. Went online to check the booking for courts.. Its fully booked.. Wootz.. No choice.. Got to wait till Sept le.. Think better chances..

Maybe can head to gym for the time being.. Hmm.. Bee sent me her econs assignments.. Helped her do researched and sent the links to her email.. Hopefully those will be of some helped.. Her assignments seems to be easier than mine.. Wootz.. Although ours are from the same Uni but different course.. LoL..

Then talked to Rong on FB as she told me Stage got sell drinks.. Hmm.. I will helped her find and buy some for myself too.. Hehez.. I gonna visit Stage shop in TW also.. Hahaz.. Not forgetting the stuffs that some of my friends asked me to help them find..

Well.. Planning to meet up with my Mitsui Colleagues too.. But waiting for them to plan.. LoL.. Long time didn't them le.. Hahaz.. Hmm.. Suddenly felt giddy out of a sudden.. Went to take a nap.. Woke up le and its rather moody.. Mum went out with my cousin-in-law.. Then I am alone at home.. I forgot to switch on the lights before heading off to nap.. I woke up and felt moody out of a sudden.. Hmm.. I missed Daddy.. Whenever I having a nap, he will be the one switching on the lights so that when I woke up, I won't bang into anythings.. Haha.. I got the habit of walking without opening my eyes until I see light as its too glaring.. Haha..

Went to switch on all lights.. Then went to take a bath to freshen up myself.. Planned to Toa Payoh as I am craving for KOI.. Had my fave Popeye Mashed Potato too.. Hahaz.. Met Serene to there.. Chatted a little.. But my mind was thinking about Daddy.. Every weekend used to go there play Badminton and Jogging.. Before heading for our breakfast at Eldest uncle's house. Why Daddy had to leave so soon? Why he can't live to 80? Why he can't enjoy the stuff which mum is enjoying now? Why have to be so unfair? I have many whys in my mind.. But all have no answer.. Nothing can me moody easily but the thinking of my dad will just make me feel empty.. I really regretted for working OT the previous night and not having dinner with Daddy.. His last dinner was alone as I called home and told him to eat first without me as I am working OT.. Thanks to my boss.. Made me work till 9 plus by doing things which next day also can do bcoz of a stupid reason of accounts colleagues everyone staying and I wanna leave.. I felt bad easily so I stayed.. Got home around 11pm.. I am too tired and headed off to bed without having my dinner..

This is the regret in my life which I can't even mend it back.. Thinking of it just made me cry.. After my dad passed on.. No matter how hurtful things may seem... How harsh the words it used to make me cry.. No longer appeals to me.. My tears will not flow and I will just go against it.. But my tears will flow only when Daddy's photos were seen, Daddy's images flowing through my mind or I dreamt about Daddy.. That's when u know my heart is crying.. I know no matter how long it takes.. Time will never mend this for me.. It will always be wounded.. :'(

I Flew KW Plane Again

2010-08-17T23:15:00.000+08:00

Today actually wanna meet Ah Pek for Yum Cha.. But msg him said postpone.. As I heading JB.. Wanna go see how is my photo being developed..

Hmm.. Xiao Jiu best de lo.. Tell me that he haven't do coz he said background hard to change as last time the old one is black so our hair can't really be seen.. Faintz.. I told him.. Dun change background lo.. Juz use back what it is and enlarge it.. I wanna hang it in my study room..

Hmm.. Had steamboat again.. No appetite.. I ate really little nowadays.. Half bowl of rice, I am full and steamboat I only ate 2 small bowl.. Xiao Jiu was shocked at my appetite as normally I will sit and eat till the last..

Everything is so stressed up.. Hmm.. Had been talking to Kor Kor during the day when he called.. He seems to be relaxing lo.. Hmm.. He asked what I wanna buy in US.. I told him, get me the limited edition of Pooh bear he can find.. Hahaz.. He gave a fainting voice.. Wootz..

When heading back from JB.. SG custom door was locked for 15 mins.. The people inside was like having a break.. Hmm.. Dunno what happened.. But after going through the custom.. Waited another 15mins for the freaking bus.. Zzz.. Mum then grumbled to me when we were home that I shouldn't have postpone my driving test to help........ She didn't complete her sentence as she know what she gonna say will made me angry and I may even dun wanna eat for days..

Well... I just dun like my family to argue or have dispute over "$".. Its a very sensitive issue.. I dun care who will I offend in my family.. Whoever compare or say ill of another person bcoz of "$".. Be prepared to be shoot by my words.. As it will be not some soft but polite words to stop u from talking about "$".. I will be harsh and straight to the point.. I will not care about how he/she feels when I said that.. Kor Kor knew about this incident.. He is always the one to stop them from saying if not another one will kanna my harsh bullet.. ;p

I only like to talk to my cousins because when I talk to them, I dun need to bother about my tone.. I am happy or angry.. They hear it through my words and not by tone.. Well.. Because I always say what I wanna say and forget about the tone I am using.. If want me to focus on the tone I am in to make sure that person understands me... Then I won't talk much and I will just give one word reply.. Therefore why sometimes I am so reluctant to talk because if people who understands me won't be bothered with wat kind tone I am talking..

Kor Kor is right.. I do not have to bother what others commented.. As long as I am comfortable being myself.. Then carry on.. Do not have change to accommodate the other ears.. If I am doing that, I got to think how many ears I got change to accommodate it.. It will then be tiring for me and being not happy.. But he said comments are meant to be appreciated.. Doing it or not is my decision.. Hahaz.. Thanks to Lao Ge... Heez.. Although he is so far.. But what he said made some sense to me.. LoL.. Thanks Lao Ge for the encouragement.. I will jia you de!! ^_^

Last BM Class

2010-08-16T23:45:00.000+08:00

Today went for my last BM class.. Hoping to get tips for exam.. Roar!! Stupid lecturer merely just go through what she taught and wrote very few on board.....

For me is still ok as I didn't lesson for 2 times.. So that 2 times were actually part of exam.. Kns... Wanna left class at 8.30pm de.. But suan le.. See till the end will she say anymore.. At first before the break time.. Things were going smoothly...

But after the break at 8.30pm....... She started her bullet train and I got to chase her speech and writings.. She flipped the slides as though our eyes could see what to study.. I got mad and told Irene that she's driving bullet, I got to master driving rocket in order to catch up with her.. Bloody....

Its all so fast.. I got not much time to highlight but use pencil to tick on the slides that needed to be study.. Planning with Benson to go Airport to study one of the days.. I am not so good in BM.. Need to borrow his notes to copy.. Gonna ask the rest too.. I am really stressed.. Well.. A lot thought studying Degree is easy but I can say, it will make u wanna bang wall much more to see whether yr head is it as head as the wall.. Like throwing an egg against the wall and hoping it won't crack.. Wootz....... But I gonna try my best to attain the results which is desired to be aim.. I will not let the people around me whom pinned their hopes on me to be down the drain.. :)

Over The Weekends

2010-08-15T23:30:00.001+08:00

Spent my weekends with my family.. Brought mum to eat at Manhattan.. Mum enjoyed the food.. Talked a lot to bro too.. Heez..

Then we went shopping at NTUC.. Mum wanna do marketing.. I was attracted to the sweets on the shelving.. Bro was stoning most of his time.. Then we decided to head home.. Hmm.. My stomach was feeling weird this few days.. Keep having runs.. Zzzz... Dunno what happen.. Heck..

Went out to meet Serene for supper at my house nearby Dim Sum.. LoL.. Saw dad's friends at coffee shop.. His usual drinking gang.. Well.. Somehow its like, if my dad is still around.. He will be sitting there drinking with them..

Well.. Nothing much about weekends as mostly with family.. Exams drawing near.. A lot of things happened and solving every little issue of it.. The kids are giving probs also.. Wah.. My head is so small.. Why am I alone to solve all this shit that got nothing involve me but yet I am being dragged in. Roar..

Next week is the worse time table I ever had.. Monday & Friday class.. Kns.. Both are B's.. Monday blue with Friday Burnt.. Kns... Tues heading back JB.. Nowadays weather keep raining.. Dunno how many times I am walking in the rain liaoz.. I am keeping my fingers crossed as I bound to get sick soon.. LoL!!

Designing Blog Skin is Not Easy

2010-08-13T23:45:00.001+08:00

Went to my Da Jiu house today. Actually wanna ask Da Jiu regarding school stuff. As some of u know la, my Da Jiu is Uni de lecturer. Why do I wanna study till so high, the reason is meant for my family to know. I do not wanna share about it.

Hmm.. Had dinner and Da Jiu was playing on his com. I told him I going Taiwan after my exams. He said good, went out to explore not bad. Then he said he got friends there. If want he can ask them bring me around. Sounds not bad. Then after that we talked about sch.

He asked me the lecturer in our school good a not. I was reluctant to say. Da Jiu said if here not good ask for a transfer to go over UK. Haha.. UK wait till I graduate then go. Heez.. Not now.. I still prefer to study in SG.

Then we chatted a little. He was commenting on KW's exam results. **KW u made Da Jiu angry again la** Wah.. Stress is doubled.. Ya thanks to my good cousins. I aiming at least a B or C= 2nd Class.. First class really hard to get. Our school passing rate is 40 marks. Can get 2nd class I may laugh le. Hahaz..

Hmm.. Mum finished her stuff, kinda lazy to walk out all the way to the bus stop.. Mum saw got cab, so we cabbed home instead. Dun wanna ask Da Jiu fetched us home as his eyesight at night not good.

Back home and helped my cousin designed his blog. Its not easy lo. He want so many things and didn't even supply me the photos. Roar!!! KC your blog I read le.. Freaked out.. Write about yrself la.. Faintz.. I know what's your situation like. I didn't blame u. Heez.. Kor Kor Jia You!! If can ask KW assist u la.. Ah Pek always talk so much. LoL..

Its still not done.. Hahaz.. I will try to do asap. Hehez.. Erm.. Gonna go keep my mum accompany and watch show.. Bro not home.. Gonna rain soon.. Tonight can have a super cozy sleep.. Hehez..

Lastly, Today is Friday the 13th.. Super Black and even stay indoors also got problems knocked on yr door.. Wootz

Received An Email of Apology Sweatz

2010-08-12T23:30:00.001+08:00

Checked my email at shop.. I was in shock mode.. My cousin, KC and his good buddy, Dee went to type some nonsense in my tag box and I sms to screw them tat day.. LoL..

They freaked me out by writing apology letter to my email.. Wootz.. Super funny de.. Well.. I shall keep it private.. By their instructions, I needed to post this, "Please kindly ignore their conversation and they apologize for any misunderstandings caused.."

Well.. They wrote kinda long.. Funny de.. Actually after saying them, I totally never care about it.. Hahaz.. Well.. I never expect such a formal apology de.. Hahaz.. Idiotz lo.. Made me feel bad now.. Zzzz.. I hardly will take things to heart.. I mean I say liao then I will juz forget it.. Hahaz..

I let Xiao Jiu see what did our Ke Ai Lao Ge write.. Kor Kor gonna tio shoot when he comes back from US... Wahahahaz.. But I will sure missed this scene.. Xiao Jiu say he video let me see.. **Faintz**

Erm.. Had steamboat for dinner.. But I was too hungry till gastric attack me.. Zzz.. Xiao Jiu helped me buy medicine.. Ate to subside the pain awhile.. Feel so sickly today.. Woke up with runny nose.. Roar.. Then got gastric.. WTH is wrong with today..

Played with Shan.. Asked Xiao Jiu helped me developed a photo coz current one was fading.. Then he said he wanna enlarge it.. Hang one in my room at Granny's house and the other one gonna bring it back to SG and hang it in my room.. I asked him to develop one 4R size de so that I can paste it on my study desk..

Tat pic is my dad's fave.. Heard from Xiao Jiu its taken when I am 5 and my bro was 2 at the studio.. Memories... Guessed what I even found my toy in the shop today.. Its still in shape.. Wahahahaz.. Somehow like back to the days when I spent the beginning of my life at there before headed over to SG to stay with my parents.. This is also why KC, KW and me were so close.. When we were kids, KC goes to sch near granny's house while Ah Yi will bring KW to granny's house to play with me.. Then when about time Ah Yi will go pick up KC and us all go makan.. Talking about it, its like so much had change.. Hahaz.. I remembered Ah Gong likes to bring us go seaside to play and tell us his stories.. Hahaz...

Well.. The process of growing up is to accept the leaving of love ones.. But none left a painful memory in me.. They taught me a lot about life.. Frankly speaking when talking about all this, I dun miss them so much as I miss my dad..

The feeling is totally different.. I tend to get over the lost of them easily.. But the lost of my dad, I still unable to take it.... I still called out to my dad when I having nightmares.. I try ways to take it and move on.. But its really damn hard...... Its so torturing inside..

Frankly speaking, the hardest thing in life is to bear the pain of losing parents.. The pain is totally unbearable and you have to keep reminding yourself that they no longer around to be there for u when u r down..

I won't deny that sometimes at home, I had queries.. I will just walked out of my room and goes, "Daddy I wanna buy........" I will paused there looking at the empty space he used to sit there every day.. Then I will like arghzzz what the hell happen to me, my dad not around le.. Wootz..

Alright.. I am not emo-ing.. Its juz thoughts of sharing.. Hehez.. I will juz laugh it off and move back into my room.. Hahaz.. Well.. Its like a routine of my life.. Whenever I wanna do something or buy something.. My dad always the one I ask for opinions.. Hahaz.. I too used to my dad being around.. LoL...

Chionging Assignment

2010-08-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Today woke up around 10 plus.. Feeling kinda tired still.. Totally dun feel like talking at all.. Hmm.. Prepared and left for JB..

John was given off today.. Hmm.. But planned to go JB le.. If not I would have cancel it.. Suan le.. Hmm.. Planning to meet him when returning to SG..

Happily headed to JB.. Arrived in JB, mum went for haircut while went shop to put our stuff.. Shan was awake.. She looking forward to me carrying her but she was looking for my mum.. Hahaz.. Carried her and headed back to look for mum at City Square.. Juz nice Mum finished her hair cut.. LoL.. Shopped around to buy wallet for Lai and finally I bought my first pair of Crocs.. I gonna wear tomorrow.. Heez...

Then went to buy drinks for Xiao Jiu and Ling.. After that headed back to shop.. Aunty Nik cooked our lunchie.. Heez.. Had kway teow.. Then went bank to deposit money.. After tat sent Ling to tuition.. Visit Granny too!! I am too used to Granny's nag.. Hahaz.. Actually planned to meet John de.. But after receiving a sms, I changed my mind.. Got moody and Xiao Jiu told them said I was happily talking in the car with him when on the way back.. Suddenly I quiet down a lot.. But at tat moment shop got a lot of people so they didn't asked much.. Helped out a little too.. Crowd is gone.. Xiao Jiu & Aunty Nik started to ask me what happen.. Mum wanna know too.. I told them nothing and juz merely said I am tired.. They thought I was stress out from school..

Took a nap.. Wah.. Its almost 5.45pm.. Aunty Nik asked me to help her to pick up the kids and go pasar malam to buy food for dinner.. Heez.. Mood got better.... Hahaz... Went off to pick Xing from sch.. She totally never saw me standing in front of her and bang into me.. Wootz.. Blurz.. Then we headed to fetch Lai and followed by Ling.. The pasar malam is near Ling's tuition centre.. Bought half duck and went to buy bubble tea to cheer myself up a little..

Bought for the kids as well.. Hehez.. Intend to go back every tues if there isn't any class.. My promise to the kids.. Hehez.. Saw the pancake with corn.. Hmm.. Bought 2 packs of it.. When on the way back to shop.. Ling asked me why I bought 2 packs.. I told her juz I am hungry as u knw what month it is nw.. Kinda lame as that wasn't in my thoughts.. LoL..

Had dinner and its kinda late.. Told mum to head back le as I wanna chiong my assignment.. Will be sleeping late tonight.. Gonna get it done by hook or by crook.. There's a slight jam and no bus situation.. Mum wanna take cab.. I stopped her.. She was curious about why I dun wan take cab as normally when no bus, I sure take cab but not today..

I told a lame but acceptable excuse is saved money.. LoL.. If people who know me, I dun even bother about how much I gonna spend when I am with my family.. Reached back around 10.30pm as expected.. Bro called, passed the phone to mum.. Weather freaking hot.. Took a cold bath.. Feeling refreshed.. Hehez..

A recapped for the day was that I am kinda clumsy and moving around without my mind.. Knocked into people, things and now even at home I am still knocking into the table.. I wonder will there be bruises surfacing tomorrow on both my arms and legs.. Hahaz.. Somehow tired is really a good describing word when a person is totally down on mood.. LoL..

Happy National Day SG

2010-08-09T23:45:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. SG turns 45.. LoL.. I fell asleep when watching it.. I was kinda tired.. Hardly sleep.. Overly stress.. Roar..

Counting down to exams but way before that I gonna get my bloody assignment done up.. Its freaking confusing and not all websites are able to be taken as reference for example wiki.. Roar.. One source down... Having xyz running through my brains while I was flipping my resource text book which I bought not long ago and looking at the webbie.. Making my eyes going round in a twirl..

Had been up since morning woken up by my dad's fave song.. Went to google it.. Played it many times on youtube.. I start to miss dad.. During National Day.. We are always back in JB.. Having steamboat, talk craps and then back to SG and head down pubs near Lavender..

Hmm.. A lot of questions from mum and bro regarding why I woke up so early.. Ya I am truly stress with school.. Yet they gave me tat kind of being amaze looks.. What the... Its like I am hit by stress with surprises.. Wootz...

Mum cooked lunch while I was still struggling and banging my head against all odds.. Its something I got to overcome without help.. I was hoping dad was there to be my guide and tell me wat to do.. I feel so lost...........

Felt the lethargic feel in my body but I pushed myself to the max.. When I told my friend about it, the answer was I used to laugh it off.. Now I felt it.. Really an idiot of life.. I had tried to console although I said things like tat.. Roar... This taught me to mind my words.. Now u know why I prefer to talk less..

Hmm.. Dinner is the same as lunch.. Brain isn't working well.. Really can't think much.. Today seems like who talk to me sure kanna offend by me.. Heck la.. I really not in the mood.. Its like why this and that.. Its totally kind of feeling why muz like tat and why not like this.. All the time I always asked will there be someone who is true.. But frankly speaking.. When someone is true, u can tell.. I am not dumb to the part where I can't see.. So please dun take me as a dumb.. If u are smart than show me how smart and capable u can be..

I always never feel life is meaningful.. Facing all the failures and learnt from it.. Somehow there will people trying to poke the pain u are feeling.. It is hard to believe in something and someone tries so hard to tarnish the thought of it.. If without putting in effort, I doubt there will be results.. I am not a turtle who chose to hide in my shell.. I rather face it and brave it.. If its a failure, I will still be standing on my own 2 feet.. Like wat I had said, every failure is a lesson.. U learnt it, correct it and move on.. If because u afraid things might happen again, then I would say u did not learnt the assets of Prevention is better than Cure.. When things bound to happen, we will try to prevent it from happening.. Then regret and cure it later.. Whats' the point.. If regret later and cure it, then like tat my dad won't leave this world..

He regret not taking good care of himself.. He now wanna live but he wasn't given a chance anymore.. He is a soul with an empty shell roaming around.. Looking at us in a different world.. Communication was totally cut.. He can hear us but we can't hear him.. What's the point of regretting when u know u can actually prevent it.. I always asking myself why I am living.. Wat do I contribute being alive.. I dunno.. I always felt when I wanna put my whole heart into something, irregardless what, there bound to be people around me pour cold water.. Have u people thought of how I felt whenever u open your bloody mouth.. While I tried to care about your bloody feelings before I said because I know u are upset.. Aren't kindness being repaid with kindness or kindness are meant to be repaid with ungratefulness.. Maybe I should not be nice to anyone but harsh instead and people who know me well enough know whether I will a not.. **ROAR**

A Day Well Spent

2010-08-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Today went Vivo to get some stuff.. Bryan called asking wanna go his uncle chalet.. Find it a little weird la.. LoL... Totally dunno the people there.. Go also a bit boring.. But asked John & Serene.. Hahaz.. If they going then I go.. LoL... I walked Ah Kor and didn't notice him at all until he called me.. My reaction was, "I thought u were at Tampines Giant, How come u are here?" LoL... Then I realized he was transferred to Vivo Giant months ago.. Wootz..

Hmm.. John heading back SG.. So asked him wanna come Vivo a not... But when he arrived, we had done our shopping.. LoL.. Sent Mum & Bro home then we headed to pick Serene and went KBox..

Hmm.. Today eve of public holiday.. Zzzz... No promo... Well.. Since the rest are ok.. I always majority decides.. LoL... Nvm.. Anyway I hardly go out.. Spent a little more today should be ok.. Hmm.. Looking out on my expenses.. So far so gd.. But hopefully can cut down more.. Hmm.. Trying to look for biz.. Idiot plane flyer.. Say wanna talk about it.. In the end keep push forward.. I try to look for mine first.. Do whatever I can... At least income won't die down.. I just dun wan mum to work as she always tio bully.. I understand my dad's implications why he doesn't want my mum to work.. Bcoz his health wasn't in good condition, he had no choice but to let my mum work but grumbling into my ears.. LoL...

Hmm... After Kbox went to Makansutra for dinner.. The food standard dropped.. Sianz.... I know I shouldn't have suggest go there eat le.. Wootz.. After dinner went 7-Eleven buy drinks.. Some words are meant to keep.. LoL...

Hmm.. Wasn't really happy but heck la.. Maybe lack of sleep yest.. Having insomnia.. Dunno why.. Keep kanna wake up half way through my sleep.. But not having nightmares.. Weird.... Hmm.. After sending Serene home, talked to John on the way back to my place.. Chatted awhile before I went up and he drove off...

A little of confession here and there.. Well.. Time somehow is the remedy for all things.. LoL.. Hmm.. Sometime u would ask yourself whether had u totally let go of yr past... I could say I had as it doesn't really matters anymore.. Memories are part of the brain.. It can be forgotten easily when one have the desire to do so.. When u know that there isn't a point of holding but let go.. Memories will fade.. LoL... Well.. There bound to have somethings to let u recall but not that pain as when it happens.. Hahaz..

Well.. Its kinda late.. Bound head off to bed.. Tomorrow SG birthday.. LoL... Holiday for us.. But I need to do my assignments.. No more lazy mood.. Hahaz....

My Assignment Seems Dying

2010-08-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

Long weekend seems long for everybody as SG celebrating her birthday.. Hmm.. Wanna start my assignment but seems dying to do.. Well.. I need to find one day to die die must do... LoL....

Hmm.. Talked to my friend on phone.. Was devastated when talking to her.. Erz... I wonder why she can't just listen and agree.. Roar.... Drying up my saliva talking to her.. I wanna faintz...

Well.. Intended to head out for dinner.. But kinda late and all of us are lazy.. So mum cooked yi mian for us to eat.. Had dinner le.. Chatted a little with mum & bro regarding where to go on Sun as initially wanna go Vivo in the evening de but I took a nap till kinda late.. Hahaz...

Hmm.. Went online to play game.... No mood....... Then went on msn.. Talk to Plane Flyer ~ Benson as he asked about assignment.. Its dying on us.. Asked the rest all was somehow seems dying too.. Die liao la.. Deadline on 11 Aug.. Need to gambatte liao...

Hmm.. Not long John online.. Had conversation with him & Serene... Then planned to meet up on Sun... Time need to wait till he is back then decide.. LoL...

I wanna eat the Pancake with Corn... Normally 小舅 went to 大马's Magnum outside there buy de.. The uncle normally selling at there.. But if not have to wait till Tues, go Pelangi there got pasar malam can buy also.. But I dun like as not so nice.. Prefer the one at Tun Aminah's Pasar Malam which is only available on Sat... Zzzz... Wanna eat one Pancake so mafan.. Last time town got sell.. Now town not a single sight of it.. Sobz....

Btw that's also my dad's favorite.. LoL... Hmm.. Played awhile and stone.. Then John offline awhile later.. Chatted with Benson & Serene (different windows).. I felt tired and stoney.. So decided to offline..

Wah.. Kinda dead.. Sat somehow spent at home without much activities.. So dead.. Wootz.. Hmm.... KC should be on plane flying to US le bah.. Somehow I had heard complaints about KC and KW.. But hopefully none will spread into 大舅's ears.. If not another blow of family disputes will arise.. What happen last year had been enough as I dun wanna go into another conflict with their mum and kanna another blow of attack which I can't retaliate.. The scar had gone but its not gone in my heart.. I truely bear it in my mind as how she treated my family when my dad passed on.. I totally regretted being so nice to her when Uncle Mike passed on just 3 days after Ah Gong.. At that time I am only 10.. Life is so tiring.. Can I take a break from it? LoL...

Wonderful Dinner Gathering

2010-08-06T23:59:00.003+08:00

Today did a little of my assignment.. Hehez.. Lazy to do but force myself to do it.. LoL.. Played games on com & on wii... Relax here and there...

Then received calls from the guys that they are on their way.. Serene will be coming late.. Mum is at 大舅's house.. Hmm.. Not long the guys reached.. Chatted with them and we ordered Canadian's pizza.. Everybody shared the meal cost together..

After dinner we played Monopoly Deal and few rounds of blackjack.. LoL.. Listen to songs at the same time.. A lot of things went through my mind.. Words are kept and well hidden..

Then John wanna go withdraw money so we went out for a stroll and had 豆花.. LoL.. Then when we head back... Its kinda late so Bry left first.. Then we carried on chit chatting till around 1 plus..

Chatted a little with John.. LoL.. Shared a lot of common thinking.. LoL.. Hmm.. Its kinda late.. Gonna head to bed.. Tired.. LoL

JB & ECP Sea View

2010-08-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

Went back JB and had no intention of doing anything till I received sms that an email was sent for me to develop photos..

Checked it and forward to 小舅 ask him to read the mail and tell me how much to charge I did not remember all the prices..

Most of the time I went back was to do the accounts for the past 1 week.. For instance, I dun earn profit when my friend(s) wanna develop photos..

Well.. 婆婆 called and asked me to head back home for dinner before returning to SG.. No choice.. I always address my 婆婆 as Empress Dowager.. LoL.. Every time she say things, none will go against.. Haha...

Well.. Headed up to have my dinner.. Accompanied 婆婆 awhile.. Kanna bomb a lot of questions.. But I pushed everything to KC.. Haha.. He going US for a week as engineer always travel out for job purpose.. Dun think 婆婆 will remember to ask him when he's back.. LoL..

Then went back town to collect the photos.. Kanna reprimand by 小舅 for charging cheap.. He said, "Tell your friend(s) people dun develop single photo at all.. But u render this service.. Dun always charge them cheap as if they develop a lot..." I am lost of words.. Well friends ma.. Why charge them expensive... Then he said a lot.. I dun think its nice to say everything here.. So overall.. He told me.. If my friends want to develop photos cheap.. Then ask them go other shop.. I was totally silent.. Anyway he said friends are friends, business is business... Wootz.. Totally kanna shoot till I dunno how to retaliate.. LoL..

Headed back SG after that.. Meet up with my 2 Best Buddies.. Wanna go K de.. But one having sore throat.. So we ended up went to ECP.. Serene joined us awhile later.. Enjoying the sea breeze.. Looking at the stars and thinking of Dad..

Hmm.. We talked about plane and the distance travelled before it made an u-turn.. LoL.. Then we tried to say funny stuff.. Hmm.. I am brain dead as my brain was too focus on exams and my bloody assignment was screwed..

Hmm.. Exams over, I can truly go enjoy a little before school sem starts again on Sept 13.. Heard my classmates say we will have the same Bullet Train next sem... Wah... I was like is tat my death bed? LoL...

Yest at ECP a lot of memories with Dad & 阿媽.. Hmm.. Missing them a lot.. After that John drove all of us home.. Played game awhile then I am kinda tired.. Gonna go rest le.. Restless.. LoL

爱一个人好难, 讨厌一个人很容易

2010-08-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

不知道为什么今天好不顺.. 中午到外头吃午餐然后帮我表弟增来买学校鞋以为婆婆打电话通知我.. 好久不前刚买一双给他, 那么快就坏了..

在上学的路上买了KOI 泡泡茶.. 到了学校和同学会和.. 上课几乎都在转简讯也抄了老师给的考试练习但是好多事多讲的因为他说了一些不是终点但和其他的题目也连不上关系.. LoL...

放学等了我小学朋有, 琳爱, 一起回家.. 她今天刚好也有上课所以就一起回.. 碰到一些令我好不愉快的事.. 把想吃夜宵的念头打消掉因为我不想因为一个人的拿不定决定而把食物的美味给败掉.. 出去因该是很快乐的就因为末个白痴破坏了我的Mood..

回到家, 我妈看到我脸无笑容问了我发生什么事.. 把事情的来龙去脉都告诉了她.. 发了简讯跟他们说取消聚餐.. 读了简讯的两位朋友都知道我生气但只有那白吃不懂还问我为什么.. 那个时候我忍气的回"累"..

John 回到家就帮我买了豆浆然后过来找我因为我要跟他换马币.. 不可能要我回到学校那里和他碰面.. 我不想在出门了.. 我原本想玩game的但是我不想和任何人说话.. 就等了好久大概每个人会offline时我才online.. John还在online.. 和他小聊了一会儿, 他就offline了..

没心情玩游戏, 就surf net.. 不知不觉就想到了标题的词.. 人生真的很奇怪.. 我们想要好好爱一个人时, 我们却决得好难.. 一但爱上了然后吵架要分, 就觉得好难分.. 我们只会想到什么是难.. 但是什么是容易的.. 讨厌一人, 恨一个人, 说别人的坏话, 糟蹋别人是最容易的事..

做人为什么不能简单一点呢? 和睦相处很难吗? 有时让一下别人会受委屈吗? 我真的好搞不懂.. 我一直觉得简单就是辛福.. Its typically like when people think for them.. They take others for granted.. I really dun understand what the heck is going on.. Can't they give in a little when others being considerate.. Everything also wanna take but dun wan give.. This type of people are too demanding in life and think too highly of themselves..

When given solution on how to do it.. All it say is dunno.. It deems my mood... I wonder wat's the point of going when the atmosphere and situation already turns unhappy when tat person still doesn't know wat's going on.. I really had nothing to say.. If like tat next time I gonna be blunt with my words.. I dun give a damn on tat person feels.. Since tat person doesn't give a damn on how others feel.. Why should I be so nice then... I can't find reasons to be good in some ways if the same situation gonna surface again.. I will juz give answer of meet or dun meet... If tell me too much.. The conclusion will be dun meet... I won't persuade anymore... Waste my breath and effort to ask and in the end I got nothing but angered... Damn it.. Spoil my day.. I know I shouldn't had asked.. Partially also my fault for being nice to intro more friends for tat person..

Well.. Tat person doesn't appreciate me but in turn said I made it feel as an extra.. Please la.. People talk.. Tat person kept quiet and listen.. Telling me that it can't come into the topic.. WTF!! Mouth is sealed or wat.. Dun understand dunno how to ask.. Want to make friends.. Then bloody open your mouth.. Kept it shut as if people will understand u... I had kept this anger in me for too many days..... All accumulated and blown off..... Ya its all linked.. Tat person only know how to blame others but frankly... I wonder did it look at itself realizing that it does have faults sticking to it instead of blaming.. I dun say no one at fault.. We may neglect tat it doesn't know.. But we had try to get it into topic but it doesn't response and stare blankly at us.... We took the first step but it doesn't appreciate and blame us.. How do I feel? Discriminate my friend(s) to me not once but twice.. Wanting attention from my friend (s) but can't get it and say their bad or watever.. WTF!! Ps guys and gals.. I really dislike this kind of behavior..

I am angered so I blog about it.. I know its not good to talk bad about others.. But I really dunno wat to do... Its really kinda fxxk up attitude of this person.. Firstly it meet my super good friend... Said bad about her because it can't get into the group.. Now.. I intro another 2 of my best buddies since 2002 and it said they focus on me more and it felt like an extra.. I really feel like telling it tat since going out with me & knowing my friends making it feel so extra then jolly well get out of my circle of friend and always be yr loner.. I tried to help it to know more friends so that it won't have to be a loner and enjoy the chilling, crapping and sharing with friends.. But wat type of attitude is this...... I am up to my limits... Should I carry on helping this person or should I give up and let it be wat it is and classify as pointless?

Ps I am really angry till I dunno where to vent my anger... Dun meant to tarnish anything.. But its a way I hope I can get it off my chest and off to bed without it bugging me.. -.-

Stress Mode

2010-08-02T13:45:00.000+08:00

Well.. As I could see my blog is lacked of updates recently.. A month had passed.. Dad already a year.. My exams drawing near..

Apart from studying and mugging.. I had tried to distress by going back to play games with my friends.. Apart from that I meeting John and Bryan frequent for supper..

My gastric attack me again after so many months of silent.. But this time the pain is unbearable.. But medicine ran out.. Mum gave something she bought from polyclinic also for gastric.. But in turn, it stopped my pain a little but gave me rashes all over.. Wootz...

Then mum said go hospital see doc.. But she grumbled all the way there.. I wasn't happy... But I kept silent as I am tolerating the itchiness the rashes are creating.. I had to stop myself from scratching it.. Roar.. Its so unbearable..

Life is so vulnerable.. Too stress u got sick.. My assignment is always hanging in the air.. No motivation to do.. Looking at it.. I was wondering.. Why I couldn't understand it.. Why so difficult.. But when reading the text I bought... Its like I had to understand it myself.. Wat the lecturer taught is wasting her breath..

Well... Fri Serene came over to stay a night at my hse.. She intended to stay another day on sat but her mum grumbled.. Asking her to go home at wee hours of 3am which I personally think is unsafe.. I told her to negotiate with her mum tat she will be home on Sun 7am.. Her mum insisted.. Wootz.. I got no comments.. Accompanied her to take cab.. My mum is worried for my safety..

Reached home.. Mum was grumbling about how Serene's mum could ignore her daughter's safety.. I told mum not to interfere.. Well every family has their probs.. But when not spoken about it doesn't mean no probs..

Dee having exams this week.. But he came to find me yest as he knew I wasn't feeling well from my cousin.. Thanks lo my cousin so.. arz... I trying to drift further as I dun wan to be too close.. I wanna avoid him so that he won't pop anymore question of being together tat kind of stuff.. Many reasons behind about why I dun wanna and I dun like to explain.. So juz let it be..

He accompanied me till dinner time.. Then he left home to join his family for dinner.. He see me play game while he was studying.. Then I took a nap after he left.. Phone start to ring.. LoL.. Disturbed nap eventually.. Sleepy tone.. Woke up around 10 then back to play game with Serene..

Saw her friends.. Well.. I had no comments about them.. Really got a kind of unfriendliness in game.. But who cares.. LoL.... Erm.. I couldn't be bothered.. LoL..

Well.. Today having lesson.. I dunno why I no mood.. I thinking whether should I go lesson or should I juz go for next week class.. Today class juz skipped it.. Hmm.. Thinking wat should I do.. I am so lazy and I rather stay home to study and do assignment... Should I? Wait till the time draw closer then I decide ba.. LoL...

Waited For The Freaking Bus for More Than 15 Mins!!!

2010-06-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today left house on the dot to take bus so that I will reach Somerset Bus stop 5 mins before 123.. Check on Iris, 123 still got a few more minutes to reach.. Hehez.. I dun need to wait too long...

Reached Somerset.. Checked the board.. 123 still got 3 mins.. So I walked to the front to wait for the bus for boarding.. The time board change to arriving.. Hmm.. I waited.. Lots of buses passed by.. But none was 123.. I looked at my watch.. 5 mins past.. Where's the bus?! Freaked out.. I looked at the board again.. Its still showing "Arriving"... So I stood there to wait.. Repeat actions were done every 5 mins.. From 6.10pm, I waited till 6.35pm.. The board showed "Arriving" from 6.15pm to 6.35pm and no bus came at all.. Then the timing change to 11 mins.. WTF!!!! If carry on waiting.. I will be late for school.. Shit one lo.. No choice...

Walked across to 313 and cabbed to school.. Looks like an idiot for the day man.. Holy shit.. Reached school.. None reached.. Xavier's gf, Sugar, joined our FA lesson today.. Crapped a lot and Benson got lots of ammo from Irene and me.. Hahaz.. Due to he is too crap.. LoL.. Then the most freak out joke was that my lecturer asked, "Anyone did homework?" We always do our homework then got shocked that last week got home.. LoL.. I stoned as I got recollection of having homework.. Then when took out the sheets of paper in my file that's when I realized that there was homework but I didn't notice at all.. Wootz!!

After lesson, went to find John as I didn't eat dinner.. Got to know one of his Vios Buddy.. Went to Upp Thomson The Prata House to eat.. I last went there was back in 2007 or 2008 with Debbie & Cheryl.. Got to know another of his Vio clique.. LoL...

After finished eating, John sent me home.. Hmm.. Kinda tired and like wanna fall sick liaoz.. But lucky eating vitamin pills doesn't affect much.. LoL... Alrightz.. Shall blog till here.. LoL..

Late for Class

2010-06-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

Today was late for class sia.. LoL.. Talked to Bee on MSN using itouchie.. LoL.. Totally can't catch what the lecturer is teaching man..

Bused home.. Then went online.. Benson freaking funny sia.. Coz I using Mario's dino as my display pic.. He then say barney is my bf.. Diaoz.. Joke of the day... LoL...

Universal postpone to Aug coz BaoZhuJie said her july a bit tight.. Well... End Aug and Start of Sept having exam.. Then after that my Taiwan trip.. Yes finally I am going Taiwan.. Long Waited sia.. LoL..

Hmm.. Went on FB and realized Wei Li bday was in June but I dunno which day.. He got tell me before but I had forgotten.. Wootz.. Dates seems not important to me anymore.. What happen after last year, the dates after it I never remember at all.. Really not good sia.. LoL...

Played games on FB with John.. LoL.. Trying to out beat each other in Pool Master.. LoL.. Kinda late le.. I gonna head off to bed.. Hope my dear friend will dwell so much on what happen yest.. 哭过就该忘了, this is what I am taught.. Hehez...

A Week Passed

2010-06-27T23:50:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. Bro left hse kinda late today as he book in around 8.30pm.. Didn't went to Pasir Ris with him as if to go and sent him off.. Will be home late.. Had dinner early too..

Hmm.. Earlier on around 9 plus I felt hungry.. Tagged my neighbour to pack Mac for me.. Hehez.. I am lazy to go downstairs.. LoL... This week seems kinda bored.. Earlier was on phone with Serene.. Our lives kinda screwed..

Tomorrow till Wed have lesson.. I do hope my sat and sun will not burn just by staying home.. Kinda bored.. Rather like no life wor.. But who can I find to go out leh.. Its simply I dunno.. LoL.. Rot at home.. LoL..

Well.. Today designed a new blog skin but not intended for here.. Hmm.. Took a me an hour to do.. Hahaz.. I like simple design.. LoL.. Hmm.. I planning to go Scape shopping next week.. I wanna go stage buy their tee.. Hehez.. This is the 2 types of clothing I will be buying.. Comments please.. Hehez..

Should I get the LEGENDS SHIRT RED or BLACK?

For this I wanna get but its out of stock.. Zzzz... So I think I getting this instead..

Any Suggestions? Hehehez.. Whether should I get the red or black shirt.. LoL.. May take a lot from www.ilovestage.com.sg.. Hehez..

Life is Boring

2010-06-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

Yest kinda bored.. Went Vivo in the late afternoon.. Bought some home stuff.. Then went City Square to buy dinner.. After that head home.. Bro went to meet his buddies so left mum & me to have dinner..

Its a Sat and I am staying home.. Its feels so dead.. Mon ~ Fri most of my days I am at home.. Even a Sat I am still at home.. Kinda bored.. Wanna go out but its rather bored to shop alone.. Who can I call? I dunno.. Scroll through my list and I give up in the end.. Watch DVD till I stoned and lastly I fell asleep.. Its so dead to me.. I really dun like to stay on weekends..

Really seems so lonely and deserted.. Wonder is this the feeling of old people whom their kids dun wan them? Hmm.. I am tired of talking and everything.. It seems like no matter how much I try to improve in speaking the right things.. But somehow the more I talk the more mistakes I make.. I am getting tired of life.. I really finds no motivation of living on.. I looked at my mum and bro.. They dun need me at all.. I am like an extra living and doing my best to make everyone happy.. But deep down I am not happy.. Why no one notice this? Haiz....

Bro Book Out Day!!

2010-06-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

Today bro booked out kinda late.. Wootz.. Morning around 11 plus went back JB to did some stuff.. Too much to do and some work had to be postpone to next week.. Its personal stuff so still ok to postpone.. LoL...

Went returning back SG, bus went off.. No bus.. Got to wait.. Zzzz.. While waiting John called.. He is around that area.. So he said he can fetch me home.. Hehez.. So went to the Woodlands Checkpoint Taxi stand to wait for him.. Reached home not long.. Its definitely faster than taking bus.. LoL.. Thanks John giving me a ride home.. Hehez...

Reached home.. Bro not home yet.. Wah.. Wonder why so late.. Mum called him.. Its 8.30pm.. He just reached Pasir Ris only.. Wootz.. I am freaking hungry... Thinking what did I ate for lunch.. 4 regular whipped potatoes & a drumstick with a packet of 1 litre Chrysanthemum drink.. LoL..

In the end I cooked maggi to eat.. While I was finishing my food.. My bro came home.. Wootz.. Went down for dinner.. I am too full to eat but nibble the food a little.. Downstairs zhi cao food rather salty.. Making thirsty kinda fast.. LoL... Reached home, continued my DVD and I finished watching the epi.. Gonna watch new show again.. I got too much show to watch le.. LoL.. Tomorrow is sat.. I got no plans.. Weekend seems so dead for me.. Who can I asked to go out? Everybody is attached.. Think of that feels so bored.. Gonna rest and see what to do tomorrow bah..

Social Session ~ ~ ~ LoL

2010-06-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today went for my Final Theory Test.. I finally did it.. Hahaz.. Alrightz.. Next up shall go practice driving and book for my practical.. Hehez...

Hmm.. Came back home and took a nap.. Received call that Benson flying plane that his gf is sick and both of them can't go KTV le.. Wah... Screwed.... So I tried to see who to call.. Irene also fly us plane.. Its like cannot be only 5 of us singing bah.. So called Michelle.. She is fine to go.. Hahaz...

Dropped back to sleep and woke up to watch my dvd.. Then went to prepare.. I see the time on iris.. Left exactly to catch the bus but I missed it.. Diaoz.... Late by 5mins.. LoL.. Then went to eat at Scape.. Saw Stage shop... Hmm.. Giving it a miss today.. Find one day then go there shop.. Hehez.. Maybe next Thurs then go buy clothes.. Hehez.. Dunno wanna buy the hoody shirt or a tee.. Hoody shirt is S$115 while the tee is cheaper.. Feel like buying both.. LoL.. Shall think about it.. LoL...

Hmm.. Had LJS for dinner and first time eating LJS using hands a bit weird.. I prefer to have forks.. LoL... Not long Michelle joined us.. She pack Mac to sneak into KBox to eat.. Hahaz.. Then after that we went to Kbox.. Have a nice scenery wor.. LoL.. Then the system is a bit ok la.. Juz the remote really CMI.. Hahaz...

Lastly, we end K session.. Left Cine.. Xavier & Sugar took train while Mich, Kel, John, Bryan & me went to Chomp Chomp to have supper.. LoL.. After supper, John drove Bryan & me back home.. Kinda tired.. Tomorrow heading back JB to do some work.. Dunno why this week I feel so lethargic and giddy.. Maybe I took less sugar stuff ba.. Kinda in 贫血situation..

Photos of the day:

School Daze

2010-06-23T23:45:00.001+08:00

Today went to class as usual.. Thought will be late as I left house kinda late.. Then I reached school at 1830 and none of my mates reached.. LoL.. Hardly reached school earlier.. Mostly will be around 1840..

Hmm.. Benson as usual is late and uncontactable.. Xavier reached not long after.. Then planned to walk to classroom.. Benson reached and was in canteen with Irene buying drinks. So we waited.. Hmm.. Saw lecturer went to SCU so dun think lesson will start so fast..

Hmm.. Today lecturer kinda more on practice and when lecturer was talking about the interpretation of ratios. I went blank.. Couldn't focus.. Dee lesson ended at 2045.. LoL.. Saw his car not at the lot.. Hahaz.. I didn't msg him as I still have lesson on after my break.. Anyway I meeting John and maybe Bryan after my class for supper..

After break, did some practice and listen to the explanation when I am half into my own world.. LoL.. Lesson ended.. Waited for John.. Not long he arrived.. Went to Clementi near NUS there to have prata as Bryan not joining us..

Persuaded John to go for the KTV.. He kept telling me see how.. LoL.. Hmm.. After supper, he sent me home.. Well.. Hope he can walk out of his agony.. Its not easy but hope he tries.. I went through that so I know how it feels.. John Jiayou!!

Well... Tomorrow having my Final Theory Test.. Haven study. Dunno can make it mah.. Hopefully I will pass.. Bro told mum that he most likely will book out on Fri.. Bro not home, will like somehow miss him... Hahaz.. Well.. I got to go sleep liaoz.. Tomorrow have to wake up early.. LoL...

Black & White

2010-06-22T23:00:00.003+08:00

Yest got home from Sch.. Mum told me bro called home to tell her that he waking up 2 or 3am for training.. Dunno how's my bro doing in camp.. Well.. Thurs only then will know he booking out on Fri or Sat..

Slept at 3am yest.. Playing on iTouch.. Haiz.. Kept thinking of stuff.. Well.. Its about myself la.. Hmm.. When alone and no one disturbs.. I tend to think and wonder a lot.. What to improve.. Where to improve and How to improve.. Then will dragged further to think about future, real life, dreams, hopes and the only thing when I thought of which make me shut my thinking was how to not being alone which is impossible.. LoL..

Morning woke up by mum as usual.. When she wakes up, the world have to wake up with her.. She will start to open & close the cupboard door loudly, then open the room door several times and lastly putting on her fragrance which is most irritating to my nose.. Left with no choices but to get up.. Roar..... Said her many times on the noise level but turned to deaf ears.. Btw I have sensitive nose those prickly smell or dust will trigger my nose to drool badly like running water..

Got up and went to my study room and l laid back onto bed and doze off again.. Hahaz.. Then the next moment I woke up is already 11 plus.. Went to wash up and mum intended to go out to do some things.. I lazy to go with her so stayed home.. Went on MSN.. Purposely not going on to Skype..

Watched DVD and stone.. Went on FB and stone.. Precisely today seems to be stoning for me.. LoL.. Mum not long came home.. Then had my lunch with her while watching tv.. Suddenly mum asked me, "Jie Jie, When are you going to find a bf huh?" Wah I totally stoned at my mum's question.. Dunno how to answer her... Really diaoz that kind lo...... Then I asked her, "Why want matchmake ar.." Now mum's turn to diaoz.. Hahazz... Asked me such question out of the blue.. Really make me daze.. I really stone more today than ever man.. LoL..

Well share a little funny stuff of my family.. Haha.. My family kinda weird.. My mum always likes to address my dad as daddy, my bro as di di and she called me jie jie.. While I called mum as Ah Mi, my dad as Ah Di and my bro as Ah Boy.. LoL.. My dad will call my mum girl, called my bro english name and for me, he called my chinese name instead.. LoL.. Well Bro and I called our parents same way.. Sounds closer bah.. LoL..

Hmm.. Slacked till around 4 plus then went to prepare for school.. Gonna get my BM textbook back from bookshop.. So long liaoz.. Not yet sold off.. Suan le.. Take it as a reference book also not bad.. LoL.. Waited for 65 damn long.. Took 67 instead to Bukit Timah.. Stupid bus driver keep jerking and made me feel like puking.. Then I see the time can in time reached bus stop for bus transfer.. But in the end I missed my next bus because he kept braking unnecessarily.. Roar.. Dee msg me regarding why I didn't go on Skype and I made excuses..

I reached school around 6.45pm.. I ordered Breakfast Set and the uncle told me have to wait.. I dun mind.. Haha.. When I sees that its ready, I went to collect it.. The uncle who is always so stunned looking suddenly passed me my Breakfast Set and tell me "Good Morning".. I totally stoned and went back to find my classmates.. Shared with them the sudden freeze out moment that uncle gave.. LoL.. Not bad leh.. Stunned looking doesn't mean dunno how to joke.. LoL...

Went for our lesson.. Today lesson was at blk C106 and when we walked into the classroom.. I could say the classroom was filled with foul stench.. The smell was like some insect repellent kind.. Aircon also not that strong.. Lacked of oxygen and through the lesson, I felt super giddy and partial of my vision was off that I had to close my eyes several times to get myself back on track.. Its really torturing..

Went for a short break was really a good time for some breather too.. Linger outside our classroom.. Only enters when lecturer was back.. Endure for another hour till lesson ends.. Went to take bus home.. Hmm.. Not long bus came.. Hahaz.. Not much people on bus some more.. Shiok.. Hehez.. I was thinking of things that my friends told me.. Well... My circle of friends seems small.. Maybe when I am back in work force, chances of knowing people more will be greater ba... Hahaz.. I think being alone for some time is enough le.. I also hope the right one will appear soon la.. So that I won't be ask again on when I am gonna start a new r/s or do I have anyone on mind huh.. Hahaz..

Finally Started My BM Assignment & Queries about the death of my Jovial Daddy

2010-06-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

Woke up and slacked awhile.. Went City Square Mall to shop and bought some DVDs, foot massager for mum and groceries.. Spent S$100 and got lucky draw.. I got this:

Wootz!!!

Had Subway for lunch and after that went to TPY to meet Xavier to buy KOI and headed to school together.. LoL.. Benson reached school at 3.30pm and as expected.. He is reading newspaper.. LoL...

Hmm.. Then we find seats to settle down.. Passed Benson his FA notes as he last week had reservist so didn't attend lesson.. Lent him BM notes to copy.. LoL.. Then I started doing my project.. Trying to be funny.. I search everything on Wiki instead of through references.. LoL.. Slowly la.. Hahaz.. Online can get books references.. May head down to Central Library one day.. Wonder will there be any kind peeps wanna accompany me or I am juz a lonely soul.. LoL...

Well.. I FB-ed more than doing my assignment.. LoL.. Then around 6pm we headed off to our classroom to put our bags and went to have dinner at canteen.. Xavier thought I would be having Breakfast Set but I didn't ordered Chicken Chop but the meat is so thin and the portion is small.. LoL..

Then we started talking about relationship and discussed about Thurs KTV.. Well.. They are more interested on when will I be in a relationship.. Diaoz... Thanks for the concern huh.. LoL.. I am kinda like the odd one out who is single in our group.. LoL.. But it doesn't really matter ya.. Hahaz..

If got fate then say la.. I also dunno when will the day comes.. I think if keep looking forward to it, it will flow to yr side but it will drift far away.. Well.. Taking things slowly.. Although tomorrow is unknown.. So what for think about it.. Hahaz.. We can plan and plan and plan.. But will it come a not.. We are unsure.. LoL...

Class was as usual.. Lecturer spoke fast, slides going fast and I am taking down notes aimlessly and missing some pointers coz she goes to the next slide without waiting for people to digest.. Then I slowly becomes stoning and continuing what I am doing without any understanding.. LoL.. Seems dead huh.. Hahaz...

Lesson ended slightly a little late today and I missed my bus.. Next bus was fast today.. Hahaz.. Didn't wait too long. Yeah!! After lesson seems so tired.. LoL.. Dragging my foot to the bus stop.. As I am walking Dee msg me that he ended lesson.. But I didn't wait for him as I am lazy to wait.. Hahaz...

Hmm.. Having received messages regarding how my dad passed away and some of u also requested that u wanna know from the day he went hospital till we scattered his ashes.. So I think I will say just every thing in detail of we did, feel and done during that period.. Alrightz.. Lazy to re-type so many times.. So had asked all of u to come my Blog instead... Here's the answer u all want.. (I tried to remember as detailed as possible as I dun wanna remind myself about the incident.. **Heart Breaks**)

On 9 July 2009, Thursday, as usual I woke up to prepare to work.. Kinda lethargic as the day before slept late due to talking and joking around too much with Dad.. But today doesn't seem as much usual as the other days..

I walked out of my room, heading my way to the living room.. I saw a shadow.. Eyes still blurry.. Stood at the alter and blinked a few times.. I saw Dad was pacing up and down from the window to the middle of the living room.. He was holding onto his head..

Then I greeted him as usual, "Daddy, Good Morning.. (No one expect this is the last morning that he gonna hear that I am greeting him..)"

Then my dad replied erm... and continued to rub and hit his head lightly with his hands... Then I started to notice.. My dad's tongue a little slurred... I started to ask him, "Daddy what happen to u?"

Dad answered me in an uncleared voice, "My head hurts.. Dunno what happen.."

We go see doctor now want a not.. My dad doesn't believe in doctor.. He replied, "No.."

Then I was panicked and asked, "Daddy, u want take a sit a not? Maybe will feel a bit better.."

Dad replied, "No.."

I asked again, "U really dun want see doc ar... I think u better see leh.."

Dad replied, "No......."

I dunno what to do.. I called Bro... Then called mum.... Bro didn't get to talked to dad... He hold dad's hand and told me, "Jie, Daddy's hands are cold.." I am having cold feet.. Then suddenly dad started to struggle.. Mum asked Dad wanna go hospital.. Dad still insist dun wan.. I know my dad wanna passed on at home.. Then mum suggested to him to go hospital.. He had no choice but to give in then..

I called the ambulance as somehow admin stuff of my dad I knew it all.. Then shortly the ambulance arrived.. The medics could not get the reading of my dad's BP and heart rate.. I was frozen.. Scared stiffed.. They told me its critical and need to rush to hospital.. Then dad wanna vomit but nothing came out.. Not long.. Dad's saliva started to bubbling.. We knew its something worse we got to prepare but dunno how worse is it gonna to be at that moment.. I told them my dad had records in TTSH... So they sent him there.. Mum went with them..

Bro and I changed then we took cab down.. Bro keep tell me to relax.. I dunno how to.... When we reached hospital, tried to locate for mum.. Then mum told me what happen in the ambulance.. Dad struggled in the ambulance when try to inject something.. Mum wasn't allow to see.. Dad screamed.. When they arrived in hospital.. Dad was in coma..

Saw Dad being pushed for a brain scanned.. Tried to call him but no answer.. Not long the Neurologist came to us.. He said my Dad a brain hemorrhage.. I replied, "Is there any operation able to cure my dad?"

The doc gave me a disappointed look.. My heart and mood totally went down to negative.. He said, "Your dad's main brain stem was damaged.. No operation will actually bring him back to life.."

Bro and mum was more stable and I collapsed... I can't take that piece of news at all.. I told Dad I will be strong no matter what but I broke my promise.. Then the doc told me I could do the admission stuff for my dad..

I wanted Dad to B ward.. But they say that my dad condition is critical.. He only be warded into C... I wasn't pleased but well.. No choice.. Dad then was transferred from A & E to C ward ICU..

Looked at Dad, spent most of my time with Dad and talked to him.. Observed Dad a little.. Saw his thin white hair growing on his mustache & eyebrows.. He is also breathing with machine assisted with tubes being inserted down his throat.. Goosebumps were seen on me as it really let me feels the pain Dad was going through.. Then Dad had some reflexes but Doc said its his body muscles reflecting and he said my Dad doesn't feel any pain at all coz his body is no longer connected to the brain.. Not my dad's brain controlling his movements.. I was puzzled at the terms of Brain Hemorrhage so I went to ask the Doc in-charge of my dad.. He is kinda kind.. He took a piece of paper and drew out the layout for me to understand (Well u can wiki the term of it, I am lazy to explain).. Bro was with me.. While mum was resting at the visitor's corner.. I got the whole pic.. But the doc told me not to worry.. They will monitor him.. If there's any changes in my dad's condition or what they inform us..

Bro went out to accompany mum.. I informed all my Uncles, Aunts and M'sia Relatives.. Well tried to be calm to called them.. Hardly speak dialects and lucky my dad trained me frequently at home to speak my dialect.. So when talking my dad's siblings, I will not face probs.. Thanks Dad... Well.. My dad is the youngest in the Family so I got a lot to call..

My uncles & aunts all came.. M'sia I asked them dun come coz a bit ma fan.. 小舅 got to help me tend shop and do business.. Then Po Po is old and I kept it from her.. 阿姨dun say.. She afraid to hear such news.. But Ah Wei came visit my dad..

Spent our days and nights in the hospital.. When my uncles and aunts are there.. We went home to bath and brush our teeth.. Ya no one will believe it.. I am kinda pampered till I had never slept on chairs before.. No comfy bed I won't sleep.. But since Dad went into coma.. I day and night slept on the chairs.. Lying straight with my backpack is my head rest.. My jacket as my blanket to pass my nite there.. Once in awhile wake up to check on my dad and talked to him.. But no responses.. Helped Dad to wipe his face and get the dirt out of his eye..

Friends came to visit.. Helped me packed lunch and dinner.. I am appreciate when my friend did.. Everyday without fail.. Then on the 13 July 2009, Monday.. The doc did a reviewed on my dad.. He spoke to me and my bro.. He said that he give us 2 days to decide whether to unplug the tube from my dad to let him breath on his own till his last breath or let them operate on him by doing a opening at my dad's throat to let him breathe but nursing care will be needed after that as now my dad seems to able to breath on his own and depend less on the machine.. (Got improvement.. I was happy to know that but sad to know when I questioned further)

I asked the doc, "If we let u operate my dad, will he be able to wake up and speak to us?"

The doc replied, "Sorry, after operation.. Your dad doesn't have to insert the tube into his mouth as opening at his throat will be helping him to breathe and he will still like now lying there without any movements.."

Then I asked again, "So what's the survival rate between operating and unplugging the tube to allow my dad breathe on his own?"

The doc replied, "Operating him may allow him to survive for 6 months with proper nursing care if unplugging the tube to allow him to breathe on his own, he may last only a few hours to a few days.. If miracles maybe months.. But mostly this kind of patient, they dun last that long.."

I was totally lost at this moment... How much I wished that 9 July doesn't come at all.. Time just stopped at 8 July... Then bro told me, "Jie I dun wan Daddy to have a hole at his throat.. I dun Daddy to pass on ugly.. Can we maintain his beautiful features?"

Mum also pleaded me.. I replied, "I have no intention of letting Dad to go through operation.. They operate or not.. Daddy will still leave us.. Daddy no longer can joke with us.. We can't be back to what we could do like on 8 July.."

Bro then asked me, "So we let Daddy breathe till his last using his own breath?"

I said, "I think this is the best choice for Dad as Dad told us before that he is prepared for this day to come but just dunno when.. Since the decision is so harsh but seems like its predicted... We followed what Dad had requested.. Fulfilled his last wish.."

2 days passed, 15 July 2009, the doc asked us for an answer... My youngest Aunt asked the doc to give Bro and me another day to decide as this is the life of my dad and its in our hands.. She dun wan us to feel regret about it..

We had planned everything for Dad since the day he admitted hospital.. The person to find for his funeral and everything.. We got the contacts on hand.. Then the following day, 16 July 2009, at 11am.. The doc approached us.. Everyone is in hospital today as we knew my dad either survives tonight or no.. So everyone took off and be at his side to accompany him walk his last on earth..

I took the courage to give my decision... The doc then say alright.. He will do the removal at 11.30am.. So I asked for some personal time with my dad.. Spoke to him.. Hope Dad can survived and be strong.. I finished the personal time with dad.. Looking at his BP, heart rate, breathing rate and remember the numbers..

Then we went out to rest.. I was in a daze.. I totally cannot think anymore.. I went in to accompany Dad.. They dun allow me to see the removal of the tube.. So I waited outside Dad's ward.. It took 10mins for the removal.. Then the doc say he will monitor my dad for a while.. If he's stable.. They will move him to the normal ward..

So was looking at my dad's condition.. He was doing fine.. He is trying his very best to breathe on his own.. I kept tell my dad to jiayou.. He showed me he is trying his best.. At around 5pm.. The doc spoke to us.. He said my dad's condition is stabled.. So they are moving him to ward 10D.. So we waited for the nurse to push my dad out before we went 10th floor...

When they had settled my dad, I went to do a check.. I was freaking particular about how they handle my dad.. Then I realized my dad wasn't being place properly.. His fingers suddenly turned black.. I was furious.. I called for nurse but no one reacted.. WTF!!! I screamed and scolded them from my dad's bed.. Then they gave attention.. KNS... This is the service of C class.... Wat lousy service is this.. Then I told the staff nurse... Oxygen lacked and patient not being placed properly.. This is called the care of a nurse.. Where's your responsibility? I am angry.. I lost control of my temper.. I flung at everyone who did a slightest mistake.. Then slowly everything back to normal and I am at eased...

I had no appetite for dinner.. So I accompanied Dad while the rest went for dinner.. Not long they are back.. Then we chatted and I told them Dad's hands are getting icy cold.. Bro tried to feel Dad's pulse and its faint.. We then looked at the machine.. Heart rate is dropping.. We called everyone in.. We knew Dad is leaving.. As told by Dad that before he leaves, Bro and me got kneel next to him to give him our last respect.. We did as told.. No tears shed... 7.35pm my dad left to another world.. Got the doc to check and everything.. Bro went to report Dad's death and get the funeral service to come and collect Dad's body.. Then I told bro to let them know that Dad didn't want to donate any of his organs and we collecting the body right away..

I stayed with Dad's body.. He left in peace.. Dad's was totally cold.. Not long they came and collect Dad's body.. Then we went off to the Funeral Service shop to choose Coffin.. Its freaking eerie in there.. I had goosebumps.. Chose a nice one for Dad... Then we looked at Dad's body before leaving for home..

We couldn't sleep at all.. Really can't take the lost of my dad.... Sitting at Dad's fave spot and stone.. Got my neighbour to help out with the praying stuff as I knew nuts about it and I am not into it.. While Bro knows a little and so does mum.. They did what they could and I was packing Dad's clothes to be put into the coffin.. Everything was done till wee hours.. Then I ate a little but no appetite..

Next day morning around 9am, went down to wait for Dad's body and not long it arrived.. Did all the rituals and everything.. Stoned at there.. Looked at my Dad.. Dunno what to do... 5 days of wake and funeral was on 20 July 2009.. Went Mandai to Cremate my Dad's body.. Then on 21st July 2009, went back Mandai to collect Dad's Ashes and went Changi to take a boat out to sea to scattered the ashes.. Well.. That's the last we had in contact with Dad's body..

Well.. While typing all this.. Memories really flashed back and I realized I didn't missed out any.. Its like everything was juz yesterday.. Tears still rolled down my face as I typed.. I dun think I will forget what had happened on that day.. So to all kind souls, let this be the last u asked about my dad's death as I dun wanna repeat it anymore.. It really feels super pain in the heart and mind... Thanks a lot...

Why Why Why!!!!!!!

2010-06-20T23:45:00.001+08:00

Today had Mac Breakfast Deluxe with Bro.. Mum bought it for us.. Hahaz... I dun drink coffee as gastric flu attacked.. Minimized on it.. Hehez.. Then after that helped bro to pack his bag.. Hehez..

After that talked to 宝珠姐 on phone.. Yeah...... Misunderstanding is cleared.. Saw 宝珠姐 msg on phone.. She msg me at 3am and I read it at 9am.. LoL... Hmm.. Talked to her... 宝珠姐 then tell me, "达浪 if fate comes dun push away le...." LOL!!! I replied her, "宝珠姐 where will have fate... My surrounding friends mostly are attached.. Hahaz.. Let time decide la.. Dun think better.. The more I think, dun think it will come.. Hahaz.." Think 宝珠姐 wanna faint liaoz.. Hahaz...

Didn't eat lunch as freaking full.. Hehez.. Hmm.. Watched tv with mum and bro.. Hehez.. Then talked to John online.. Surfed webbie a little then went to prepare as going Pasir Ris with Bro..

He had to book in by 1810.. LoL.. Wanna eat at Tamp de but time constraint.. So went to Pasir Ris and accompany him to have dinner.. Mum ate chicken rice, same as bro while I ate 水晶包 & Custard 包.. LoL..

After that accompanied bro to the bus interchange and looked at him boarding the bus before heading home.. Hmm.. Not long saw Bry msg and missed call... So returned his call.. Meet him at Bugis to walk walk and while waiting for me.. He bought 2 shirts and one of it is buy 1 get 1.. LoL.. Then I wanna drink Koi... So we headed over to Iluma... Walked over the overhead bridge...

Hmm.. When was deciding what to drink and what size should we take.......... Guess What... I noticed the height, the familiar voice and at a closer look.. I saw him.. He is in front of me.. I turned and whisper to Bry and stoned.. Bry looked at me and I was like freaked out.. Ya its like a year plus and always on the streets and I never bumped into him before.. Why of all its muz be today.... I thought I could really enjoy my time and forget about what had happened.. But why I muz bumped into him.. Need to be so coincidence ma.. Bry then pulled me away.. We went to walk around.. He tried to get me out of the freaked out moment.. But my mind wandered.. I wasn't in my right mind.. Sorry Bry.. Thanks for the effort.. Then we decided to head to Arcade.. Played Juke Box.. First Time playing it and I failed.. Hahaz...

Then left 1 credit on the card.. I wanna play the drum.. But the censor was lousy.. I tried to hit but no reaction.. Roar!!! Then went to refund the card and got back the dollar.. Hahaz... No point keeping the card la... That's what I thought...

After that went to buy Koi.. Finally he's gone.. Treat Bry a drink.. Dunno why I suddenly think of Daddy.. LoL... I have been dreaming of Daddy for the past few nights and woke up from it to realized that I am dreaming.. Haiz.. I really missed Daddy badly..

Well.. After that Bry accompanied me to walk home.. Showed him where's my blk and after that I told him, I wanna accompanied him to the bus stop as not much people knows where my hse bus stop is.. LoL..

Accompanied him to wait for bus and not long his bus came.. So parted and I walked home.. Well.. When walking back, memories replaying in my mind.. But I told myself its time to give up and let go..

Thinking back at what 宝珠姐 said and I asked myself, "我的缘分来了吗? 我会一个人过活吗？我不想一个人了..." Really dunno lo.. Haiz.... Actually happy become moody again.. Then Bry told me he sometimes alone eat dinner.. Then I tell him.. He can asked me de.. I can meet him eat dinner liaoz then go sch meet my classmates de.. LoL.. Dinner won't take up much time either.. Lesson also dun start that accurately either.. LoL...

Well.. Moody but Bry tried to make me back to normal.. Joke a little.. I felt a bit better.. LoL.. We even joked about what if John was there.. What will happen.. Haha.... Imagination sometimes juz make a person livelier huh.. LoL.. Then home and FB.. I then realized that today is Father's Day.. Maybe bcoz Dad no longer around and I had forgotten about today.. I somehow lost touch on time as well.. LoL.. Alrightz shall share some photos of my bro.. Hahaz....

宝珠姐生日快乐 :D

2010-06-19T23:45:00.000+08:00

Well.. Today is the big big day of 宝珠姐.. Hahaz.. A lot of misunderstandings.. Stupid craps from our friend, Nic.. Thanks huh.. Today went out to Beach Road with Bro as he wanna get stuff for his army.. LoL...

He go army put on 4 Kg of weight.. LoL.. But he now not so cool cool le.. Hahaz.. He kept talking to me.. LoL.. Shared a lot and its like we dun really talk that much after he was in Sec 3.. LoL.. Things changed, mind set changed and character changed.. The changes was done when my grandma passed away..

Well.. After gotten his stuff we went City Square to get my lappy bag.. Hehez.. Then went to have lunch at KFC.. Bro is tired of Mixed Veg Rice.. LoL.. After that we went to get some skin care for his face.. Pimps are popping out.. LoL..

Then done shopping.. Headed back home.. I wanna watched DVD de.. But in the end I dozed off in my study room.. Lucky I got bed in my study room if not I gonna have strained neck.. LoL.. Hmm.. Wanna woke up a few times but failed.. Keep get stucked in my dreamz.. Wootz.. Finally woke up.. Then headed out to eat my dinner with mum & bro.. Discussed on what to do the tomorrow.. Hehez.. Chatted with John online.. Then packed my room a little..

Discussed with bro regarding Dad's 1 Year Death Anniversary.. SPH sent me a brochure to put up a column on obituary.. Since my dad got no ancestor tablet or anything.. We decided to put in newspaper as a memory..

Flight for Taiwan trip booked and confirmed.. Flying right after my exam.. Going there to do settle some stuff for my dad.. Then shopped a few days before returning.. Planning of migrating to Switz as that's what dad wanna do and had planned all along.. Well.. I have not plan anything of migrating so far.. Not in the near future also.. Had too much to let go over here.. Well.. Kinda tired.. Stomach felt weird.. Toilet runs again.. Wootz..

Gonna turned in for the day.. Lastly, 宝珠姐 Happy 23rd Birthday wor.. Hehez.. Hope you enjoy your day... :)

Moody Moody Moody

2010-06-18T23:59:00.001+08:00

Actually a normal meet for a movie and dinner was to be fine and happy occasion.. But how come it turns out be.. I dun wanna talk about it anymore.. I felt like an idiot being fooled.. Chided the person but the reply was kinda heck care.. Haiz... Really no words to say..

I wanna give BaoZhuJie a good birthday celebration lo.. But in the end it seems to be a disappointment.. I do not eat much yest as where got mood... Everything seems so dull and out of place.. The card and present I wanna give to her on the surprise which Dickson had on planned on Fri.. Thanks so much that all my plan was soiled...

Morning woke up.. Totally felt giddy and wanna vomit.. What the hell is with me.. Yest already so shitty.. Wanna make up for the mistakes I made and give BaoZhuJie a better surprise today but I fall sick.. Really feel like banging wall.. Life is so shitty...

No choice... Life screwed, Plan Screwed & Friendship Relation is Screwed.. Forget it.. Life is a piece of shit anyway.. Treasure it or dump it.. Life with friends or neither, does it makes a diff.. I dunno.. I seems so lost now...

Run toilet for 5 times.. Whatever went into my body came out.. No balance.. Msg Dickson that I can't make it to help BaoZhuJie celebrate.. I dun wan to go especially when I know I gonna collapse.. I dun wan to spoil her day again.. Well.. Asked Nic to collect the surprise for BaoZhuJie..

Hmm.. I wanna get the Kitty Soft Toy for her very long le.. Had been counting down the days to her big day.. Pre-ordered it.. Finally thought can give it to her personally but I am down.. Think will make it up to her some other day.. Really utterly disappointed.. Thought I could give her a good bday memories but I failed..

I felt lousy at the same time.. Am I really a good friend or a lousy friend? I dunno.. Demoralized was what I could describe.. Strayed and hidden.. Fever attacked me late in the night.. Thanks huh.. I took panadol and head to bed.. Somehow.. I remembered that I did not wished BaoZhuJie Happy Bday as its past 12 midnight.. Woke up and send her a msg then I falls back to sleep..

Photo of the day:

This is what I got for BaoZhuJie.. :)

A Bluff Bday Celebration By Nic

2010-06-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

I initially wanna meet BaoZhuJie watched movie de.. I dun have the intention to celebrate her bday.. Stupid Nic give wrong info.. Roar.. Angry but dunno wat to say... Coz I know I will be late coz from JB to SG leh... I sure need some travelling time...

Nic really hor.. Idiotz... I told him today juz meet for movie.. He say never mind la.. Today just make Katty Moody.. Give her surprise some other day... Wah.. I super dun like this idea.. I that time told Katty that today meet for movie lo.. Aiya plan spoiled.. But really dunno how to explain.. Really screwed my intention lo.. Apart from Nic I didn't tell anyone the plan..

Feeling super guilty today lo.. I initially dunno that Katty thought we celebrating her bday today.. When Bry called me whether wanna go dinner.. I asked to join us.. I thought dinner than movie.. Nothing much... When I got to know this freaking set up that why Katty was pissed about Nic not turning up and I am late after Dickson called followed by Nic..

Wah... A bit like shit.... I didn't know all this till now.. Then I can planned my stuff.. Really no coordination lo.. I was fed-up lo.. When said him.. He tell me never mind la.. Purpose is to make her moody... Wah.. I dun like lo.. People want go out is to be happy lo... I really at a lost when he told me that...

I today go JB got a lot of things to do lo.. Apart of developing photos.. I also doing my surprises for Katty.. Finalizing her presents and everything.. Nic u really spoiled my good plan... I today doesn't have the mind set of celebrating Katty's bday but bcoz of u.. She thought we celebrating her big day.. Darned.. I dun like to see gloomy face when meet up especially I so long didn't meet her le... Roar....

After that I really rushed my way down.. Cabbed here and there... I really dislike it and kanna blame... I really got no choice but to bear the blame bcoz of an idiot who said the wrong things.. I that time told Katty that meet today for movie.. I didn't say much.. The Nic really act smart de.. Go add in salt and water.. I now also kinda moody.. Wanna apologize but dunno how to do so.. Coz the whole thing was totally screwed.. What can I do.... I can't disclosed any plans like that no more surprises le.. Roar.... Sometimes when want give people surprises.. They bound to be people to spoil the good old plan... Roar.... Wonder who can understand this agony... I wanna explain during dinner.. But I can't do so.. BaoZhuJie I got to tell u that after your birthday coz if now tell u.. Surprises are all gone.. Forgive me wor..

Went to watch Karate Kid.. The movie is really nice lo.. Thumbs up for it.. After movie.. Bry asked them to leave first as we waiting for John.. So we went to wait at the main road.. Not long John arrived.. Went for supper at ECP.. Then I realized I dropped my handphone strapped which I bought with BaoZhuJie.. Mood down to zero.. Today seems like not my day...

In JB got angry bcoz what suggested to my uncle for the customer, turned to deaf ears. Then told my mum things also turned to deaf ears.. Wah... Today like super suay de lo.. Then back to SG face such screwed stuff.. What the hell... What's wrong with today? Its seems totally screwed.. I really no mood and in the end.. I was stoning while the guys are talking... I really dunno wat to do.. But had msg BaoZhuJie to explain the situation.. Hope she understand.. Haiz.. Really screwed up day man...

Lastly, Thanks John for sending me home after Bry.. Although I suggested he fetched both Bry and me home coz dunno got last train a not.. He didn't reject my request.. Thanks Thanks.. :)

Orchard FlooDed Becomes The Biggest News of All

2010-06-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

Rain started Pouring at 2am near 3am yest.. Hmm.. It rained till today late afternoon 3pm.. 12 hours of rain and partial S'pore was flooded.. Saw BaoZhuJie's and Debbie's post in FB.. I was surfing CNA webbie at that moment.. Wah.. It was quite a shock.. LoL..

Went to City Square with mum.. Gastric Flu still haunting me.. Making me reluctant to go sch.. I know I dun go lo coz I totally not in the mood to study.. When u are sick, u totally no mood to do anything.. Hmm.. Bought some stuff and headed back home.. Had LJS for lunch..

Xavier msg me asking me whether am I going to buy Koi.. I intended to.. So meet him at TPY to buy.. Well.. I am sorry to hear about his lost.. But we were discussing about the lousiness of SG hospital for the after care.. Negligence was found in most of the nursing care given.. Disappointing man..

Then we bused to school.. Ate our dinner in school.. Guess what!! I saw the classmate of mine back in my Dip days.. Till today she is still doing her Dip and Adv Dip.. I am kinda bad about it la.. Coz since the day I got into MDIS, I knew that she flung most of her subs during her PC and when in Dip she also flung.. Diaoz de lo.. Msg Bee about it.. LoL.. Tomorrow will share this piece of news with BaoZhuJie as we dun really like her..

Kinda like waste of money in repeating lo.. Sch fees in our sch is not cheap.. If she can repeat so many times means she is freaking rich sia.. LoL... Lesson today was kinda relaxing to me as more on practice and nothing but practice.. Hmm.. After class bus home..

Actually meeting Bry and John de... But hor..... John fly plane.. Haha... Reason for u to find out la.. He got personal stuff to see to.. Well.. I am having Prata craze out of a sudden... But dunno who to ask to go supper.. Last time got him.. Dee dun eat supper de.. A lot knows la.. I dun like to eat while the person who is with me just look at me eat.. I will feel super pai sei.. Dunno why.. Its really weird to eat while the person just accompany u.. Somehow will feel bad de.. LoL.. Ok I am weird huh.. LoL..

Well.. Home liaoz.. Mum told me Bro called.. Hmm.. He seems to be enjoying his army daze.. LoL.. Next Thurs I going for my Final Theory Test and I have not start my practical lesson.. Although I got the instructor number but I have yet to call.. LoL...

Hmm.. Tomorrow going JB to do some stuff then heading back SG to meet JJ, BaoZhuJie & Dickson.. BaoZhuJie by the time u read my blog, I think its already too late coz Nic told me he not meeting us and asked me not to tell u.. =.=

But after tomorrow u gonna be officially 23.. Hahaz.... Well time really passed fast.. Since Dip till now.. LoL.. We only got close after graduation.. Its really super amazing huh... Well well.. Update till here.. Hehez..

Supper @ Bedok 85

2010-06-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today went for FA lesson despite stomach cramp.. Think Gastric Flu occurs again.. Wanna buy Koi to sch de.. But I went out late.. So trained to Queenstown and bought Mr Bean Pearly Soya instead.. Went sch had my dinner.. The mix rice is not so nice.. Wootz.. I know I eat Western instead.. LoL...

Benson not attending class as he got reservist.. LoL.. We thought he MIA sia.. LoL... Then lesson was doing Statement.. Then lecturer was talking to a point, he said Tesco was UK mart.. But my Xiao Jiu told me is US mart.. Haha.. Gonna tell him.. He got wrong info le.. LoL..

After lesson, John came to fetch me.. We went to Bedok as he bought something online and we went to 85 bedok to have supper.. I long time didn't go there eat le.. Hahaz.. Lucky I somehow still remember the way huh.. Although went there once only.. LoL..

After that we went AMK as he wanna buy phone.. LoL.. He showed me a letter that he will posted to overseas in July.. He will be going back Taiwan again.. Erm.. Hopefully we won't lost contact like last time.. Well.. After that headed home.. Got homework.. But tomorrow then do.. Lazy.. Haha.. Played on mini note and updating using my mini note.. Haha.. Alrightz.. Tomorrow still got class and I going to City Square with my mum for lunch.. Hehez... Nitez le.. :)

No Mood for Lesson

2010-06-14T23:45:00.005+08:00

Today was freaking tired and dun feel like going for class.. Ya obviously because its BM.. I can't what the lecturer was teaching and the Assignment was hanging in the air waiting for me to start.. I really dun have the mood..

I got my new lappy as well.. Haha.. Will share the pics later.. Well.. After class went BaoZhuJie's house.. We took some photos using my newly bought lappy.. Alright.. Shall let the photos do the talking.. Ciaoz.. :)

My Current Lappy 14" ~ Main Usage.. :)

My Newly Bought 12" ~ Travelling Purpose

The Open Up :) ~ 1.5Kg ^_^

Alright the photos taken using my new Lappy with BaoZhuJie :)

Sat & Sun (12.06.10 & 13.06.10)

2010-06-13T23:55:00.000+08:00

Got back to JB on sat.. Things were fine.. Back to hometown.. Asked 小舅 to help me to develop photos for my album.. I had a mini album for my personal photos.. Hehez.. Hmm.. Then ate my late lunch.. 20 pcs of MacNuggets..

Hmm.. Sg ones are nicer.. Dunno why.. Bcoz the sauce in JB they give one only. I asked for more.. They ignored me.. Until I looked for the manager.. She then apologized.. Kns... Lousy service.. Wootz.. This is also partial of my reason of being racist.. Hmph...

Well.. 小舅 suggested that we go Omega Hawker to eat.. Ate hum, oyster, sotong, satay & stingray for dinner.. The food is better than SG.. Well.. Some food in JB are nicer but SG is not on lose either.. Hehez...

Hmm.. After that headed home.. Po Po watching Ch 8, 7pm show which utterly will makes me fall asleep as its too draggy.. LoL... Hmm.. Intended to go Tesco to shop.. But they wanna watch finish the show first.. LoL..

Around 9 plus we went out to Tesco.. Well.. When we arrived, I told mum not to buy anything for Lai as he kinda naughty.. He was rude to his parents and uses vulgarities on them.. What the hell lo.. I wasn't satisfied with this kind of behavior lo... Mum nodded and agreed...

So I was keeping my eyes to observe.. Lai walked with us.. Didn't walk off on his own.. Then I was looking at Adidas Hair & Body Shampoo.. SG dun have lo.. If got go Sentosa or overseas, can bring lo.. As the bottle not big.. Its the size the plane allows u to bring on board.. I bought a few.. Well I got for my bro also as he is in Army.. Sure need this lo.. Some more the scent is not bad.. Hehez..

Well.. When checking out.. Lai passed my mum 2 Dvds.. I said cannot buy.. My mum insisted that its the last time.. Well.. Every time tell me last time.. Its never the last.. Whenever he is rebellious or being scold.. My mum never reprimand him.. She just buy for him.. Like that when will he know that he is in the wrong.. I wanna scold her.. But she's my mum.. What can I do.. My dad had foresee all this and tell me to beware of my mum being bully.. Well.. My mum dun heed my words.. What can I do... To others I am jealous of their kid.. WTF!!!! Your son did things wrong and my mum still pamper instead of scold and in return I was said to be jealous of him.. I was freaking angry and blow my top.. I totally dun wan to help my mum carry her stuff.. I was freaking angry.. She can't even teach her children properly and yet in turn to say I am jealous of her son got pamper.. Get the hell out of your brains.. I got nothing better to do and go jealous over such minor stuff..

I really angry and when I got home.. I went to bath and totally ignore my mum.. She didn't say anything and keep mum.. I was utterly disappointed.. Wat on earth I care so much.. Its freaking ridiculous man.. I really angry.. Whole night couldn't sleep and getting angry over such stuff.. Instead of looking at the things her son had done.. She point her fingers to me.. Damn it.. I really ignoring them.. 小舅 didn't know anything.. But 小舅 knows I am angry, he doesn't say anything.. 小舅 will only ask when I really throw my anger or shout at my mum when I can't control it..

Then morning woke up, 小舅 told me he confiscated the DVD and said if can go change it.. I told 小舅 tell my mum dun tell me, I no longer interested.. Its not my money either.. U all think I care so much about money ma.. I rather spent and live my life to the fullest for the day as I dun wanna think too much about as everyone's tomorrow nobody knows.. But what yr wife care was MONEY and nothing else.. She thought I am the same as her.. Get the side out of my sight.. I am going home later.. Not going to eat.. My mum wanna stay by all means.. I am not interested.. I rather go home and do my assignment instead of wasting time here.. 小舅 got angry as what I said was out of anger.. But I had packed my clothes and left none there.. I told 小舅 directly.. Wat for come back every weekend and got angered by his wife and kids who got brains but talk as if they are the smart ones.. They dunno then dun say.. Say something useful then useless..

Mum woke up.. I told mum that I going home.. Lai juz came out of bath and scolded something.. Its vulgarities again.. I turned and gave him a few tight slaps.. Aunty Nik was shocked that I hit her son.. Ya I could take it anymore.. Vulgarities here and there for a 13 year old kid.. What the hell.. He doesn't use it on anyone but scolding his mum.. Wat the hell.. No respect at all.. She still accused me.. Damn...

After thurs go back JB, I am not going back anymore.. Until I got save enough to buy a house there then maybe I will go back.. I dun wan to stay the same house as them.. Shit idiotz... Alrightz.. After much persuasion of Po Po.. I stayed till after dinner and went home around 9pm.. Tuas as usual got jam.. In the end got home at 11 plus.. Travel by PIE is much more cheaper than AYE.. =.=

Manhattan Fish Market & Mind's Cafe

2010-06-11T23:50:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Today went to PC Show with John.. Went to survey the Lappy.. I had in mind to buy Asus de.. So didn't really see other brands much..

Hmm.. Went out to meet John at Sim Lim then walked to Suntec.. On the way, thought of buying Koi de.. But the freaking Queue is long.. I gave up the idea.. Wootz.. Continued our journey to Suntec..

Headed directly to The PC show.. In the end I bought power socket for USB charging.. Hmm.. After that walked all the way to Dhoby to meet my classmates for dinner and chill out.. Wanna go Kbox.. But its freaking ex.. Even Buffet also ex.. Faintz........

Went to eat at Manhattan Fish Market.. Well went early the queue is not long.. Hahaz.. When we were seated inside.. The queue outside got longer.. This is the prove.. Hahaz..

After our dinner, wanna go washroom and passed by Hazel's mum travelling agency.. I saw the MIA Hazel.. Go say hello to her.. Hehez.. She wanna go SIM instead heading back MDIS.. Msg to tell Bee that I saw our Bunnie.. LoL... Bee was like can try la.. Coz not UOL should be easier to go in.. Hmm.. All the best Bunnie.. After that we headed off to Mind's cafe at Prinsep Street.. Its rather noisy.. Hard to talk.. We need talk at the top of our voice.. Frankly speaking we were chatting more than playing games.. Played for 2 hours.. We didn't finish our food.. LoL...

After that we headed or own way.. Benson going Marina to meet his gf.. Xavier going AMK to meet gf then Alisa going to Jurong to meet her friends and after that go Butter..

Hmm.. I think its been long that I stepped into club or pub after last year.. LoL.. Although I seldom go but Pub is where I usually frequent de.. Ya mostly with my dad.. Wootz...

Hmm.. Home liaoz.. Kinda tired after the whole day.. Tomorrow going back JB.. Wootz.. Dunno I will enjoy a not.. Somehow I am angry with the kids.. Coz every now and then Aunty Nik keep call and complain... Diaoz.. She's their mother... But keep calling and complain to us about her kids... Its like my mum are their mother more than her lo.. I really buay tarhan and got angry with mum.. I think in no time I will blow my top... We shall see...... 0_0

Photos of the Day:

~Cancelled~

2010-06-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

Today stayed home to slack as I am not well.. Went out with mum to City Square to walk around and have dinner..

Had Mac for dinner.. Sore throat was hitting me now and then.. Kns.. Eat wat remedy also won't cure.. I really start to heck care liao...

Reached home watched tv and after that I am kinda tired.. So called BaoZhuJie to cancel going to her house to collect the soft copy of her photos for developing.. Postpone to next Monday instead..

Then did my stuff.. Played games on Itouchie.. Watched my drama DVD.. Planning to PC show.. So arranged with John and we are going tomorrow.. Hehez.. I planning to get a mini note.. Smaller than 14" but bigger than 10" as a lot told me Atom processor not good.. So no 10".. Haha..

Hmm.. Planning to get one coz travelling I can use lappy.. Then I can also make full use of my mobile broadband.. Hehez.. Well.. Overseas have overseas charge but I normally buy prepaid cards as cheaper.. Hahaz..

Hmm.. Received the Project details from my mate.. Well.. I really dun have mood to start.. Die man.. No motivation wor... Its like dunno where to start and what the hell this whole is about.. I need to buck up and do. Maybe next weekend I will try to do ba.. Not sure.. I now do not have the mood to do.. BM really gives stress sia.. Bullets are enough to handle but the speed of a train.. I really cannot take it..

Lunching @ 123 ~ Misses

2010-06-09T23:45:00.000+08:00

Today went to buy Koi @ Iluma as going to meet my Jason's colleagues for lunchie.. Hehez.. I am late.. Trained to Clementi and Cabbed to Pandan Loop.. LoL... Long time never go there ever since I tendered.. LoL...

Hmm.. Lunching with my accounts peeps Liang, Hau, Joyce, Siew Quen and lastly Wei Li from Service de.. LoL.. Then during lunch talked to them and Wei Li suddenly asked me when wanna go Universal as I told him I will plan a day.. But till now I didn't.. I also didn't forget that he asked me to ask BaoZhuJie along.. LoL..

Well tell him I will plan and let him know asap.. Hahaz.. Think will go when I am having my term break.. Hehez.. After meeting them.. They got to return to work.. Wei Li accompanied me to the bus stop as its raining heavily.. Not long bus came.. Bus to Clementi and cabbed home.. Hahaz.. When I am working there.. That's usually my regular routine ~ Bus to Clementi and cabbed.. LoL...

Home liao and chatted with Bee as she wanna have Koi too. LoL.. But I gonna buy at Chinatown instead as nearer to school ma.. Ice won't melt so fast too.. Hahaz... Hmm.. Meet Bee at Tiong Bahru Control.. Bee super funny lo.. Wanna get down at the next stop.. I wanna pull her.. But she almost exiting.. Then I shouted to her.. Both of us felt damn malu sia.. LoL...

Reached Queenstown and its freaking early can.. Diaoz.... So we walked to school.. Hehez.. Crapped and chatted on the way.. Hahaz.. Then we had our lunch in school.. LoL.. Will post the pics in my FB instead.. Haven upload to com.. LoL...

Alrightz.. Today class really nothing to do... I am practically stoning into the thin air.. I was thinking of things.. Well.. I really dunno.. A lot of u tell me I had change and differ from last time.. But I wonder what did I change.. LoL.. I really dunno lo.. I only know I no longer that heck care as before.. Well.. I think I am juz killing my brain cells to think ya.. LoL...

BM Driving Me Nuts

2010-06-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today was told that our project details for BM is received through email.. So I came home and checked.. I didn't received.. The school coordinator really hor no comments..... KNS!!

Asked my classmate to send me instead.. Hehe.. Thanks Xavier.. Hehez.. Well.. Nothing much today as school is really as usual.. But lesson seems enjoyable when my fun loving classmates are there as lesson tends to be less boring.. Hehez...

After school, bused home.. Alone on the journey home.. Hmm... I somehow getting use to this kind of life le.. Well.. A lot of people around me keep asking me to find a partner and move on.. But I really dun have the mindset of moving another step but wanna enjoy life like there's no tomorrow.. Ever since my dad left.. I had changed my thoughts and everything..

Life what does it really mean to you? Well.. Life to me differs now than last time.. Usually I rather spend with love one and constraint myself to a particular.. But now I rather do what I like and enjoy as much as I can. I dun wan to wake up and find out that I had left this world with not accomplished.. I dunno when I will be knock out or knock down or simply to say.. Leaving this world unknowingly in sleep.. None of us could tell whether do we have tomorrow.. Life seems strong on the outer but its indeed freaking fragile.. Like my dad.. He could smile and joke with us the day before as his usual daily life style.. He looks strong and could use his strength to pinch us... But the day after.. He falls into a coma.. None of us expect that neither my dad does as he said he wanna go Vivo.. But he was in coma the next day.. He can't go Vivo anymore..

Well.. A lot of things left unsaid and undone for him.. But for me.. I had to move on.. Bearing the agony in me.. There's a lot to take in strife.. But what can I do.. I cried out.. I felt weak.. But none lend a helping hand to pull me together.. But frankly speaking.. Like what one say.. Facing yr failure or losses, the right way is to try to stand up on yr own instead of rely on others..

Well.. I do hope I could have the person I could really spend my life with.. Slowly bah.. Too rush will just make things worse right.. I really do not have anyone in mind now.. I really kept my mind blank.. :)

Meet Up Bry & John

2010-06-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

Got back from JB today.. Then rested awhile.. Went online and chatted with Dee.. Hmm.. Time kinda late liao.. So prepared and went out to meet Bry at Bugis..

Went to have dinner at MOF.. Took some pic.. I still like to eat Jap Curry Rice.. But every time when I eating that.. I am thinking of the past.. What if I had hold back my words.. Will things still end up like this today.. But what's done cannot be undone..

This is wat we ate.. :)

Well.. Not long later, John called.. So we walked from Bugis to Marina Square.. Bry told me years back, we might had been together.. Well.. Times had changed and so does feelings had long gone.. Well no ones know what will happen if I didn't lose contact with Bry & John.. But I am glad I had found them.. Yes they are always looking for me.. Sorry that I had gone missing for so many years..

Reached Marina.. Went to LJS looked for John.. Then we went KBox.. Hehez.. Went for their $8 Nett Promo.. Hahaz... The room each time we went is getting bigger and bigger.. Wootz.. This is ultra large.. Well.. I juz post the group pic of us instead of the room as I dun think that is the main point of today's meet up.. LoL...

Hmm.. Had quite a fun day with them.. Joke and make fun of each other like the olden days.. LoL.. After that John fetched us home.. Hmm.. Really had a good day.. Tomorrow having lesson as well as wed.. LoL...

Nowadays my friends find me busy but the fact is I am not sure what am I busy about.. Maybe I making myself feel busy so that I won't think so much neither I wanna face the fact about some stuff.. Who knows my agony.. I don't really like to pour out stuff either.. I mean no one likes to listen to shit u are going through as this is what taught to me by him..

Photo of the Day:

Too Much Curry = Sick?!

2010-06-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

Today went to have Asam Laksa and Curry Yong Tau Fu for lunch.. Tried to drive but chicken out a second coz saw Patrol Car passing by Po Po house.. Wootz.. JB security seems to raise up.. Not bad huh..

Then after eating bought Pancakes.. LoL.. Told mum to buy 2 but she bought 4.. Wootz.. Then went Tesco shopping.. The kids wanna go play games so accompanied them.. Bring Shan to play on play ground and some kiddy rides.. But she wet her Pampers.. Wootz.. Bring her go find Aunty Nik.. Then head off to play my game as I have balance token.. Played Rock Fever.. Then suddenly I turned while finishing 1st stage.. There are a few parents looking.. Felt weird as I dun really like to have people watching me when I am playing.. Dunno where.. Peer pressure bahz..

Then tried to finish the rounds.. Guess what.. Lai came and tell me, "姐姐, 大舅 is here with us.." I was like huh.. **STONE!!** Then he continued, "大舅看到你在玩,所以没有打扰你.." In my mind, "I AM DEAD!!"

Well since a kid, my 大舅 doesn't allow KC, KW, Bro and me to play games de.. So in front of him, we always never say we go play games.. If not our maths question sure kanna double and hard.. Jialat liaoz.. Pretend walk to where 大舅 is and called him.. He gave the nodding head and a stern look.. I was like die liaoz.. Saw 小舅 then stopped him outside the arcade.. Then I tell him 大舅 inside.. Then he give me the "ooh" look.. Diaoz..

I am much more closer to 小舅 than 大舅.. Faster run leave the kids to 大舅 and accompany 小舅 to go buy food.. I bought Kaya Ball.. Then 小舅 bought some curry fish ball.. We shared our food.. Then 小舅 keep scaring me by saying, "Die liao lo.. Later go back Po Po house, wash your ear clean to be scolded hor..."

Kns de leh 小舅.. He always like to take me as a joke to bully.. Then 大舅 left the shopping mall.. We left shortly after him.. Got back and faster went upstairs.. 大舅 then came up.. Thoughts of kanna question arouse in my brain.. But let's Diaoz.. As....... He doesn't.. Hahaz.. Relieved..

大舅 said that he doesn't know I like to play game then said dun bring Lai they all go too often.. Then he said play game can distress hor.. Then I said ya.. But I dun play that often.. Hahaz... Then he asked me about the basketball machine coz he saw I played that earlier on... I was like huh.. This one he is so interested ar.. Need to discuss de ma.. He was asking me about aiming.. The score to contine to stage and so on.. I diaoz all the way while telling I dunno much.. I treat that as an exercise for the arms.. LoL.. He was like really ar.. Innovative hor.. **Sweatz** I really have difficulty talking to my 大舅 as he is always so stern, that's why I dare not talk to him... I was like thinking when will he go downstairs and I wanna feel no stress.. LoL...

My wish was heard.. He stopped asking me questions as I said a lot of I dunno.. Wahahaz.. Then he only reminded me dun play too often till injure myself.. Phew~ Cold sweat runs till I no more sweat.. =.=

Then took some photos with my cousins and my camera sounded low batt.. But my body batt also running low.. Take until I fell asleep and they leave me alone.. Good. Its so relaxing.. Aunty Nik woke me up for dinner as 大舅 they all went back already..

Again I didn't eat much as today's food not fantastic.. But drank lots of soup.. Suddenly whole body feels weak and feverish.. Ate medicine and took temp.. Shortly I feels giddy.. How come suddenly sick wor.. Sianz.. Alrightz.. I gonna head to bed.. Tomorrow heading back SG..